I couldn't believe it.
With tears streaming down my face he told me, told me his feelings. How he honestly felt.
Then why was I crying? Are these tears of joy?
That had to be it.
"What is it? Why are you crying?" he asked me.
He kissed the tear that escaped my eye.
I shivered.
"Why now?"
He pulled back and looked puzzled.
"Wh-what do you mean?"
"Why are you telling me this now? Of all the times, why now?"
He smiled.
"Because I love you. From the bottom of my heart. I have for the longest time. But, for a
while I wasn't always sure. I was confused because I didn't know what I wanted. Do you
remember when I disappeared for a few days?"
I nodded.
I wasn't crying anymore. But my heart began racing. He was going to tell me how he felt and why.
"Well, I had gone camping. Up in Fresno."
"Fresno?! California?! Why there?"
He chuckled.
"Well I needed to clear place to think. A place where I wouldn't get distracted. Then I began thinking.
What do I really want in life? What is a purpose? Do I even have one?"
He paused.
He began to speak again but his voice was shaky.
" Then, then I got so mad at myself. I got so mad for not realizing it sooner... All of the best times,
the times I cherish the most, were with you. They are with you. Every time I laughed, every time I
made you laugh, when you cried and I held you. Then I felt it. This immense feeling hit me like a
tidal wave. I was in love and it was with you. It is with you."
I was speechless.
I had never, ever heard that. No one has ever told me anything like that, No one ever came close
to saying that.
He kissed my head and began crying.
He was crying? Why was this handsome sculpted Greek God crying?
"Why are you crying?"
"Because it's my fault you got hurt. If I had been here your arm wouldn't be broken."
I gasped.
He was blaming himself because of what happened to me.
I held his face in my hand.
"No."
He stopped crying.
"No. It is not your fault. I walked down a way I shouldn't have. It's my own fault."
Out of nowhere he picked me up and pressed me against the wall with is body.
"What are you doing?''
My body began to shake. But not with fear, with... anticipation.
"Shhh..."
He gazed into my eyes and I into his.
I never realized how gorgeous they were.
Blue, but dark.
He rested his forehead on mine and his breathing was ragged.
I knew what he wanted to do, but he was restraining himself.
"What's wrong?"
He kept his eyes shut as he spoke.
"I love you so, so much. But I don't want to hurt you or make you think that I only want you for sex."
Oh. My. Gosh.
He pulled back.
"What's wrong?"
"What do you mean?"
"You whimpered. I didn't hurt you did I?"
"No! No, you didn't hurt me."
"Then what?"
I couldn't believe I did that! I whimpered?
Uh oh.
"What you said just now. I really liked it."
He smiled.
"You did huh?"
I smiled back.
"Very much."
"Should I say more?"
I nodded.
"Yes."
He was silent for a few seconds, which began to worry me.
I was going to say something but he cut me off.
"I want to cherish you. Every single moment we are together. Every single moment we are apart.
You are the most, fragile yet, beautiful woman I have ever met. That I have ever fallen in love with," He
paused and looked straight into my eyes "You aren't a toy. You will never be a toy. You are someone
to be respected, cherished, and taken care of. Now, I know that sounded a bit corny but-"
I threw myself at him and he staggered backwards.
My lips found his in the somewhat dark cave.
I didn't want this to end. I wouldn't let it end.
I felt like we were on fire. That we would burn anything that we touched. That at any moment we would
incinerate leaving nothing but a pile of ashes. But we didn't.
I began to play with the hem of his shirt. Just tugging at it.
Now he knew what i wanted. Because he knew what I wanted he pulled away.
"Wait, wait, wait."
"What?"
"We can't."
"Wh- why not?"
"Because I feel that we are rushing things. I want our first time to be special. I want it to be perfect for you.
I personally don't think that a cave is the best place to do that."
I blushed. He wanted it to be perfect for me?
"I don't know what to say."
"Say ok. Say that we will wait."
"Ok. We will wait."
He kissed me. It wasn't a soft kiss nor a hard one, but firm.
He slide down the wall and pulled me down with him.
Somehow I managed to position myself so that I was in him arms laying down.
Then he began to sing, then he hummed and eventually, we both drifted to sleep.