Reflections
Hutch... He says he forgives me and that he doesn't hate me for what I did. I don't know, maybe he doesn't, but I'm just not sure. I don't know why I did what I did; I never wanted to hurt him. It wasn't like Kira was the type of woman I would hurt my best friend over. She was pretty, but not really beautiful. She was a little ditzy but still a sweet girl. Maybe, deep down inside, I was just worried about losing Starsky. He said they were in love. I think I feared losing that special relationship that we have always had. Now, she is out of our lives, thanks to us both realizing that she wasn't worth all the trouble. It wasn't all her fault that she loved us both, after all we both went after her. Maybe it was just a game between us, to test our friendship. Whatever it was, it was stupid. I could have lost the only person who has stuck by me no matter what. We know each other so well - just a glance and we know what the other is thinking. Just a comforting touch and we feel safe. I hope that Starsky and I can get back to our Me and Thee world; it's the only place we belong. Without him I'd be nothing...
Starsky... I know Hutch feels bad about what happened between him and Kira. He just don't see that I'm over it and I want to move on. I don't really think he meant to hurt me at all, I think he was afraid that we would lose what we've always had - each other. But, that will never happen. Besides, me and Kira wouldn't have worked in the end; she was confused about what she wanted. Maybe she did love us both and why not? We are great guys, not bad looking and I consider myself a caring lover. Hutch must be too since crazy Diana fell in love with him. No, in the end one of us would have been hurt. Most of the women we date just don't understand us being cops or that Hutch will always come first in my life and I in his. Gillian and Terry understood but now they are gone and it's still just me and Hutch. I hope Hutch can get over feeling bad about this so we can find our way back to our Me and Thee world, it's the only place we belong. Without him I'd be nothing...