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A Meeting of Equals, or, Haven't I Suffered Enough? By mb1017
He could hear Kyle dying,
gasping into the dusty twilight, but he was most aware of his shoulder, as the
pain rebounded on him and slammed down like a pile driver. He could hear Parker
cursing colorfully as she got to her feet, but he momentarily could not see as
he adjusted to the increased level of pain, with all his might willing his
brain not to shut down. He had sunken to the ground, leaning back against
rotting wood which splintered off into his shirt and into his back as he
dragged himself along without seeing, into the shadows where he could not be
seen.
He had rounded the bend,
cursing the pain in his side and his hand and his shoulder when suddenly he was
confronted with a new thing to curse.
A pair of shapely legs ending
in a pair of black lizard pumps too shiny to have been in this accursed desert
for long blocked his path. In the future he would have no idea why these
details stuck so vividly in his mind, but he had a notion he would never
recover from the shock of this turn of events. Momentarily and very literally
struck dumb, he stared through a haze of pain up at the owner of the pumps and
legs.
A tall, dark woman smiled
rather sheepishly down on him. Either he was shrinking or she was just about as
tall as Parker, he thought inanely. Already tall woman
wearing heels. Damned emasculating. He mentally
slapped himself and attempted to focus, but it was really no good. His field of
vision was shrinking, and he felt the hard earth of the desert, hot even in the
evening, spinning under him. His eyes painfully sought her face, some sign of her
intentions.
"You must be Mr. Lyle," came her voice, absurdly conversational, the last thing he
heard before slipping mercifully into unconsciousness.
He was a fucking mess. Barely
recognizable as the well-groomed and vaguely squirrelly-looking Centre employee
in the photos she had been given. She sighed as she lifted him up, her arms
under his shoulders, as she tried valiantly to ignore the smell and keep his
blood off of her black leather trench coat, which was new after all. Pulling him
along was surprisingly easy to do; he appeared to have lost weight, and his
eyes, now closed, had the hollow and bruised look of someone who has lost too
much weight in too short a time.
She could hear Jarod's sobs as Kyle doubtless succumbed to his wounds. She
clacked her tongue in annoyance. They both had always been such prima donnas.
Goody Two-Shoes Jarod always trying to help people
and Mr. Hot Shot "I Decide Who Lives Or Dies." Lah-dee-fucking-dah.
She opened the back door of the
dark sedan in which she had arrived in this one-horse town and grunted as she
hoisted Lyle's inert form inside, trying not to jostle him too badly. She
leaned down over his shoulder, close, her dark hair
brushing his face, which consequently is why she jumped up and yelped so loudly
when his eyes opened suddenly.
His right hand shot up from his
side and grabbed her throat. His grip was machine-like, his grey eyes cold and
desperate.
"Who....what do you....who do
you work for?" he finally got out, his voice strangled and hushed. Staring down
into his bloodshot eyes, which she supposed had once been beautiful, she would
almost have felt pity if he hadn't been crushing her larynx. And assuming she
could feel pity at all. As it was, she could only stare at him, seemingly
frozen even as she clawed at his arm with both her hands. His hand seemed
superhuman; adrenaline, thought a detached portion of her mind. Goddamn. So
this is how it's going to end. Ahh, this looks bad.
None of this showed in her
face. Lyle could see only dark eyes locked on his, no emotion, no compromise.
She could feel his grip begin to loosen, his momentary burst of strength
beginning to cost him. His eyes broke from hers and closed, his arm dropping
away from her throat. She coughed in an affronted sort of way, massaging her
neck, and backed away from the car cautiously, not entirely convinced he was
unconscious.
After what she deemed an
appropriate interval with no sign of life from Lyle, she went to the front
seat, skirting the area around Lyle as one might walk around the back of a
skittish horse. She reached into a black doctor's bag for a syringe and two
ampoules, one of a sedative, one of an analgesic, which she administered to
Lyle quickly and efficiently.
Reassured of her safety, she
again leaned over his shoulder. Through the mess of blood and loose skin, she
could ascertain that the cannon had only grazed his shoulder. This she deduced
from the fact that Lyle still had a shoulder. As bad as it was, it could have
been much worse. Kyle's marksmanship had always been shit under pressure.
Lyle was, however, losing a
fair amount of blood, which she assessed in a calculating fashion as she
absently drew a sterile bandage from her bag and ripped its plastic packaging
open with her teeth. She quickly applied a temporary tourniquet above the wound
and mopped up some of the extra blood with gauze. Her eyes and her mind had
already moved on to his hand, which was giving off a rather unmistakable smell.
She gingerly peeled off the
filthy bandage, wrinkling her nose as she did so. Gangrene.
Fuck. As she looked more closely, she could see that it had claimed most of
what was left of his thumb, the brief, raw stump which concealed the bone. The
rest of his hand still seemed untouched, which she took as a good sign. She
swiftly re-bandaged his hand, made sure his head was clear of the car door, and
slammed it shut. Her heels crunched gravel as she made her way around the front
of the car. Ah, impromptu surgery. What Saturday night would be complete
without it, her mind drawled snidely. One fine day
Raines was going to pay for all of this. Schlepping herself out into this
godforsaken desert, almost getting strangled by a desperate, smelly psychotic,
fucking everything. Including the coat, she noted in dismay as she looked down
at herself. Blood everywhere. Fucking
expensive coat. New, too. Nothing gets blood
out. Fucking Raines.
Lyle moaned, a pathetic sound,
barely recognizable as coming from a grown human. She glanced back at him. The
moonlight filtered through the window and across his face, where sweat was
beading, the analgesic apparently not enough to allow
him to escape his pain. She could see his eyes darting back and forth under his
closed lids. No peace, awake or otherwise. She sighed. No rest for the wicked,
it would appear. Not for him, and definitely not for her.
She forced herself to stop with
the self pity, to start the car and get it in gear, and mostly, to tear her
eyes away from Lyle's face. He was,
she had to admit, rather handsome, in that aforementioned squirrelly way. Boyish. Almost, and she laughed at the very
thought, innocent. Don't be fooled by his pathetic exterior, Raines had half
wheezed, half croaked at her, his blue eyes sharp and clear in his withering
body. He can be disarming. But make no mistake about what you are dealing with.
And she had smiled and turned on her heel and left the Centre. Don't you worry
about me.
Of course, there was the fact
that he was a sociopath.
Labels, she mused to herself as
she pulled the car onto the barely paved, dusty road back to civilization. Always hated 'em. She and Lyle had
been identified as and categorized under many of the same labels, by many of
the same people. Thief. Rat. Con artist. Sociopath. She grinned.
She was rather looking forward to Lyle regaining consciousness. This was going
to be fun.
When Lyle woke up, the first
thing he noticed was that he no longer smelled as though he had died several
weeks ago.
Am I dead? he
wondered, only half concerned with the answer. He tried to open his eyes but
could not – it felt impossible, as though he were trying to keep his eyes open
underwater, something he had never learned to do, had
never liked the feeling of.
He listened instead, and he
felt. He had been taught long ago: use all your senses if you want to survive.
Do not rely on only one. They can take anything away from you. And they will.
Lyle could feel cool air on his
face – a window was open somewhere. He tried to move his right arm. His fingers
twitched, but his hand stayed put. I'm drugged, he thought. Body
not working. Shit.
Beyond that, he was not
particularly aware of pain. His entire body throbbed with an indefinable, not
quite pleasant sensation, unmistakably drug-induced. He could not feel anything
at all from his left shoulder down. And he panicked. He wanted to scream; he
tried to scream. He could not. His voice was just as useless as the rest of his
body, trapped in his throat like a frightened animal. His body was immobile, so
his mind raced, faster than it possibly could have had he been fully awake. He
was drugged. Where am I? How did I get here? Who drugged me?
Oh yeah.
Black pumps. Nice legs. Very tall. Dark hair, dark eyes, very
pale, freckled skin. Not Parker, though. Who, then? Never
seen her before. Makes no sense. Can't feel my arm at all. Shit. You're not careful, you could lose the whole hand. Fucking
smug Jarod. Pretty sure Jarod
doesn't own pumps. Almost strangled her. Probably
didn't endear myself to her doing that. Fuck. Who the fuck is she? What does
she want? Who does she work for? The Centre? Maybe. Probably. Really
though. Fuck.
"Summertime,
and the living is easy..."
Lyle's mind froze mid-thought. Soft, high voice, a woman's. Ever so slightly off key. This
is too strange, even for my dreams. Besides, I hate Gershwin.
"Fish are jumpin'
and the cotton is high..."
No fucking way. And I
definitely don't know all the words to this song.
"Oh, your daddy's rich and your
mama's good lookin' so hush little baby now don't you
cry..."
Lyle channeled Sydney and
tried to discern a meaning. None was forthcoming.
"One of these mornin's you're gonna rise up singin'...All right, you're set for now."
No. No. Definitely
hearing things. Drugged. But
aware. Lyle vaguely recalled a Dateline special about patients who
underwent surgery in horrible pain but under just enough anesthesia
to be unable to call out to the doctors to stop them. Fuck. Panic.
Fuck.
"Then you'll spread your
wings and take to the sky... well that was awfully fucking messy, Mr. Lyle. Coulda lost that
hand."
Coulda. Meaning, didn't?
"But til
that mornin' ain't nothin' can harm you with your daddy and your mammy standin' by... Well, Mr. Lyle, unfortunately for you that
isn't true. For any of us, really. Quite
a crock of shit, actually. Pretty, though. I love Gershwin. And he
didn't write the words."
Oh. God.
What kind of sick fuck would sing Gershwin while operating? I am in the
clutches of a bona fide fucking psychopath. And I can't move. Fuck fuck fuck.
She was really rather pleased,
considering the circumstances. Lyle was resting comfortably, his breath even
and steady, his left arm bandaged and in a sling. She hummed "I Loves You
Porgy" under her breath as she tidied her make-shift operating room, smiling
slightly as she was wont to do, more out of habit than of intention. Satisfied,
she sat in a straight- backed wooden chair beside the bed, one leg tucked under
her, surveying her work.
Lyle was now shirtless, and she
noted several other scars than the ones she had just helped to create. She had
stitched the knife wound Kyle had left in his side, but she noticed other
scars, faded white and sinister, on his chest and stomach, his arms, his back.
She touched his ribs gently –
she could count them. His torso was not muscular, just thin; his strength
appeared to be in his arms. And his hands, she mused ruefully, rubbing her neck
self-consciously. That'll leave a bruise. Fucking Lyle.
His body was not the body of
someone who worked out for aesthetic purposes, or to impress anyone. His body
was a testament to survival, only that, and nothing extra. She had to admit
that she found that beautiful. She found him beautiful, in a way she uniquely
understood, a survivor herself. Not as a necessarily emotional or sexual
object, but beautiful as art is beautiful – a creation, an improbability
brought forth by a singular intellect. She beheld him, a fellow artist
appreciating an equal talent.
As she watched, he began to
wake, slowly, as a child wakes, in fits and starts. His eyes were open, and
they were watching her. She could not read his expression.
She waited, keeping a
respectful distance, mindful of the fact that she had not restrained him in
anyway. She had not expected the effects of the sedative and his exhaustion to
wear off so soon.
"Who are you?" he asked softly,
to his credit only slurring the words slightly.
"I've come to bring you back,"
she said simply. His eyes closed briefly, then returned to her face,
appraising, calculating even as the drugs still held him.
"Are you in any pain?" she
asked, her face not changing, never changing expression, always the same slight
smile. He watched her a moment, then shook his head slowly.
"Who sent you?" Her smile
deepened, her lips parting to reveal slightly uneven teeth. Like fangs, she
always liked to think.
"Quite a few people, actually.
But I'm here on my own behalf now." She paused, gauging his reaction. She got
none. "We'll talk when you're feeling better. I spent the better part of four
hours cleaning you up, and I'm going to bed. I will see you in the morning."
She rose from the chair and pulled the covers up a bit further, to the middle
of his chest, immediately a little embarrassed by the mindless, maternal
gesture. He was close enough to grab her again; in fact he was eyeing her neck
intently, but again she could not read his expression.
"You're not going to cuff me?"
he asked abruptly.
"That's a little pathetic,
don't you think?" she smirked at him, glancing at his bandaged arm but already
reaching for the cuffs from behind her back. She thought she saw the hint of a
smile before she clapped one cuff down on his right ankle, one to the foot of
the bed. His eyes never left her; she began to fancy that he was a little
afraid of her. Her smile remained in place; that was one part of the job she
would never tire of. Satisfied that to escape would require more strength than
he had, and considering that he was in no danger until the morning, she felt
his body begin to relax as her hand lingered on his ankle, saw his head lean
into the pillow.
"Good night, Mr. Lyle," she
said softly.
"Good night," he echoed, even
more softly, his eyes on hers, an injured, cornered predator eyeing its healthy
rival. She nodded slightly before turning her back on him and leaving the room.
She was aware of a rather silly grin spreading, unstoppable, over her face.
This was even better than
Raines had suggested. He was more complicated, and perhaps more dangerous, than
those who had sent her to find him believed or imagined. This would be the
beginning of a partnership, a meeting of equals. Now, all she had to do was
tell Lyle.
