This is my version of what I would like to see happen in Season 5. I know I won't get anything close to this so decided to write it myself. Anyone who's read my other stuff knows my grammar and spelling is not perfect. I write for enjoyment only. I do not own Gossip Girl nor the characters. Enjoy and feel free to review. Thanks!
It had been fifteen weeks since he had last made love to her. Fifteen weeks since he held her tightly in his arms and felt whole. It had been twelve long weeks since he had last seen her. Twelve weeks since he had last placed his lips to her soft cheek. In some ways it felt like forever since he had last heard her voice or touched her arm gently but twelve weeks wasn't really all that long. Certainly not long enough to truly get over her. He had spent those three months trying so hard.
He and Nate had been traveling the world, Italy, Spain, Fiji, Singapore, Rio and finally Montecito to visit Serena. They were having a great time. There were endless parties, alcohol and available women. The girls he sought out were always brown haired, dark eyed and ivory skinned. He preferred their hair curled. That was how he liked to remember Blair, the way she was that night so long ago at Victorla. The memory of her curls sprawled out across his leather seats as he entered her for the first time. The way she released a single, breathless gasp. That was the best memory of all and he had been chasing it all summer long.
But the women, no matter how closely they might resemble her, were never quite right. Their hair wasn't as soft; their eyes didn't hold that same sparkle and not a single one of them could even come close to how she made him feel when he was buried deep inside her.
He knew he had done the right thing for her when he had let her go but it was most definitely the wrong thing for him. He was sick with the knowledge of another man holding her, making love to her and most importantly marrying her. He had always thought that eventually they would find their way back to each other. He had believed it deep down in his heart and to his very core. That was why he had bought the ring because he believed without a shadow of a doubt that she would be his.
If he were honest with himself he secretly hoped something would happen and she would end up back at his door. And he had decided if that ever occurred he'd never let her go again. She'd belong to him completely and forever. Because when he pictured his future it was always with Blair by his side.
He felt deflated last night when he had overheard Serena and Cece telling Nate all about Blair's fantastic summer. He had stood outside the door to the dining room listening to them regale Nate with stories of palaces, yachts and royal parties. When he couldn't take it any longer he had entered the room and they all stopped talking and looked guiltily away from him.
And so it was with an extremely heavy heart that he returned to New York City on the Bass Company jet. He knew he would have to see her eventually. There was no way to avoid her forever. He also knew that he would have to smile and tell her how happy he was for her as deep down inside his heart broke a little bit more. He would do all this because he loved her.