Life As We Know It

by Zaurac

Roxas has just joined the organization and is trying to find his place. He believes he can feel and soon finds out the others can feel around him as well. Although, not everyone wants to feel, but some want to more then others. Akuroku and others.

1. First Day

Sadly, I own nothing. Sorry for grammar errors! Hope you enjoy the read. :)

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I have just entered into an organization of Hell. After our so called leader, Xemnas explained to me that the Organization's goal was to collect enough hearts to make Kingdom Hearts, he was on his marry way. Thus, leaving me behind to be interrogated by the three members that had already caught on that I was a new member. A man with pinkish hair was first to introduce himself.

"I am Marluxia. Call me Mar Mar or Marly, whatever you prefer!" He exclaimed and offered his hand in greeting but I refused him. Something about the guy turned me off. My refusal to not shake his hand did not offend him in the least.

"I'm Roxas." I stated blandly, and his expression was still as excited as before.

"Ohh! Nice to meet you Roxy!"

"It's Roxas. Not Roxy." I corrected him. I never wanted this fruit calling me 'Roxy' ever again. Now all I hoped was that all the members were not as much as an oddball as this so called Marluxia. I hated when men were overly flamboyant.

Then the other two members approached from the sidelines. One had long grayish black hair pulled into a ponytail with a scar on this face. The other had blonde hair with two tail like strands sticking out. The man with the ponytail spoke first.

"Aye Man! I'm Xigbar." He offered his hand to shake and this time I accepted the greeting because he was a little more on the normal side.

"A nice firm handshake. I like that in a man." Xigbar stated while my vision shifted to the other unnamed organization member.

"This is Larxene. He's kind of pissy so watch your back." Xigbar chuckled and Larxene glared at him.

"Fuck off Xigbar." Larxene hissed, and then her angered expression redirected on me.

"I'll have you know I don't have a cock!"

"That is because you got if cut off, remember?" Marluxia retorte. Xigbar snickered and Larxene's face flushed with anger and she looked about ready to attack the two of them.

"DO YOU WANT MORE SCARS, YOU ARROGANT BAST- "

"ANYWAYS, I'm Roxas. It is nice to meet you." I decided to cut her off because I didn't feel like dealing this bullshit.

I then decided I had spent enough time getting to know these three members for now, so I shoved past them.

"Oh, where do you think you're going?" Marluxia questioned and grabbed me by the hood of my cloak.

"Exploring. Now let me go." I said in the calmest voice I could manage.

"I will come with you! I will show you everything you need to know!" He offered, but I didn't want him near me.

"No. That will be fine Marluxia. I am going on my own."

"Please Roxas?" He whined.

"No. Leave it." Then I walked away before he had the chance to say anything else and I was surprised he did try to follow me.

The castle was very clean and very white. It smelt like industrial cleaning products but I didn't mind. Better that is smelt clean then dirty. I wasn't exactly sure what I was supposed to be doing or going. Xemnas hadn't been very clear on that. After a while I came to a door with a note posted on it. It was addressed to me. I grabbed it hastily and hoped it was a death sentence.

Roxas,

Behind this door is your room. Sorry, but we had an incident last week and you will have a few roommates for awhile. Make yourself at home.

-Xemnas

Great, roommates. I thought to myself and loved the fact that I was left to find my room by myself. Holding my breath I turned the door handle and slowly opened the door. More white. What a surprise. There was a few band posters up on the walls, a queen sized bunk bed, and a single bed all stuffed into this tiny room. Soft music played from the lower bunk that happened to have a curtain pulled around the entire bunk, effectively blocking me from seeing who played what I assumed was a guitar. I flopped onto the single bed and closed my eyes. It felt weird to be moving into this place and have none of my own personal possessions. I also wondered what exactly I was getting myself into. Kingdom Hearts? Nobodies? I'm a Nobody I understand that, but I never knew there was something I could do get my heart back. Although, I swear I can feel. Not much, but in some situations I believe I feel a very faint amount of emotion, just enough to know it is there. Or maybe I am just crazy and remember what it feels like to feel. I hated thinking about this stuff, it only confused me. Maybe I was in denial that I couldn't feel or have emotions. I didn't understand what exactly the truth was. So I forced my eyes open; I had to do something before I went insane thinking about this. To my luck the guitar stopped and I heard shuffling on the bed, and the curtain began to open. A man with brown mullet type hair cut emerged from the bottom bunk.

"HOLY CRAP!" The man jumped as he saw me. I guess I took him off guard. He was only in a pair of white boxer briefs.

"Nice panties." I smirked as he looked down dumbfounded.

"Eh, sorry. I just woke up from my afternoon delight awhile ago. I didn't hear you come in." He said while a huge blush crept across his face. I didn't know how to react to what he told me and I wasn't exactly sure what he meant. Did he jack off? Or did he actually get some? I wasn't about to ask, and it didn't seem like anyone else was in this room.

"I'm Roxas by the way." I stated with a nod of my head watching the other organization member pull his pants and cloak on.

"I'm Demyx." He smiled back while zipping up the zipper on his cloak.

"By the way that bed is taken. You get the top bunk." Demyx said while approaching the bed I was sitting on.

"Please tell me Marluxia isn't our roommate?" I questioned and Demyx laughed.

"No, Marluxia isn't our roommate. Thank god. The fag never shuts the hell up." Demyx chuckled.

"Our roommate is Larxene." He added and then sat down beside me on the bed.

"I've met her already. She seemed kind of 'pissy'." I stated, and gave a soft smile toward Demyx. He was looking back at me with a huge grin.

"Constant PMS is all I can say. Just don't piss her off if you don't think you can take her." He playfully gave me a soft punch. I was thankful I met Demyx. He seemed like the only normal one here so far. I also admit he did have a certain amount of sex appeal.

"So, what do you guys do for fun in this place?" I questioned while I let myself fall back onto the bed.

"Usually tonight everyone goes Luxord's bar, which is appropriately named Luxord's." He stated with a smile.

"I guess that could be fun. When are you leaving?"

"I am not going tonight. I am going out with my boyfriend." He blushed again, and now I knew my answer to my early curiosity of what exactly afternoon delight was. Although, I was kind of upset that he wasn't coming.

"Well, if we don't get back to late. I'll go see what is happening at the bar. Sound good?" Apparently, that fact that I was upset showed on my face, which I didn't mean to happen because his words were soothing and he grasped my shoulder in comfort.

"Ya, that sounds good." I smiled back with a soft blush, hoping he didn't notice. Then all of a sudden he was on his feet.

"Well I have to go! Luxord's is on the fifth floor. It isn't too hard to find." Before I could even say bye he was out the door and I was all by myself again. I really didn't want to grace everyone with my presence at this bar. Although, I didn't have much else to do and I didn't want to be alone in this room all night.

I found the bar with relative ease, and compared to the rest of the castle the bar was nice. It wasn't white. It had hard wood flooring and dark colored walls that had a man like feel to it. A few poker tables sat in various areas of the open space along with a pool table. Behind the bar was a man with blonde hair and a well trimmed goatee. I am guessing this is Luxord. Xigbar was sitting at the bar with two other men I didn't know. Taking a deep breath I sighed and walked up to the group of black cloaked men.

"Hey." I greeted them casually as I walked up behind them and Xigbar spun around in his chair holding a pint of beer.

"ALO ROXAS!" He greeted me with too much excitement and held up his beer in greeting.

"How nice of you to join us! This is Zexion and Xaldin." Zexion had emo fringe type hair cut that was for some reason dyed blue and Xaldin was a big guy with black dreads.

"Take a seat beside me Roxas!" Xigbar exclaimed and shoved Zexion out of the bar stool to his left.

"You could have asked me to move you drunk!" Zexion hissed and sat down to the left of me as I took his old spot. Then the bartender approached with a beer in his hand and stopped in front of me.

"Nice to meet you Roxas, this one is on the house. I'm Luxord by the way."

"Thanks and it is nice to meet you too!" I smiled genuinely at him then Luxord turned to Zexion.

"Do you want another glass of red wine Zexion?" Zexion nodded and with a few minutes he returned with a glass of red wine.

The five of us chatted for about two hours and I got to know everyone a little better. Apparently Xaldin is a great cook and Zexion has a problem with smelling things. I was now on my fifth beer and I starting to feel pretty good and was opening up more.

"So I met Demyx, my roommate today. Larxene is my other roommate."

Xigbar who was very intoxicated by now was the first to say something to my statement.

"AYE! Where that is…where is that lollygagger? H-he should be playing the gui-tar for us! That bitch!"

I rolled my eyes and looked at the drunken Xigbar.

"He is with his boyfriend." I replied and Zexion gave me a strange look. I am guessing he was surprised about me starting to open up. Or maybe he was analyzing me. I didn't know.

"I like when he plays the Sitar better." Xaldin added in randomly.

"DAMMIT AXEL. We could be lisss-tening to some tunes right now. BUT OH NO. They have to be out sexing it up somewhure!" I chuckled softly as Xigbar slurred his words. Then out of nowhere an arm was draped around my neck along with Xigbar's.

"Hello boys! Have we had a few?" It was Larxene and she had a rather devilish smirk across her lips.

"Hey NO COCK!" Xigbar greeted. Xaldin waved in greeting but Zexion made no attempt at acknowledging her. It seemed Larxene had ignored Xigbar's comment.

"How about a game of poker?" She offered and Xigbar smirked.

"Sounds good." Xaldin agreed, and Xigbar poked Larxene on the chest.

"Le… Let's make that strip poker. I haven't seen a pair of boobs in simply ages!" Xigbar joked and Larxene grinned while shoving his arm back to him.

"Going to try out heterosexuality again Xig?"

"Ah, fuck no! I jus…t forget what boobs look like!"

I was nervous about playing. Public nudity was never something I was very comfortable with. I also knew Larxene had an advantage over us because she was clearly sober. Thank god for alcohol.

To my benefit Demyx entered the bar and I felt a goofy drunk smile cross my features.

"Hey guys! What's going on?" He questioned while he ordered a beer and took a seat at the poker table.
"Were gunna get to schee Larx's boobs Dem! Are you excited?" Xigbar grabbed Demyx in a head lock and Demyx smirked while trying not to spill his beer.
"I can pretend to be." I liked his witty reply and I really hoped he would be playing.

"You in?" Zexion finally broke his silence and asked Demyx.

"Ya, I guess." He nodded and Xigbar huffed a laugh.

"Ooooo. What would Axel think?" Larxene teased
"I'm sober, Xig's smashed. Roxas, Xaldin, and Zexion are feeling it. I can tell. I think I have a little advantage." Demyx defended him and Larxene smirked.

"Oh, I know. It is Axel. He wouldn't care. Don't get all defensive on me Dem, but you do suck at poker! So whoever is completely naked first loses. Everyone else wins!"

"GREAT!" Xigbar exclaimed and I gulped.

"So let the god damn game begin already!" Zexion growled in drunken anger.

To my benefit I had a great poker face and Demyx didn't. After ten or so rounds I had only taken off one boot. I lost to Xigbar who had raised me one boot. Larxene lost to me a few times. Now she sat in her bra, pants, gloves, and socks. Xaldin had no cloak on, Zexion had no gloves on, and Xigbar had no shoes or gloves on. Demyx on the other hand was sitting in his white briefs with his gloves and one sock still on. Now on my eleventh beer in three and a half hours he was starting to look really hot.

Now it was Larxene's time to shine. In the second half of the game I lost my cloak. Xigbar was sitting in just his pants. Xaldin lost his gloves, and Zexion lost his shoes. Demyx toned body was only adorned in his white boxer briefs. It was Xaldin's deal and everyone had folder except Demyx and me. I had the ten, queen, and ace of Spades. Two cards short of a Royal Flush!

"I check." Demyx smirked and I decided I better was well. The Jack of Spades came up and all I needed now was the king.

"I raise you. Whoever loses gets naked." Demyx smirked

He must have had a good hand since he had been folding right away for the last little while. I knew it was a huge risk and if I didn't get the king I would most likely lose with my high card. Although, my anxiety of public nudity had drowned with my drunkenness so I went with the risk.

"Deal." I held my breath as Xaldin flipped the cards. Everyone was completely silent but excited as the next three cards were flipped up. The king of spades was the last card he flipped.

"Oh ya!" I laid my cards on the table, and jumped up from my chair and it fell backwards.

"Take it off Dem!" I looked at him feeling victorious and his cheeks flared red.

"Well you don't see that every day!" Xigbar chimed. The suspense seemed to have sobered him up a little.

Demyx pulled off his boxers in a shy manner and my drunkenness would allow me to peak a little. It was my victory after all. Then I sat back down.

"It's bigger than I thought." Xigbar said under his breath towards me and I chuckled.

"That is very nice Dem, but I think I am going to go to bed." Larxene then put on the rest of her clothes and left the bar without saying anything more.

"I think I am going to head out too." Demyx was still bright red and it was upsetting that he was going to put his clothes back on.

"Later Dem." I smirked and he waved to the lot of us before he left.

I decided I would stay up a little longer with Xigbar, Zexion, and Xaldin because I still riding the high of my victory. I was happy with how the night turned out.

"LUXORD! I wanna buy a dru…ink! For my friend Roxas here! What you want squirt?" He put his arm around me and I thought for a moment.

"A tequila shot please?" Then Xaldin turned to me and Xigbar smiled.

"Good choice." Xaldin complimented.

"He's a true man! Make that six LUX! Tree… THREE for Rox and three for me!" Xigbar said then handed me the shots Luxord had brought to us. I did them without thinking.

"To bad Dem left." Zexion sighed and Xigbar hit the table with his hand.

" You saw the man naked! Isn't that en…enough? Get over him Zex!" Xigbar growled as Zexion frowned.

"He ALWAYS complains about how Axel doesn't appreciate him!" Zexion said with fury in his voice and Xaldin looked at Xigbar already knowing he would have something to say.

"Axel doesn't appreciate anything and he never will. If Dem wants to put up with that he will. Axel is more fun then you anyways Zex." Xigbar winked at Zexion and Xaldin shook his head.

"I can see where you are coming from Zexion." Xaldin began,

"Although, I think you should really let him go. How long ago has it been? Two and a half year since you guys dated?"

My curiosity was through the roof. Oh the drama.

"So you see Roxas. Zex and Dem dated for quite a while a long freaking time ago. Dem broke up with him because he is a whiny smelling obsessed emo bitch that made him shower three times a day because his nose is sensitive. About a year later Dem and Axel started dated and have been dating for a year and some now. Overall I think Zex is just jealous because Axel the virginity robber got Dem's instead of him." Xigbar filled me without even having to ask.

"Hmm, interesting." Was all I could manage to say. I couldn't say I liked Demyx. I didn't know him well enough. I just thought he was hot. I guess only time could tell. I hated when I ended up liking men who were already taking. Day dreaming gets boring after awhile.

Finally I decided to say my goodbyes and head back to my room. I hoped Larxene and Demyx would already be asleep. It was three in the morning. Once I had finally staggered back to the room I opened the door to see pitch black. As I entered I bumped into an anonymous figure and my eyes adjusted to the dark to see what it was. They made out the shady outline of an organization member that was on the leaner side with some sort of crazy spiky haircut.

"Sorry." The voice whispered slightly irritated.

"It's okay." I mumbled back and crawled up onto the top bunk wanting sleep more anything at the moment.

"Come back Axel!" Demyx's shrill but hushed voice came from underneath me. The tall figure at the door way stopped and sighed. My curiosity was spiked again and I gained some sudden energy. I wondered what was going on. Axel turned around and crawled back into the bunk below me with Demyx.

"You could at least be a little jealous!" Demyx whispered with anger. I listened carefully to catch every word. I assumed he was on about Axel not appreciating him.

"Sorry, I cannot feel… Remember." Demyx huffed at his comment.

"You can remember what it was like. You should remember that if you had a heart you'd be jealous. Zex was there!" Demyx exclaimed. His voice was rising in volume a bit now.

"Even if I had a heart Demy, I wouldn't be jealous. I wasn't a jealous person. Can we please drop this?"

"But Ax-"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU TWO. FUCK AND MAKE UP. I'M TRYING TO SLEEP!" Larxene cut in and I jumped slightly. Axel chuckled at the comment.

"I agree with you Larx." Axel's laughing stopped and then I hoped to god they wouldn't go through with it. I was right above them for crying out loud!

"Stop it Axel." Demyx whined. I could hear them struggling below and Demyx complained some more before he finally gave into his hormones and I could hear him softly agree to go along with Axel. The bed started to creak in rhythm, and I could hear hushed moans of pleasure from below me. I was kind of jealous, but I only wanted Demyx's body as of now. I tried to think of something else as they grew nosier but I couldn't get sex out of my mind. Soon I found I was pleasuring myself. Their moans and rhythm of the bed only fueled me. I knew I was going to feel sick about myself in the morning but too much alcohol mixed with the moans of Demyx were too much for me to withstand. Damn tequila. I finished before them and they finished soon after me and I drifted off into sleep within minutes.

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