My first attempt at fanfic. It's basically dribble but thought I would publish anyways. It's somebody's pov about a certain Mercy West doctor. Caution Characters maybe behaving from normal behavior and that's because I recently started watching Grey's Anatomy in earnest.
Disclaimer All things related to Grey's Anatomy belong to the show and ABC, I do not own anything but the idea for this one shot.
If I ignore him
If I ignore him maybe he will stop trying to be near me, stop looking at me like I was the greatest thing since sliced bread, stop trying to talk to me like we are friends or anything more than coworkers forced to work together, stop making me want to put my guard down and let him in. if I ignore him maybe he will stop giving me those seductive looks, or smiling at me like we share a private secret that only the two of us know(so what if we do, he still doesn't have to keep looking at me that way). If I ignore him maybe he will stop looking over my shoulder and reading my phone like he doesn't have a care in the world and there is nothing private between us, If I ignore him maybe he won't whisper in my ear when nobody is looking and say things that are outrageous and shouldn't be said and I act like he's an immature idiot but on the inside I'm laughing my ass off, If I ignore him maybe he will go away and leave my thoughts and my dreams alone and give me some peace of mind, if I ignore him maybe he will leave my senses so I'm not aware of his presence and my body would not tingle or have prickling sensations all over when he is near and maybe my whole being wouldn't feel like it's consumed with wanting him, craving him, almost achingly needing his touch on my bare skin and remembering over and over again the one kiss we shared that was amazing but not worth the risk of repeating again. Maybe if I ignore him I won't notice how intoxicating he smells or how unbelievable hot he is. If I ignore him maybe I won't notice he only has eyes for me and he doesn't seem to notice any other woman when I'm near. If I ignore him maybe I won't notice little things we have in common and share, like our desire and drive to succeed and be the best or that we share the same dark humor that only we get. If I ignore him maybe this hunger and longing I have will disappear, if I ignore him maybe the craving of wanting his attention, almost desperately needing it will go away and maybe if I ignore him long enough these urges will go away and I can be normal again.