This is a songfic!!! I think you'll like it. It pertains to something major in my life right now.

Song: Don't Cry Out

Artist: Shiny Toy Guns

I don't own it.

I don't get you. I can't forget what you forgot.

I've never been so alone.

I can't help but watch as he takes her hand and she smiles…and I jealously feel the anger boil up in myself. I can't help but feel nothing but hot blood pumping through me. His brown hair is glistening in the moon light, his glasses reflect the light. I want to knock them off his pretty face.

I was pretending
Your secret kiss of confidence was my escape

The perfect game to play…

I watch them walk off, the hot tears streaming down my face. They stop and she runs back to her house. He looks up at my window, the tears uncontrollable. He stares at me, smirking, and gets a little closer. I try to keep the gaze but it doesn't last. I break down and I can hear him say something about how stupid I am.

Don't Cry Out…Cease Fire…

10. 9. 8 and breaking away

I'm all dressed up and ready to play

7. 6. 5. 4 And I'm all over you
Counting 3.2.1 and I'm having fun

I can't take it anymore. I run down the steps and crash into him, sobbing, saying stupid nothings about how much I hate him, and how I hate what he's doing, and that she has a right to know. He doesn't bother to take my head in his hand brush the tears from my face. He just stares, as if through a mirror, and I want to run, but I can't find the courage. I tell him to let go before he sweeps me into a kiss, but I struggle, then give in. I hate him. I do.

I needed you to notice.

That's ALL I WANTED.

Don't Cry Out…Cease Fire…

He breaks away and tells me he'll call me later or something. Even though I know he won't, and if he does, they'll be words of love graced with lust, lies, and malice. I know I can't trust what he says although I want to, and I can't fight it. I'll get away from him. Eventually.

I'm Breaking Away

I'm ready to play

I'm over you
And I'm having fun.

Thanks so much for reading that stupid prose. I know that it really doesn't make much sense but it's helping me get over a tough time (and a tough guy).