AN: This came to me at midnight last night when listening to Pixie Lott's catching snowflakes; it is also inspired by this song. A little one-shot this may become a two shot if I can find another song which will inspire me for chapter 2. This probably won't be my best FF, just saying. R&R please.

Disclaimer: I still don't own Merlin.

A Snowflake Destiny

Like catching a snow flake,
as it reached our hands it was already gone.

-Pixie lott

It was fated, we were one others hatred and one others love.
Always destined to be torn apart, without realising we needed to be torn apart. As, we never really were together. Just a Lady, a Ward and her (not knowingly) brothers manservant.
Okay, so I never kissed her feet or bowed down to her because I was never like a real servant, not really.

Dutiful? Yes.
Patriotic? In a way.
But a well behaved, well mannered servant I was not.
How could anyone think such a thing, im aghast to think anyone would ever think that! You could say our relationship (although im not sure what kind it was classed as) was like catching a snowflake, just as it had got anywhere, it had been shot down and away.

I realise now we should not of tried to take it, no matter how much we needed each other. From the very beginnings of life we were fated to be enemies.
I wanted to help you so badly, to give you my all but I listened to the wrong people and let destiny take its course.
And I lost you on the way down, that final day.
When I poisoned you.
When I realised this was it for us, we could never be friends again, not even just mere acquaintances.
Somehow I do seem to cope with all this guilt, even though I do cry every night, hearing you slowly die.

I have lost many people since I did that to you.
But you, my Lady, are my biggest regret.
And I know it will never be enough, but I am truly sorry, with all my heart.

"I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do...I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you."- Not known

And I know it will never be.