Figuring out the past

Amanda POV; Chapter 1

They were yelling again, and this time I was getting tired of it. "Dammit!" I said, thumping my fist on the bed in the motel that I was staying in. I knew one voice, 'No two.' I thought, correcting my original thought. The first voice belonged to my brother, Castiel, and the second belonged to an old college friend, not to mention ex-boyfriend, Sam Winchester. I crawled out of bed, placing my gun on the nightstand and my knife at my ankle. I pulled on my clothes, which were a faded pair of jeans and a t-shirt that said "Yeah I'm a bitch, get used to it!" The shirt had been a gift from Sam, right before finals and my birthday in our first year of college. I walked to the next motel room and banged on the door.

Sam wasn't the one to open the door, he just continued yelling at Castiel, who was yelling back, not something that he does on a regular basis.

"Can I help you?" the guys asked me, once he'd finished reading my shirt and staring at my chest.

"Yeah you can, first by stop staring at my chest and second could I speak to Castiel please?" I stated politely, using my sweet and innocent voice. Suddenly the yelling became one sided, when Dean called Castiel's name.

"Dammit Sam, shut up for minute!" Castiel said before he walked to the door.

"Amanda?!" he added in surprise.

"Yes and shut the Hell up! I'm trying to sleep. I need to sleep unlike you!" I yelled as I poked my brother in his chest.

"Sorry." Castiel said as I saw Dean wince at the mention of Hell. I had to read Castiel's mind to figure out who he was. "Sam come here for a minute!" Castiel continued as he picked me up and carried me inside the motel room.

"God dammit it Cas, put me down! NOW!" I yelled while Dean looked at me weirdly, because I had taken the Lords name in vain.

"What now Castiel?!" Sam asked as he walked into the living room. "Manda?!" he added, stopping short as soon as he saw me.

"Hi." I stated quietly as Castiel put me down. I stood still, confused on what to do, but then I ran straight into Sam's arms and laid my head on his shoulder.

"Sammy." I muttered into his shoulder.

"Oh my Go-- I mean what are you doing here?" Sam asked me as he wrapped his arms around my waist, while I looped mine around his neck.

"Helping. Fighting the demons, I mean. Castiel told me to get here ASAP, so I did. What are you doing here?" I asked, barely remembering the day he walked away from me.

"Same thing except I've been doing this for a long time." Sam explained before his emotions caught up with his reactions. Suddenly I was being spun around in a circle, and then when that was finished I was being kissed senseless.

'Bout time.' I thought as I ran my fingers through his hair, and kissed him back.

"Samuel Winchester! Don't you ever forget to kiss me like that again!" I yelled as I gently yanked his hair, and pulled my mouth away from his.

"Sorry Allie, I forgot that those lips of yours belonged to someone else." Sam joked as his hands rubbed my back, I let out a low, yet noticeable, moan at his gesture.

"Dammit Sam! I only meant that you had your chance with me, in college and you blew it, big time!" I said with a very wicked smile.

"You dated her?!" Dean asked a few hours later, catching on to my earlier comment.

"Yeah he dated me." I said looking at him.

"Are either of you going to introduce me? Wow you're rude. My name is Alexandra but you can call me Allie. You must be Sammy's older brother, Dean right?" I asked with a sexy smile, even though I already knew who he was.

"Holy shit! I finally figured out who those gorgeous lips belong to."

"Hush Sam." I heard Castiel say to Sam, who shut his trap.

"Yeah, so Sammy told you about me, huh?"

"Its great to finally meet you, and Sam told me tons of stuff about the two of you, and I certainly hope that most of it was true." I said flirty casually.

"Alright Amanda, that's enough hitting on my brother. Why don't you go back to your room and hang out with your boyfriend." Sam suggested as he stood. I gave Dean another sexy smile and sauntered towards the door, only to turn around and stand by Sam, my big teddy bear of a boyfriend.

"Well considering my boyfriend isn't in my room, that's going to be kind of hard." I said with a secret smile on my face, one that Dean caught right away.

"Where is he then?"

"Dude, Sammy you really are stupid." Dean joked as he shook his head and Castiel started to chuckle. I just stood beside Sam with a small smile on my face, remembering something that I had said to him on the day of our Graduation from College.

"I'm going to give you a hint Sammy." I started but couldn't continue because Dean was laughing so hard.

"I'm standing beside him." I finally added through sets of giggles. Sam looked at me, as if he still didn't get what I just said, but then he smiled and I grabbed hold of his shirt.

"Plus he owes me one Hell of a kiss and night!" I pulled Sam out the door, and into my motel room, leaving Dean and Castiel to continue laughing at the confused look on Sam's face when he didn't understand that he was my boyfriend.

Later that night, in Amanda's motel room

"Why didn't you tell me that it was Dean, who knocked you up in the not so distant future?"

"Would you have fallen head over heels for me if I had Sammy?" I asked as I snuggled against his naked body.

"Probably. You can't help who you love." Sam admitted, quietly as he wrapped his arm around my shoulders and kissed the top of my head.

"I love you Sammy, not him. The only reason I slept with him is because I was in pain from you dying. Then Castiel brings you back and you helped me raise his baby, as if was your own, remember that. I'll always love you, no matter what or where you are." I said as I placed my hand on his abdomen. There was a few minutes of silence, both of us waiting for the other to say something else.

"We're not going to have the baby, will we?"

"Probably not, unless you knock me up before then." I said, smiling happily. Sam laughed as he rolled over and made love to me all night long.