I don´t own the show.
The idea came to my mind when I was watching LWFTWF for what seemed to be for the millionth time. I know I should update my story " are we really over" but I just wanted to write this.
Summary: set in no particular season, but four years after season 4. When Rory turned him down, Jess was crushed, but they stayed in touch ever since, not being able to let go of the other .
Enjoy and tell me what you think.
I had been going out with him for three years before he finally popped the question. First I felt like this was the greatest thing that could have happened to me, but lately I feel like maybe, just maybe it was wrong that I had said yes with the biggest smile on my face. Lately I've been wondering that maybe he's chosen the next best thing. Lately I have the feeling that maybe, I'm just a replacement for someone else. Her.
It´s the way he would stare off in space when he should be looking at me that made me doubt my decision. It´s the way he would touch a certain book with the most vulnerable expression on his face that made me wonder why I haven't been introduced to his family yet although we have been engaged for three months now. It´s the way he would close his eyes whenever a fresh pot of coffee was brewed, that made me think about the fact that I didn´t know a damn thing about his past. It´s the way he would refuse to watch " almost famous" with me, although he knew it was my favourite movie, that made me feel insecure, inadequate.. Deep down I knew it wasn't his fault, I knew he tried to love me and sometimes when we would be lying in bed, legs intertwined, the smell of sex still surrounding us, I even thought he did. No, I knew he did, that's why I had said yes in the first place.
He proposed to me the day he got a call from his uncle, still unknown to me then. I replayed the phone call in my head as I closed my eyes frantically searching for something that supported me in my decision.
Flashback
The phone was ringing and finally Jess got up to pick it up.
"´lo?" I didn´t know who was on the other line. I only could hear Jess's answers.
"I'm good, thanks."
" so, is there any particular reason why you called me ? I mean, not that I don´t appreciate it, but ..? Apparently he got cut off.
" huh" I smiled. That was the Jess I knew.
" why are you telling me that ?" he turned his head around as if to check if I was listening.
" what the fuck? Come on Luke!" ah, the famous uncle Luke from Stars Hollow.
" she told you that?" that got my interest.
" so, she could have called me herself, Luke. Why didn´t she?" in the pit of my stomach I knew who they were talking about.
"huh, really ?" he said shaking his head unbelievingly.
" okay, we'll be there." whoa, what ? Who, where ?
" Patricia, my girlfriend." Luke didn´t even know I existed. Damn, that hurt.
" well, yeah, we are." damn Luke to speak so quietly.
" ok, I'll tell her. Bye." he turned around once again and said:
" Luke says hi"
" what did he want?" I asked trying to hide my curiosity.
", well, Lorealai´s daughter is getting married and she wants us to be there."
" well, and I had the feeling Luke didn´t even know about me. So how could she invite us both?"
Jess avoided my eyes.
" he didn´t but I told him about you, and since you're my girlfriend you're invited as well."
" isn't it common for people who get married to send out invitations?" I asked, not buying any of this.
" well, yeah, but she kinda lost my address." aha.
"ok," I let it go
" so when is the wedding ?" he finally looked at me, his face not showing any emotions.
" in two weeks."
Suddenly an expression of total understanding was spread on his face.
" huh, I gotta go. You'll be here when I'll come back?"
" of course" I would always be there.
Flashback end .
That night he came home, bearing the most amazing gift, or so I thought
The next two weeks flew by and before I knew it, we were heading to Stars Hollow for the wedding.
The ceremony was beautiful and I couldn't help thinking that I wanted a Stars Hollow wedding as well.
When I was introduced to the bride I could see signs of hurt in her eyes and maybe regret ?
We didn´t stay long in Stars Hollow but in the end I knew everything about Rory and Jess. Miss Patty apparently thought it was her obligation to fill me in. or maybe it was just the wine she had been drinking all night.
I was still deep in my thoughts when I heard the door of the apartment open.
Jess came over to me where I was sitting and kissed my forehead softly. He plopped down next to me on the couch, placing my legs in his lap.
" god, my boss is a fucking son of a bitch." he sighed and closed his eyes tightly, rubbing his temples.
I took a closer look at him. He looked exhausted, he had been working his butt off lately. His hair was slightly longer than when we first met, curling above his ears.
" why did you propose, Jess?" I didn´t know why I chose this minute to bring it up.
He looked at me questionably , his eyebrows raised, eyes wide open now.
"huh? Sorry, what?"
" I asked why you had proposed." long silence.
" because I wanna be with you, Tricia." I silently nodded.
" I can´t marry you if you still think of someone else, Jess." he didn´t even try to deny it.
"I'm sorry, Tricia." I'm sorry ? GOD! I got up, took off the ring and handed it to him.
" yeah. I know, me too."
When I left the apartment that night I felt as if I had lost everything, but I knew I finally made the right decision. I didn´t deserve being a replacement.
I stayed at a friend's place for the next couple of days and when I read the newspaper one morning, I couldn't help but feel relieved.
The article that got my interest had the title:
Logan Huntzberger´s marriage annulled.
I indeed made the right decision!
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