THE GIRL IN THE MIRROR
I don't own Inuyasha
I walk through my room until I find what I was looking for. My little mirror. Believe it or not my only friend. I know I sound like a psycho but ever since the day my parents passed away everything has changed.
I feel so alone, even though I have my little brother. But having him doesn't change the fact that we're alone. When my parents left my brother stopped talking to me, we became complete strangers.
My social life suffered too. I stopped hanging out with my friends. To be honest we had nothing in common anymore. One day my friends told I was too depressed and stopped talking to me.
The only friend I have left is my little mirror, and the girl who lives with in. It's hard to believe I didn't see it before. I think about it for a second. And than realize, that this girl looks depressed deep inside.
There's someone in the mirror
Staring back at me
I'm like any other girl. I go to school, I do my homework, and I have many responsibilities. But unlike all the others girls I'm always afraid of what might come. I'm always alone. For some reason afraid of the world around me.
"Kagome come on, you're going to hang out with us this weekend right" he said as he smiled his child like smile. He never changed he was always the same.
"We're having a party! We'll have stuff to drink" he said as if it was such a big deal to get drunk. He was so cool, unlike my other friend he never stopped talking to me, even when I pushed him away he always tried. He was tall dark and handsome with golden eyes. The only person that actually talked to me, in school.
We just to be the best of friends a couple years back. But when my parents died I started to push him away, out of my life. But for some unknown reason he always came back. No matter what I did to him he's was always by my side.
There's someone in my mirror
Who just wants to be free
"I don't know if I can go Sesshoumaru" I look away at the door, I have to leave before his girlfriend gets here. His girlfriend hates me. I bet she would give anything to see me dead.
"I have homework. That I have to work on" he looks at me and at the floor, why can't he just leave me alone! Why can't he understand that all this time I have practically begged him to leave me alone?
He's about to say something when his girlfriend appears out of nowhere and warps her arms around his neck and kisses him on the lips. She turns to look at me and speaks, with a smirk on her lips.
"Leave her alone, she too good for us! And besides she 'has homework' to do" she grabs his arm and pulls him away. Before glaring back at me.
That's Kagura for you, Sesshoumarus girlfriend. She and I where friends once upon a time. Until I told her I had a crush on Sesshoumaru. But that was back in middle school. After that she just stopped talking to me. Which I could really care less.
There's someone in my mirror
Who's depressed and alone
I sit on my chair in front of my computer and start to do my homework. Which if I take a better look at it is actually one math problem.
The phone rings once, twice, than someone picks it up. Souta is only other person in the house besides me, but I hardly see him. He unlike me has all of his friends. Nothing really changed for Souta the day my parents died. He just became colder.
Souta knocks on my door.
"Kagome... it's for you!" he says, as he knocks on my door again. Louder and harder.
"Come in Souta" he walks up to me and hands me the phone before screaming.
"It's a boy. I guess even retards have to have fun some times" with that he walks out of my room and heads for his room.
There's someone in my mirror
Who just wants a home
"Hello?" I say and wait for a reply. I'm about to hang up when he speaks.
"Hey! Kagome Is Sesshoumaru" he stops for a second before he speaks again. "are you sure you don't want to come to the party?" he asks.
"I don't know Sesshoumaru. I need to stay home" I say looking down at my 'homework'.
"Come on Kagome. If you want to stay home, stay at my home" said Sesshoumaru before hanging up the phone. Well wasn't that rude?
There's someone in my mirror
Who wants to be cared for and loved
I walk in to the house full of people that I hardly even know. All of them drunk. The girls are dancing on each other as the guys drink from their cups and watch them.
I feel so lonely that I'm about to walk away. Where are the people that I know? Oh that's right I don't know anybody. I know that if I left right now nobody would notice. Nobody would care. I am about to walk out when I hear my name.
"Kagome!" I turn around and see Sesshoumaru there walking towards me, tripping over people. He's drunk.
There's someone I'm my mirror
Who just wants a hug
He runs up to me, drunk as hell.
"Why hello there Kagome! Don't you look mighty loovely tonight?" he smile at me even dough he couldn't speak right he still looked cute. He come up to me and gives me a hug.
I stand there with his arms around my waist. Frozen, unable to move from his embrace. After a couple of seconds he gets heavier. He's so drunk I think he passed out. I try to push him away but he just hugs harder. I think I'm going to get split in half when.
There's someone in my mirror
Who hates her looks
I can see Kagura from the corner of my eyes she's mad, all I hear is 'bitch get away from him' than she comes up to me and pulls on my shirt until it rips 'look at her' she said 'look at her nasty ass body, and are those fat rolls Ewwwww!!" I run out of there with tears in my eyes. I thought I was skinny, a size three I should add. I run and run until I get home.
There's someone in my mirror
Who wants to feel good
I walk in the bathroom and I start to puke. I want to look skinny I want to feel good. I hate it when people laugh it makes me feel like I'm some funny little thing people can make fun of. Like I don't belong, I puke and puke.
I know this is bad, but right now I don't care I puke more and than I puke out blood. I sit next to the toilet and began to cry like never before. Why do I care what they think? After all I was the one that made them be gone! I get up and search for my mirror. I pick it up and stare at it...
I wish I can help her
Can't understand why?
There she is the girl in the mirror alone and afraid. I can tell she's hurt there's blood on her face. She stares at me as if I was the most interesting thing in that room.
"Don't look at me!!" I tell her. But as soon as I say this she said something back. Her lips moved but no sound came out.
But this girl in my mirror
Will not close her eyes
I look at her and wonder why she is so sad, so alone? She's so beautiful. Oh! How I wish that was me...
"Please! Stop it! Stop it! Don't look at me" she looks sad and she's white as snow. I think she's dying, but if that's so, I'll be left all alone!
The girl in the mirror
Looks sad and pale
Than I fall to the grown and began to cry more. She can't die! She can't leave me alone! I cry and cough out more blood. The mirror is cover in blood now. I can't see her face. Blood...Blood...Red...Red...The bleeding wont go away.
That's how she'll die
Alone and frail
"Knock...Knock" that comes from the door.
"Kagome! Are you OK in there" it's Souta, as if he cared.
"Souta! Go away. Just leave me alone! Go away" I say and than I don't hear him any more. Ten minutes go by than twenty. Than I loose track of time.
I'm dying. I can feel it and I began to cry I am so sorry Souta. I'm sorry, mom and dad I didn't do a good job. I know Souta is going to be all alone. With no one to care for him. With no one to love him.
The girl in the mirror
Unhappy in life
I hear foot steps, than knocking on the door...
"KAGOME!! Are you in there? open the door now!" its Sesshoumaru. I stay quiet so he can leave. I want to die alone. A peaceful, beautiful death. Alone.
"Open the door now! Souta is scared... he's crying...IF YOU DONT OPEN THE DOOR NOW... I SWEAR THAT IM BRAKING THIS DOOR DOWN!!"
I block him out and go back to my search. I found what I was looking for, so know I'm going to end it all. I was about to kill my self with a little knife I found but than the door was broken and there stood Sesshoumaru still drunk. With tears in his eyes.
"WHAT YOUR FUKING PROBLEM!" he screams rubbing his eyes "I was scared... don't you ever Ignore me!!"
Upset with herself
In search for a knife
He than saw my knife. His eyes opened wide. And the mirror full of blood. made his jaw hit the ground. He looks at my lips all covered in blood, and a tear escaped his eye.
"Why Kagome? don't you ever think about Souta" he comes up to me and hugs me. I want to push him off but I can't seem to find my strength. Plus he makes the hug tighter with every push I give.
"Don't you ever do that again Souta love you more than anything" he looks into my eye and kisses me on the lips-
"I'm sorry" I say as I began to cry. "I didn't mea-..." he kissed me?
"and I love you more than anything too" I look up at him. At that I push him off me. I don't know where I found all the strength, but he was on the floor away from me.
"Don't lie to me" I say slapping him hard on the side of his face. The looks up at me.
"I left everything! my friends, my girlfriend. My party" I look away and he tilts my head so I'm facing him.
"Let me go!" he looks me in the eyes.
"Why?" he asks.
"WHY?! Oh! I don't. know maybe because you're drunk" he laughs at me.
"I'm not drunk! Kagome this is the only way I could show you my true emotions. Can't you see? I love you" He kisses and after a couple of minutes he leaves to find Souta.
There's someone in my mirror
Staring back at me
There's someone in my mirror
That now wants to live.
I grab the mirror and clean the blood off, and see a smile on the girls face. She's happy now I guess something changed.
I walk into my room and get ready to hide the little mirror under my bed. I might not need it now but who knows, in a year or two. When everything goes wrong in my life again I might need the mirror again.
But for know I'll be happy and let her live her life. I'll let her be happy for some years to come.
"Kagome, we need to fix the bathroom door!" Sesshoumaru screams. I feel the right corner of my mouth and wipe away some blood. I look at my self in the mirror one more time.
For some reason she frightens me now. She looks evil, she doesn't look human anymore. I put the mirror under my bed. But before I leave my room I don't know why or what made me do what I did. I make a long deep cut across my wrist.
"Coming!" I said walking out of my room with a big smile on my face.
There's someone in my mirror
Staring back at me
There's someone in my mirror
Who wants to kill me…