"I've...felt worse." Lapis said, before screaming and breaking the wave of sadness being hurled at her and the Crystal Gems. Lapis began shaking slightly, using all of her strength to push forward and fight. She used the same chains that held her down for months, under the sea with Jasper…
Jasper.
Lapis couldn't afford to lose her grip.
Jasper.
I can't let go now.
Jasper…
SMASH.
Shattered.
.Shattered
Lapis' mind was overwhelmed suddenly with the memories of Jasper. Jasper, fusing with her, for the first time in her life. Fusing, thinking she'd finally feel what it's like to be powerful, to be bigger than in her natural, single form. Fusing connecting to…someone. After years of being enslaved to the Diamonds, spent behind an electric fence after Blue tossed her in prison. Connecting to Jasper…
Jasper. Smash. Shattered. Lapis' mind exploded, a sonic boom of memory rushed from her subconscious. Jasper. Inside her. Her head. Her body. Her heart. Her spirit.
Jasper. Smash
Jasper.
Lapis remembered how Jasper felt. How her voice sounded, how their fusion felt; Angry, shamed, humiliated, passionate, loathing, hate.
Jasper. Smash. Shattered.
Fusing. Giving away her power, giving away her control. Instead, Jasper took it. Jasper smashed her body and shattered her soul.
She felt it. She felt the chains, the body they'd created, the pain. She couldn't escape. There was no way. Malachite, as it usually is, was so toxic, but she was the only one who could control it.
Jasper. Smash. Shattered.
She couldn't even control herself now.