A/N: wee. I finally come up with a one-shot fic!! ^^ it's my first though.. hehehe. I hope you like it. And pleeeeeassssee, don't forget to leave a review. It'll help me a lot as a newbie.. Thanks! Enjoy.
Disclaimer: I don't own Cardcaptor Sakura, ccs.
Whatever. But I do own Li Shaoran. Hahaha! Peace!
Memories of Autumn.
Autumn.
A time when you can see different delicate hue of red, gold and brown leaves with unique shape patterns.
When leaves fall freely.. letting go to the stems as if saying I can go now on my own..
Sometimes, gust of wind usurps them and spontaneously falling freely bringing them where fate leads them to.
Autumn.
Another season. Another chance to change.
Autumn.
It's the first day of Autumn;The time he bade goodbye. I clearly remember my last memory with him..
A memory that continuously haunt me in my dreams.A memory that reminds me of someone I could never have.
Autumn.
The pain slowly invades my whole being engulfing me to the world of loneliness I never thought existed. I feel the serenity of the place. The whisper of silence percolates my system that pulls me into a deep trance. And that's when memories resurface..
Tears pricked at the corners of my eyes telling me I had enough..
How can I forget that day? When it's a day, like this when he left me, my heart with him. I felt so vacuous and alone seeing him walk away from me. I wanted to run and beg him to stay, but that time, it seems like my legs stop responding and mocking me to just let him go. I wanted to say I'll do anything, just don't leave, but I couldn't find my voice either. As if I was doomed to my fate that will never change.
I never thought someone would leave me vulnerable and frail. Not in a million years I imagine that someone would melt the barriers I placed myself from the rest of the world. And I never thought that it all takes one Li Shaoran to change what I used to believe in.
But then, I digress.
I know I can't get over with what had transpired between us and I can't let myself believe that everything I never thought would happen.
But..
Someday, I'll open the door and try to be okay again, accepting the fact that he's gone and we'll never be the same as we were before. And as I wait for that time, I, Sakura Kinomoto, will never cry as I go back to this place again, to this penguin park every first day of autumn and know that I'll never let painful memories affect me again.