By Liberty Ford
Fear inside me exists only while I believe it's there. When I stop believing in it and stop acting upon it everything will work out fine.
I'm scared of loving her too much and I'm scared that maybe she doesn't love me as much as I love her.
It's my weakness, I know and one day I'm sure to over come it.
She makes me so mad.
I wish she'd get a fucking backbone.
You're so bloody sensitive.
Don't make me so mad.
I compose myself and I know now I mush apologise for shouting, for losing my temper with her yet again and for hurting more than just her feelings.
Her skin is so weak. She's so weak. She can crumble so easily. It's almost fun watching her whimper on the ground and beg at my feet. She's so weak…
I don't need this shit today.
Shut your face you know it's me who ends up saying sorry.
I bloody deserve it.
I don't need to think about this shit today.
I know I have a bad temper. How can I have done this? She just pushed me too far today. I warned her and I warned her. She never did listen. She's just too weak.
Her body's so cold and still. She's dead.
"Hermione…?" I whispered in her ear.
No movement. She's fucking killed herself that bitch.
She did this…
She did this…
Right? No…
Will anyone understand?
Will I go to Azkaban?
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"Pansy… Pansy…" Hermione screamed while several doctors held her back from Pansy's body. "What happened to her?" Hermione broke free of their grasp and fell to the floor sobbing. "Why did she kill herself?" She asked finally as a young women helped her to her feet.
"She didn't."
"What?"
"We know everything, Hermione"
Hermione stared blankly at the woman. She stared blankly at Pansy's beaten and dead body. As they took her off to Azkaban, she stared blankly into the nothingness that became her life.
"You don't understand! Am I going to Azkaban? You don't understand! Am I going to Azkaban?" Was all she could repeat, locked away in her cell.
Three weeks later she received the Dementor's Kiss.
"Was it as sweet as mine?" Pansy asked her.
"Not nearly as much my darling."
Then they kissed. A dead kiss.
The End