A/N: Just a story I'm putting together, mostly for my own amusement. Two songs for this chapter, Linkin Park A Place For My Head, and Papa Roach Last Resort.

CHAPTER 1

Jay POV

First period had ended so I went looking for Greenpeace. I didn't know what Nelson was trying to pull, but I sure as hell intended on finding out. That's why I was sitting in the library, the one place you would never think that you would run into Jay Hogart. I was hoping that she would end up here soon. I didn't want to be in here too long.

As if on cue Greenpeace came walking through library doors. As she walked by the bookcases I was between, I pulled her in. I backed her up against the bookcase and kept my hands in place on her arms.

"Are you hot for Dracula, or are you trying to mess with me?" I asked

She smiled at me.

"Are you going to be in the ravine again tonight? Are we going to party? I think I need another bracelet." She said while showing me her bracelets, one of which she didn't earn

I moved my arm up closer to her shoulder, to bring her arm back down.

"I don't like being messed with okay." I stated

She continued to smile.

"I know." She said

Then what are you doing? I thought

"I need a minute with my daughter." Simpson interrupted us

I turned around to face the teacher.

"Oh that's adorable sir." I said with a grin then turned back to Nelson

"Cut the commentary Jason, go." He said

I looked back at Simpson, and then turned back to Nelson as I backed away from their father daughter moment. Obviously he had something to say about that little kiss Greenpeace started earlier. He probably wasn't too happy to find his daughter being cornered in the library by me.

I guess I would have to wait till later to find out what was going on in that girls head.

With Alex at a doctor's appointment there wasn't really any point in skipping class, so I went. Which I wish I hadn't, talk about boring! But at least it was over, until tomorrow that is. It was lunch now, so I had some more time to go get some information out of that girl.

As I walked into the cafeteria I was greeted with the irritating noise of to many people talking at once. This is the reason I don't come to the cafeteria at lunch. It didn't take me long to find her, but she was sitting with that Santos girl. Clearly it is not a good idea to just go up to her in the middle of all these people anyway.

I took a seat at an empty bench and waited, then did some more waiting. Of course ten minutes later I was still waiting. By this time I was just getting irritated, I mean come on how long can you stand being in this place. I put my face in my hands and groaned, loudly. When I looked up I saw some kid giving me a strange look.

"What are you looking at kid?" I said with a menacing glare

This of course did the trick. The kid walked off, pretty fast, with his tail between his legs. I smirked to myself as I watched him go without once looking back. I loved that, the way almost everybody would cower just when I looked at them. It felt good to have that kind of power. Of course you always had your exceptions to this. Like Sean for one, he was never afraid of me. His little girlfriend, I mean ex-girlfriend, Nelson never showed any kind of fear when around me. Of course she was always full of herself, but she doesn't seem like that anymore. Lately she's been really different, I mean besides the obvious. She never really talks to anyone, well except Santos. The obvious change is her attitude, whatever happened I liked the new Emma. Wait? Did I just say Emma? Weird …

Well it's about damn time, finally after … Damn the whole fucking lunch period, I just wasted my entire lunch sitting here. Right then the bell rang signaling us to head to class. Well of course I don't even get a chance to talk to her. Maybe I could get to her before her next class.

I sat up from the bench and followed Nelson and Santos out of the cafeteria. They were headed to the gym. I didn't know there was a gym period third?

Wait, dammit. It's not gym, it's the play. Anyone involved is excused from third period to go to practice, including me. Well I guess I had to wait till later…

I turned around to go to my locker. I wanted to get my jacket from my locker before heading to the gym. After getting my jacket I headed back towards the gym. As I walked past the front doors I saw Alex coming in, and she looked furious. Somehow when she saw me she looked even angrier.

"Hey Lexi what's up? How was your doctor's appointment?" I asked as she walked up to me

As she got close to me she closed her fists, and then proceeded to lift her fists up and slam them down against my chest. She continued to do this several times as she shouted at me, "How could you? You fucking asshole!"

I grabbed a hold of each of her wrists, "Wow, wow, wow. Lexi calm down. Tell me what's got your panties in a twist." I said

She ripped her wrists free from my grip, "Don't you even!" She shouted as she shoved her finger against my chest.

"You fucking cheated on me with Amy! My best friend!" She shouted

SHIT!

"Wait Lexi. Just let me explain…" I started

"Explain? How can you possibly explain cheating on me!"

"How did you even find out?" I asked

"What! How dare you! It doesn't fucking matter how I found out!" She shouted

She shoved me back as she started heading down the hallway towards the gym. Well that's not good.

I ran up to her as she was nearing the door and grabbed hold of one of her wrists. She just pulled her hand free and continued into the gym.

"Lexi!" I whispered, "It was nothing come on."

"Lexi is late for her scene." JT said, well that's not going to help things

"You want a scene JT!" She shouted as she walked up the stairs of the stage

She turned to face Amy while walking towards her, "Hey best friend Amy let's give JT a scene!"

She stopped in front of Amy and then punched her across the face. Many people in the room gasped wide eyed in shock.e

"Tell me about the ravine Amy. About how you went down on my boyfriend Amy, and the bracelets you got for it." Alex said

I looked over at Emma who looked worried. She was trying to hide the bracelets on her wrists. Thank god, I wouldn't want to know the outcome if Alex found out I was also with Cause Girl.

"I didn't sleep with him." Amy said as she let out a big breath of air

I started making my way towards them

"By who's definition?" Alex asked

"Just come outside Alex." I said while gripping her shoulder which she pulled away from

She shook her head, "Don't touch me, don't talk to me. I'll deck your smug face to."

I turned to watch her walk away, and then I moved my attention to Emma. She looked really nervous.

I started heading for the exit. This was total shit. I didn't understand it, where could she of heard this information from? She was all good this morning and then she comes back from the doctors filled with knowledge of my little scandalous adventures. I would really like to know how she found out, or maybe someone told her. If that was the case, then I wanted to find that person.

I didn't feel like staying at school. I didn't feel like going to any classes, or doing anything. I just wanted to know how Alex found out. I went to my locker and grabbed my bag, and then I slammed my locker shut and left the school. Of course I had no idea how to find the information I wanted so I just went home.

When I got back I had a message on my machine. It was from Alex, so I played it.

"Jay, I've got something. I'm sick. I'm positive it's from you, you jackass. Don't try and call me, I'm not going to answer. I just thought you should no." The message ended

For the rest of the day I just stayed in bed. It gave me plenty of time to think. Why I cheated on Alex, I still had no idea about. As for Amy and Emma, well Amy was all over me. She wanted me, badly, and so she got me. And Emma? I chased her, but why? I mean she is hot. Of course there are a lot of other good qualities about her. But not the kind I'm usually into. She didn't want me, I went after her. After Amy I guess I just didn't care, and went after what I wanted. Did I just say I wanted Emma Nelson? Maybe I did? Maybe I do?

I finally figured out why she's so different, and of course the answer made me feel like an idiot. She's been messed up since the shooting, don't know how I couldn't put two and two together, but hey what else do you expect from Jay Hogart. Most people probably think I'm a big dumb idiot. Way to go Hogart, now you're putting yourself down. Well I deserve it…

I cheated on Alex, Took advantage of Emma. As for Amy? She wanted it. I smirked

I looked at my clock, it was getting late. It was already dark out. I needed to fix things. I got up and headed outside to my car. Maybe Alex would be at the ravine and I could, no. She wouldn't be there, and she would probably punch me and walk away before considering listening to me. As I got in my car I didn't immediately start it. I still didn't know what I was going to do.

Maybe I could find Emma, apologize to her. Man I never thought I would ever consider that. I don't think she'd listen. She's been practically begging me to pop her cherry. She's turning into Amy, and it's my fault.

"Dammit!" I shouted while slamming my fists against the dashboard

What was I supposed to do now?

"Jay?" What the? What was Nelson doing at my house?

"Can I climb in?" She asked as she did just that…

I just stared at her. Well I guess I'm getting my chance to start fixing things.

"I went to the ravine but you weren't there." She said

"My day kinda sucked in case you didn't notice." I said

She started running her fingers up my leg, "So let's make you feel better." She said

I grabbed her hand and stopped it from its advance to my groin.

"Alex is sick with…" I sighed, "Something, she thinks I gave it to her and she won't talk to me. So I don't feel like it tonight."

Emma pouted her lips, "You going to cry now?" She asked in a babyish voice

Really? There really is something wrong with her.

"Listen Emma, we need to talk… I shouldn't have asked you to do what you did." I said

"What's wrong Jay? Regretting cheating on your girlfriend?" She asked, still in the babyish voice

"God dammit Emma! You're really making this difficult!" I shouted

"Making what difficult? Wait did you just call me Emma!" She shouted back

"I'm trying to be the good guy here, for once in my life. So will you knock it off please and just listen?" I asked

She remained silent as she stared at me.

"You asked me before if I thought you were weird? Well my answer is still no, but I think that you're messed up." I said

She frowned.

"I think you've been messed up ever since the shooting. I don't know how I couldn't figure it out before we did what we did but…" I started but was interrupted by a slap from Emma

She got out of the car and started walking away. I quickly got out and started following. As she reached the wooden fence I grabbed her by the arm and turned her around, then proceeded to back her up against the fence and do the only thing that will get her attention, I kissed her. She wrapped her arms around my neck and opened her lips for me. I could feel her fingers running through locks of my hair. After what seemed like forever I finally pulled away slowly.

She was staring at me with a smile. She still had her fingers locked in my hair. But then again, my hands were still on her lower back.

"Were you just using me? I mean I don't give you want you ask for and you walk away, I give you it and you stop?" I asked

She dropped her hands to her side tried to walk away, but I gripped her hips and held her against the fence.

"Emma, stop and listen for a couple of minutes for god sakes." I said

"Let go of me Jay." She said staring right into my eyes with the angriest look I've ever seen on her.

"Not until you listen, Emma." I said

"I'll scream Jay." She said

"Emma I'm just trying to help you!" I shouted

"What are you my parents?" She shouted right back

"Emma I'm just worried about you okay." I said

"Why on earth would Jay Hogart be worried for Emma Nelson?" She shouted, tears started to fall out of her eyes

"Because someone like you doesn't deserve this." I said

"What do you know anything about me?" She said as her voice cracked and she started sobbing

She dropped her head against my chest and just started crying. I slowly wrapped my arms around her.

"Emma, it's okay. Just let it out." I whispered into her ear hoping that's what she needed to hear

After a couple of minutes she started to slow down, and eventually was just sobbing. She looked up at me and her face was completely tear stained, her eyes were puffy and red.

"Do you feel any better?" I asked

"A little." She said

"Should I take you home?" I asked

"I think so." She replied

I dropped one arm but kept the other wrapped around her shoulders as I walked her to the passenger door. I opened the door for her and then continued towards my side. The drive was relatively quiet, a few sobs here a few snivels there. Also I had my stereo on a really low volume. As the next song came on, Last Resort by Papa Roach, she turned it up a bit. I guessed that she enjoyed it because she stopped her sobbing.

"Does music help you or something?" I asked

She just nodded

We pulled up to her house but she just sat in the car. I got out and came around to her side, and helped her out. Again I put my arm around her shoulders and she leaned against me. When we got up to the door I knocked.

"Why are you knocking Jay, I live here remember?" She asked

"I know, I just want to make sure that your parents hear about this, and you don't just avoid it like you've been doing." I said

"Thanks Jay." She said as she smiled

The door opened and a pretty angry looking Mr. Simpson came out.

"Jay? What are you doing?" He asked

"It's not what your probably thinking sir. In fact it's probably the complete opposite." I said

Emma's mom came up behind Mr. Simpson.

"Earlier today I see you cornering my daughter in the library and now you are bringing her home in tears!" He shouted

"It's okay Dad it's not his fault." Emma said

"Don't defend him Emma. What did he do to make you cry like this?" He asked

"Sir, just listen for a minute please." I said

Emma's mother whispered something in Mr. Simpson's ear, and whatever it was it worked because Mr. Simpson remained quiet and let me talk.

"I've noticed that Emma has been different. Like her attitude among other things. I couldn't think of why she was being so different. I've realized what the problem is. Well what's causing the problem at least." I said

"And what might that be Jayson?" Mr. Simpson asked

"The school shooting, it clearly is still bugging Emma. I think she really needs to sort some things out." I said

Mr. Simpson sighed, "Well thanks for your concern Jayson, you can go now." He said, I could tell he was trying really hard to not sound rude

I looked at Emma as I backed away towards my car. She was looking at me as she mouthed the words 'Thank You'. I smiled at her as I nodded, then got in my car and left.

I guess that's fixed, at least I did something right for once.