Author's Note: Well this is my first fanfiction. I am happy about all the hits and reviews that I got on this story. Love to my bestie M.R. Delizzle who helped me out with some buffering. So without further ado the first chapter with a few edits.
Starfire looked into the horizon with a wistful, somber expression on her face. The Titan Tower contrasted with the orange and lavender hues of the sunset. Each hue reminded her of her native planet, Tameran. She felt the homesickness lull her into a sense of pure loneliness. She couldn't meditate as she usually did with Raven to alleviate it this time. Ah Raven. She had helped Starfire meditate into a blissful state called a "happy place." Her happy place didn't give her much relief this time seeing that her favorite mental retreat was once shared with her now long gone little brother Ryand'r. A tear escaped from her eyes as she remembered playing in the lagoon with her brother and sometimes her sister until the g'norshkas had given them enough bumps that they had to go home.
Any other day, the joy of the day would overpower the sadness of the memory, but today was a day for Starfire to not see the brightness of the day. It was a day to remember, a day to forget, a day of loss and love, and a day to regret. This was the day of the final burst of energy from Ryand'r flying into X'hal's kingdom for the rest of eternity. Starfire would never see her little brother make his first flight into the air with her or see the brightness of their energy bolts clash as they fought in a practice duel. The last memory she would ever have of him is when they were with the evil Gorgonians as they murdered him right before her eyes as she watched on in tears with her arms stuck in impenetrable shackles that cut her wrists as she struggled to get out of her restraints and get vengeance on everyone who so much as looked at the gory murder. The streams that winded down her face as she remembered getting out of that blasted battleship a couple of months later and got her revenge without killing one person on the ship.
Starfire wasn't proud to admit that she didn't exactly leave them without very serious and permanent damage. That moment where she saw her brother breath his last breath as he was stabbed multiple times with shards of krypton and steel until the floor was drenched was a moment that would forever haunt the poor girl. Whenever Starfire got really ticked she would reflect on that moment and . . . let's just say that the bad guys definitely didn't gain anything good out of it. Star was amazing in warfare when she was given the opportunity that she rarely got when fighting with the rest of the Titans. That wasn't to say she didn't love being in the team; she just loved being able to fight the way she wanted to without holding back or being afraid of accidentally killing someone because her attack was too strong. The Titans had lost many training robots that way that wasn't exactly the cheapest to buy.
The Teen Titans only knew two sides of Starfire: the happy, bubbly side that gushed joy all the time and the mildly fierce side of her that was showcased with the villains that they fought each week. They didn't know about her heart that while filled with love for the Titans ached to have her little brother in her life once again and her best friend to give her advice or protect her from the cruel pranks of Blackfire. She knew that her best friend, Pnorx, would know exactly what to tell her to do about the whole wishy-washy situation with Robin.
Starfire rolled her eyes and wiped away her tears at the thought of her indecisive . . . something? He kept sending her the signals of mixing. One day he tries to kiss her and the next he was saying they shouldn't have a relationship because it might ruin the team for good. It was so frustrating because whenever he said that he sure wouldn't prove it when anybody tried to ask her out or ask if she was single. Then he would act so jealous and go back to flirting with her. The most miserable time that happened for her was when Red X was fighting Robin and began flirting with Starfire and ultimately kicked Robin's ass from wall to wall in the warehouse. While Starfire was bent over Robin's body trying to get him above her arms to lift him up, Red X pinched Star's butt. Let's say that Robin wasn't very happy. Red X ended up getting away and everyone was frustrated from the results of the fight, though none was as bad as Robin. They got back to the Tower in about ten minutes, all of them trying to catch up with Robin. Almost all of the Titans moved out of his way so that he can vent his frustration on the punching bag in the training room. He had about exhausted the poor punching bag and was still ticked off by the time Star came in the room. She opened her mouth to speak and he passionately kissed her until she was breathless. After duking it out with their tongues, they both pulled away to catch their breath.
"Star," Robin panted. "That should never have happened."
She looked at him confused. She had enjoyed it, why did had he not? "Why is that?" Robin backed out of her embrace and looked down. "I'm no good for you Star. What if an enemy finds out about us and targets you because of me?"
"Then we shall deal with it together." Robin shook his head vigorously.
"If we were together, then it would mess up the team." Starfire shook her head this time. "What if we don't and we only get stronger as a result?"
"I can't risk the team for us Star. The team is too important!" He was screaming at this point. "How dare you call me important and then say these words to me? If you do not wish to be with me, then say it. I can be just friends with you, but do not do the playing of my emotions Robin!" She screamed back into his face.
"Fine then. I only want to be friends. I want to just forget this ever happened, Star. Are you happy now?" His face was cold, so cold. She wanted him to go back on what he said this one time. Tears burned her eyes and she used some energy to burn them away as her face became the cold mask it was when she landed on Earth straight from the Gorgonians' ship. "I am joyous, Friend Robin."
Since that day they both pretended what they felt for each other was insignificant. They both had their own ways of coping. Robin spent his time beating the stuffing out of punching bags while Starfire meditated with Raven to keep her joyous guise in place. Sometimes she snuck out of the house to go dance at a club nearby to just wash away her frustrations even if she had to do it with her identity hidden. Either way they could both move their anger out on something other than each other. She knew the rest of the team could detect that something was still off between the not – so platonic twosome. At least something could distract from the tension as Robin had announced that a friend of his from his past was coming into town.
Speak of the Gxork and he shall appear. Robin came over the communicator to disrupt the alien's mental ranting. "There's trouble at the old Warehouse. Come now." Starfire rolled her eyes in annoyance. "We're coming now Robin." Cyborg said. Star placed her little brother's amulet back above her neckpiece and flew into the sky.
Ah, that freeing sensation of flying. It was the only thing that could give her the feeling of freedom that could make her forget the pain of the anniversary of her brother's death. It was amazing how those bad feelings could be thrown into the sensation of flying. She flew towards the old Warehouse in a hurry. Most of the Titans were standing there in the alley with shadows haunting the back of the alley as the streetlight cast a fluorescent glow on the Titans. Star hoped that they didn't notice her red-rimmed green eyes. Unfortunately for her they did. Cyborg wondered what caused his little sister to be so hurt enough to cry. Raven remained cool and indifferent, while wondering the same thing as Cyborg; Beast Boy was amped to kick some butt, while Robin had yet to come.
They stood there waiting for Robin for about five minutes before a boomerang zoomed a centimeter above Star's shoulders. Her eyes glow a luminescent green as the team prepared for battle. A hook spun around her ankle as she shot star bolts at the shadows in the alley from which it came. "Please do not make me be the pain bringer." Starfire said, her frustration making her energy bolts glow slightly brighter. Raven lifted a mailbox into the air with her dark aura muttering, "Azarath Metrion Zinthos." It slammed into the wall next to the figure causing a black shoe to be cast into the light.
A high, feminine voice said, "I hope that's not all you got." Beast Boy in his pterodactyl form flew to the foot before launching onto her as a green tiger effectively tearing some cloth off of her leg as she muttered profanity under her breath. "Really grass stain? Tearing fabric is your best shot? I could cry from how sad that is. A hook wrapped around Beast Boy tying him in a knot and effectively making him shift back to normal form while struggling through the rope restraints. "Tsk tsk. How about you Metal Man? What are you bringing to the party?" Her tone was now slightly seductive. Cyborg lifted his bright cannon towards her and was about to launch the attack as Robin swung from a rope off the roof of the warehouse.
"Cy! Stop! Titans at ease!" Robin said as he landed in front of them and stared at the form moving out of the darkness. The girl looked so familiar, almost like – She stopped in front of them. "I see you haven't changed much Boy Wonder." He gasped and stepped back in shock.
"Batgirl."