This FF is a way to relief myself, as i am suicidely depressed since 1 year.
And i don't own anything that is or related to FLCL but I have seen it at least 2 times and
vacuumed the net for info on the characters, story and all. Since its my first FF I will
appreciate reviews and advice.
"speech" 'thoughts' (descrition) Effects =Authors notes=
Niota's Diary, 20 October 20:44
It's been so long, almost a lifetime. But then again, I haven't thought for so long.
8 years, 8 dead years of void.
Empty as my skull, but i guess i deserved it.
I was not strong, not willing to sacrifice for her.
Now all i have is a Guitar, a photo of the last day of my life and an almost happy past.
But it was a lie, although a comforting lie it was still a lie.
I should feel the urge of revenge but i feel happy.
Happy that she pretended to like me.
But now...all those kisses and hours of sex with Mamimi.
Was it our love true or just fake, i didn't care.
All those empty or in best case doubtful feelings, i guess she knew.
Since it only lasted about 3 months with Mamimi,
Then she dumped me and moved to god knows where.
What am doing, i don't care anymore.
What do i dream, a vision of Haruko and her distinct moped.
What do i feel, Emptiness.
What do i want, 3 words 'I love you.' lies are good enough.
Im slipping, my grades are dropping like a Purple/Pink cement Balloon.
My sanity is slipping, soon i will lose it all.
Grandpa is dead, soon Kamon will succumb to his cancer.
Tasuku is so far away so he might not soon be considered related to me, both mentally and physically.
I still live at the place i used to, but it's screaming with sorrow and pain.
Everybody can hear it, even Gako.
Help me...anyone...
Naota quit writing, and was not sad...no he was worse than sad.
He was apathetic, a droid that was controlled from the planet of meaninglessness.
He thought that a night's sleep would relief his strained mind, to let his reality become numb for at least 6 hours.
He could be more wrong, (Bang...Crash) it sounded from the roof.
The structures integrity above the bed room was failing to the weigh of something.
Splinters, parts of some beams and tiles and a big dust cloud was now in the middle of the room.
The serenity was broken, Naota opened his eyes and got up.
He did not think, he rushed to to what thought and longed for so long.
The airborne dust settled on the newly polished floor enough to reveal...
a very unique yellow moped and an unconcios "Haruko".
She was apparently hurt badly, she had a big wound in her head her left arm was in
Probably broken, due to the weird way it was bent (even for her alien body's unusual flexibility).
Naota was to stunned to think, he lifted her to his bed, and felt her pulse.
Naota was in awe but still happy she was seemingly alive.
She hadn't aged a bit since the last time Naota had seen her just before she left.
Her torso which seemingly have had red quite normal t-shirt, was bruised but overall not to badly hurt and
her t-shirt was torn, ripped and slashed. The white bra was in the same condition as her torso and shirt.
The pants she was wearing was ripped and torn a bit but was in quite good state considering the rest of her.
Naota thought: 'Should i take her to hospital? She is an alien but seem to have a similar body to humans.
No, ill call amarao. Maybe he not fully trustable but has more knowledge than the hospital. But to be sure ill
have to watch over her anyway.
Naota tried to wake her up by gently shaking her body, no response.
Now remained one other way, he kissed her.
He was shocked, 'Blood' he thought as he kissed her 'Her blood...it tastes like...muddy water mixed with tears'.
After he had kissed her for short while she woke up, and Naota said softly "Im here, i love you".
She smiled but Naota noticed that pain was written in her facial expression, so he said "Rest, ill get help".
He phoned the number he got from amarao in case of an emergency like this.
Flashback: At the local hospital
Amarao: I know you are having a hard time, your father is in hospital and you live on your own.
Naota: It's not that hard, its just financial balancing that is hard.
Amarao: Hmm...if you get into trouble (writes on pad of paper and removes it from the block with a
ritch noise) call this number.
Naota: Thanks, ill do. (with a little unsure face)
Back to reality:
Beep 'answer damnit' Beep 'ANSWER!!!!' Beep "AARGH WHY DON'T YOU ANSWER
AMARAO!!!!"
Amarao: Im not deaf...(Irritated voice)
Naota: Oh sorry, but Haruko just crashed through my bedroom roof and is critically injured...(Embarrassed
look)
Amarao: Are you at your house?
Naota: Yes.
Amarao: Then ill send a MTATV. =A/N Medical Transport And Treatment Vehicle=
Naota: Ok. 'whatever that is'.(Covering his lack of knowledge half successful)
He ran up to Haruko to check on her.
She was almost asleep when he got up to his room and sat on his knees to see her face from her perspective.
Naota: "Haruko, you will survive. I promise you." (he smiled after to assure her)
Haruko: "Do not promise things you cannot always keep" Now they both smiled.
Now there was a noise of a car approaching, Naota dropped his smile and listened carefully.
(Due to Niota's part time work as a mechanic at a local gasstation he developed a 6th sense for cars and
their attributes.) So by the noise it was a heavier than normal car, driving fast, he determined.
The tires screeched in on the street below and beside the house.
He thought that the pain killing pills perhaps was not appropriate to her origins so he suddenly kissed her
deeply instead. And at the same time lifted her and the lose left arm she had, into his arms.
He let her lips go and she noticed that she was not in the bed anymore.
Then the pain went through her nerves to her brain, but it was only the after shock luckily.
Naota carried her downstairs with caution to not cause her more than the minimum amount of pain.
And there the MTATV were with two doctors with white/green coats and all.
But the drivers were two men in black suits.
Naota: "Can i come with her?" he inquired carefully.
The personnel looked at each other and nodded.
Naota sighed and lifted Haruko into the back of the black ambulance sized vehicle.
When the doctors took over her care, he drifted into his memories.
Flashback to 1 year ago under the bridge were all too many memories had taken place.
Mamimi Pov:
No one loves me, im all alone.
Tasuku has another girl, Naota perhaps has Haruko.
She must have come back, it has been 7 years...
I don't want to get hurt again, im not willing to try to visit Naota.
Perhaps this will bring the black angel back...
(Eats a white pill, a powerful pain killer)
Niota's Pov:
"seven years, in boring mabase." (he said quietly)
'seven years of no action and love, just hate and disgust of myself.'
'Maybe if i sit under bridge, i will find some strength.'
(Walks under the bridge, finds Mamimi in a circle of cigarettes and the sign of Atmosk in the center)
'Oh no, just like 7 years ago.' (shocked face)
(Mamimi eats a white pill and pulls out a finely ornated knife, and begins to plunge it towards her chest)
'I must stop her, damn Mamimis talent for rituals'
"Mamimi, no" (manages to stop the knife motion, but instead gets cut in his own arm though it struck his
bones and no major arteries or such things)
Continuing of Mamimis Pov:
'This will end it all...' (Begins to plunge the knife towards her chest)
'What, Naota is here' (she is stunned)
"No, what have i done. I was the one who committed suicide not you!!" (Scared look on her face and trembling with her fingers as she dropped the knife)
'No, no.....' (begins to cry)
Continuing of Niota's Pov:
'Ow, that hurt' (He moans as he lies on the ground and covering his cut on his left arm with his right hand not taking in any sensory impressions of the world outsider his body)
End of Povs =Phew, got a bit boring=
Mamimi: "Naota, Naota" (shaking his body hard, and crying)
Naota: (opens his eyes and discovers Mamimi crying while shaking him)
"If anyone should commit suicide ,its me" (He gathers his powers to overcome the pain)
"I have no talent, no future. You on the other hand have a camera and a talent."
Naota got up and despite he's condition he hugged the crying figure.
Mamimi: 'Is it birds that is singing, is this sunshine on my skin, do i hear waves as on the beach...it feels
so at least...'
"No, im worthless..." (Noticing how she had been crying for what felt like a few seconds but yet
Niota's shoulder was totally drenched in tears, she snapped out of her mind and thoughts and let
her arms free and thus released him. Then proceeds to take a pill out of the jar near her)
"Here, take this.."
(Holds out a white pill to Naota)
Naota: (Looks quickly at the white plastic jar from which the pill came from probably.
Partly to the fact that Mamimi was a arsinist and disconnected from reality = insane, and partly
because of what he just said earlier. It was an Pain killer that she probably had stolen from a
drug store, you needed a recipy to get it.)
"Thanks" (he consumed the pill, the pain decreased with time after that)
"Feels better, but why are you here?" (Still some pain from the wound)
Mamimi: "Well after Haruko left, i went to America to find tasuku..."
(a sad and angered expression appeared on her face)
"I found him with another, i ran and ran and ran...until i found a motel."
"I checked in and that night i decided to go back to mabase. So i took some shots of things and
sold it to a local magazine. And got the first plane to a town near mabase and here i am."
Naota: "I tried to tell you 7 years ago, but i failed to give you the message as you "Overflowed".
Sorry for that, really sorry. I care about you." (Mamimi smiled now)
'She smiled, i feel happy but still a bit depressed'
"Do you have any place to stay except for this bridge?"
Mamimi: "Don't apologize, its not your fault, and i don't have anywhere to stay" 'Why am i like this??'
Naota: "As i have practically no family and no friends, i live alone now. (Mamimi looked confused)
Well, Kamon has blood cancer and is at hospital, grandpa is long dead since 5 years and
the one you hate in the US have not even contacted me, so he's no family. And...
(Naota looked far into the night sky)
Haruko is chasing Atomsk, at least i think so." 'Why do care about Haruko?'
Mamimi: "So sad ( try's to shead a tear but is unable), but how do you keep paying the rent?"
Naota: "Selling bread and stuff at the bakery, taking all kind of part time jobs, and studying to be an
engineer" 'Im a pathetic case...' "Kamon is not going to live" (Mamimi looked strangely at Naota)
Mamimi: "Why?"
Naota: "Well besides my brother im the most probable donor of bone marrow, but he is a scum so im not
sure if i am going to give him another chance."
'He was Harukos "Sex toy"....' (Naota was extremely angered by this and 7 years of pain made him
numb to murder and other crimes, he was insane. Just like Mamimi)
Mamimi: (Was flabbergasted but she knew how he felt) 'Well he seems to have suffered from Harukos
sudden escape, its understandable' (Neglecting her thought to scream out WHY???)
"I could help you with your economical situation, if i can live at your place?"(Calm look)
(She was older and wiser now, she would not be used again)
Naota: "Ok, seems fair. You could write a magazine or something"
(Surprised over her reaction but was to afraid to ask why she reacted so)
"We should remove this.." (Pointing at the cigarettes and suicide note and the general state
of the area around them)
Mamimi: "Ok takkun!" 'What is with me, am i weird because of Naota. Yes it seems so, why not be with
him more then!'
Both helped in the disposing of the ritual sight, but strangely she kept the knife and the pills, Naota noticed this.
Mamimi: "The pills are still useful!" 'plus they are hard to get'
Naota: "Ok, but we could at least wipe the knife and give it back to its former owner"
'Better not ask about the pills, she might get depressed again'
(They were done with the work around the site when a second later)
Mamimi: "Ok, but ill do it for you then" 'But it was so nice!!!, sob' =A/N I know, but she is still insane=
(A while later they arrived at the house Mamimi had stolen the item)
Naota: "How are you going to get it in without them noticing??"
'They could be home...shivers as he thinks of jail cells and beefy inmates'
Mamimi: "This is how"
(in a low voice, as she continued with the action of slotting it through the mailbox)
"Discreet and silent."
Naota: "Now lets get home before we get discovered."
'He didn't care, for the owner got his knife back'
Mamimi: "Ok." (and she was smiling kindly)
(They got home and Naota closed the doors as they went into the living room)
Naota: "Do you want sushi?"
Mamimi: "Sure."
(Naota went to the kitchen and took the sushi he had planned to eat for dinner from the fridge
and split it unto 2 plates and prepared the soy and stuff. After that he walked out being careful not to drop
anything as he had just cleaned the floor, but almost did.
He served Mamimi the first plate and sat down himself to eat)
At Niota's home in the living room:
(They sat down facing each other and was eating sushi)
Naota: "Where do you want to sleep?" 'Hopefully in my room, she seems to light me up somehow'
Mamimi: "Are the top bunk empty?" 'I like his presence, it makes me shine'
Naota: "sure, it empty." (He smiled, she smiled back)
(They finished the last of the sushi and went up)
(The only thing that was there to remember him of haruko were that blue guitar, the photo was, with all
The other stuff that was Harukos, in a closet that only Naota knew where)
Mamimi: 'I am sleepy, so tired' "Goodnight Naota" (she said in a dull and "I want to sleep" way)
Naota: "Goodnight" (he got under his sheets and closed his eyes) 'Why haruko, why...'
OMAKE!!!!!!
Mohahahaha Ehrm…haha
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Mamimi: 'I am sleepy, so tired' "Goodnight Naota" (she said in a dull and "I want to sleep" way)
Naota: "Goodnight" (he got under his sheets and closed his eyes)
Naota: "What is this…a fruitbasket?"
Mamimi: "I want the banana!" (Jumps down with a speed that is not even remotely possibly for a human, and grabs the wrong banana)
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I know, Mamimi is too much like Haruko, I will hopefully correct it in the next Chap
and if i don't i will make it a gradual change from this chap and on, This is a Haruko/Naota fic.
And don't fear all you lemon lovers out there, I will implement a lemon scene as soon as the story allows me too.
This is an angst fic too, so i have to build it like it.
And once again review and be picky.