I walked through the victors village which was covered in a blanket of snow I heard every crunch beneath my feet and beside me was a little boy,my son. He was full of life and happiness I was thankful that he didn't grow up in the world where I did,where there was full of sorrow and darkness. I would dread the day he found out about the games and I would be more heartbroken if he found out I participated in it but one day I will have to tell him but that would also be the day where his innocence would be lost,when the light in his sparkling blue eyes would fade and Whenever I looked into his shimmering blue eyes all I could think of is his mother...

*1 year after mockingjay*

It was over the war was finally over but I don't feel any different all my anger is still here inside me I feel like theres a void I can never fill and the only thing I can do to forget about it was to drink and drink and drink it didnt help me though but sometimes I would get so drunk I would forget everything that went on around me and at those times I felt...happy well not really its like my version of happy after I won the games I have never been happy I lost everyone I loved My mother,my father,my siblings and maysilee... The only thing that stops me from hanging myself is Katniss and Peeta they're like my children.

My head was pounding I kept on falling all over the place my vision was fuzzy suddenly the doorbell rang and I was quite shocked no one had visited me in weeks and the only ones who would usually visit me was Katniss and Peeta but they were too busy with their own lives. I walked over to the door and slowly turned the door knob and when I opened the door there was a woman with an expensive looking fur coat,blonde hair and beautiful mesmerizing blue eyes. She looked a little bit familiar but I just can't guess who she is.

''Well hello Haymitch'' she was from the capitol I knew because of her accent but I still don't know who she is.

''emm who are you?'' she had this weird look on her face which looked like she was telling me that I should know her.

''Its Effie silly remember District 12 escort you can't possibly forget me we worked together for years and years or has the alcohol infected your brain...well it already has but I guess now its just worst because now you can't even remember me'' she laughed after that remark but I was quite surprised it was Effie the Effie that I knew was annoying,caked with makeup and her clothes were so colourful my eyes would burn this Effie had no makeup and no wig and was only wearing a brown fur coat no extravagant jewels even though I would never say it out loud she looked good this way. I knew what would come after that sentence it was going to be about the smell of my house and I didn't have time to be lectured so I did what I knew would be best I shut the door in her face.

''Haymitch HAYMITCH'' she knocked on the window and I walked over to my kitchen counter laughing the whole way through she looked like she was really interested to talk to me but who cares I spent about 20 years with the woman and all she could talk about was my bad manners and her stupid makeup. I got myself some more wine and sat there for the rest of the day and when I was finally too drunk I fell to the floor passed out and I knew how the next morning would be, me on the floor with a serious hangover vomiting everywhere and my head would be pounding. and when I got up the next morning I was right this happened almost every morning.

That evening I found out I had no beer left and I was so pissed I started throwing bottles at the wall and the glass would shatter instantly I was pissed because I had to go out again I had to go out and...socialize that thought made me shudder the only people I wanted to socialize with was the people I actually liked and had an obligation to talk to. I went out the door and the cold air stung me the moment I stepped outside. I hated the cold. I hated winter,I hated summer, I hated Spring,I hated Autumn I hated every wretched bloody season there is all I want is to be inside my house drinking for eternity.

As I walked through the victors village in the distance I saw a figure as I walked close and closer to the gate it began to be clear who it was Effie. I tried to pretend to be invisible for the wonderful chance that she wouldn't notice me...But she did.

''Hayyymitchhhh'' she ran over to me and give me a peck on both my cheeks like the socialites do in the capitol.

''well...helloo...Effie what are you still doing here shouldn't you be in the capitol''

''no silly didn't Katniss tell you I moved here to District 12..I..I couldn't handle living in the capitol anymore after..my...imprisonment...'' she looked down on the ground great now I just feel fucking guilty for shutting the door on her face.

''oh where do you live here now?'' oh god I would be so fucking pissed if she got the house next to mine.

''the house across yours'' she answered I didn't get pissed and I didn't lash out but how could she the village was for victors only.

''how I thought this village was open to victors only?'' I had a weird confused look on my face

''If you haven't heard victors village is now open to people who can afford to live here and of course I can afford it so I moved here it took a lot of deciding whether to live in District 4 or here but I eventually chose here'' she gave me this smile I have never seen before it looked so genuine and her without makeup is just so strange to me its like me without beer or wine.

''oh haven't watched the news in a while well where you of to?'' she seemed so different to me its like after her imprisonment she turned into a completely different person well of course her pride was still there and she was still quite annoying

''the market I got to buy some groceries'' a sudden wind came and her hair whipped through the air it would be so hard for me to admit out loud but damn she was beautiful.

''Oh I'm off to go there too'' it was so freaking cold I could see my breath.

''wanna walk together'' all of a sudden she grabbed my hand this interaction was so foreign to me especially because she was a woman. I pondered for a minute if I should or I shouldn't but ah well fuck it

''ehmmm sure why not'' I answered back

''yay come one lets go'' she dragged me and I nearly slipped that woman tsk tsk always in a hurry.