My first songfic, and why not use a great song for it! Look it up: "It's Not True"-William Fitzsimmons.
Should I decide it's true
That you would leave if given half the chance to go and
I'd be left here on my own
You felt trapped by our relationship, and you'd jump at the opportunity to rid yourself of it.
To find myself in bed
Wishing everything that changed would be the same
The loneliness is unbearable. No matter how many times I hope, I must realize you're gone.
The room still looks like you
Memories live in every corner.
It's a mess and all the pictures on the shelf are
Dusted off by someone else
Without you here, everything is chaos.
To keep my company
I haven't told her that your thought still lingers on
She could never take your place, but the fact that she is here only makes it more obvious that your memory will never leave me.
Everyday's another chance to bury my regret
Everyday's another chance to make it, but I can't
But I can't, but I can't, but I can't, but I can't
I've had plenty of times to change my ways, but it's too late. Getting over this won't come easily.
I saw you on my phone
On a contact list that isn't up to date
It's like you're still here.
Would have changed it with more time
That I require to
Rid my mind of all the freckles on your face
I'm already scarred by your presence.
And reconcile to what?
The ring I bought you is buried deep within the ground
Behind the swing where we first met
I cannot change how you've made me feel. The mistakes I've made are held against me.
And memory only serves
To remind of all the bruises you forgave
It's all in the past. It's almost like it never happened.
Everyday's another chance to bury my regret
Everyday's another chance to make it, but I can't
But I can't, but I can't
I continue to make these mistakes. Our relationship is over, but I refuse to believe it.
Should I decide it's true
That you would return half the chance to come
You've been long gone, but in my mind, it's like you've never even left.
But it's not true, But it's not true, But it's not true
But it's not true, But it's not true, But it's not true
But it's not true, But it's not true, But it's not true
But it's not true, But it's not true, But it's not true
But you're gone…Perhaps you've always been gone.
I suck at songfics, I know… I'll post a second one with Clare's pov.