Gone… Gone forever.
I need to escape. I need to get out, run away and never, ever come back, never have to see him again, never see her again.
I stumble and fall, hands and knees scraped by dry earth. It hurts, but not as much as my heart. The pain triggers tears that couldn't fall before, and I sprawl out on the earth, sobbing, gasping, coughing, and feel the tears course down my cheeks, chocking on the lump in my throat. It hurts… it hurts so much. Why so much?
It's as if all the pain I squeezed out for so long is hitting me now, all at once. Surely that's not fair…?
But then how could I know? How could I ever know, me a princess, a warrior, a queen, and yet a child, a baby when I came to the heart? How could I understand love? How could I possibly comprehend what passes between them when they speak, the love in their eyes, the joy in their faces? Love?
But I do. I understand all too deeply, every touch, every kiss, every smile. A knife in my heart, twisting every time.
I thought I'd felt pain before. I thought I knew what real agony felt like. I'd suffered as much as anyone, I thought.
But here, lying in the dirt, my face streaked with tears and my body shaking with sobs, I know: I was wrong.
I was so, so wrong.
A.N. This sort of hit me when I was listening to Taylors Swift's 'Speak Now'. You can read it however you want, but I have my own ideas about what's going on. Perhaps if anyone reviews they could tell me what they think? Is Eragon getting married to Nasuada? Or someone else? Is he leaving alagaesia with Rider-of-The-Green-Dragon? Has faolin rejected her? Does he love someone else? So whatever you think, tell me. Please review!