How can you move forward if you keep regretting the past?
-Edward Elric
Fade Into Oblivion
Number One:
Your heart is an empty room.
I groaned in pain. My body felt numb, and yet I could feel my veins pulsing, as if I were losing blood…
"This is what you asked for. You do want to see your brother again, right?"
I bit my lip. Brother. I promised I would see you again.
I won't give up.
I didn't dare to open my eyes as I felt a cold metal against my skin.
"Think happy thoughts."
My brother always told me I was negative. Then make a joke and laughed. His laughter was contagious.
Happy thoughts…
I screamed. The cold metal pierced my skin, trailing up and down my body.
No more happy thoughts.
I screamed and screamed. My voice was so loud; it was inaudible to my ears.
I felt blood drench my arms and legs, and the pain continued.
Even with my eyes closed, the darkness gleamed with light and peace ahead.
I wasn't going to make it.
Forgive me, brother?
I woke up.
Everything was white; no shadow lingered anywhere as far as I could see. I groaned and cradled my head in my hand. I stopped to process the markings on my arms. They were alchemy circles.
I looked at my body, which was naked, and the alchemic symbols trails down my arms to my legs. I couldn't tell if any where on my face, unfortunately.
So…this is death?
"Death? Are you kidding?"
It was a voice.
I looked over to see a figure, with no body. It was just a figure of a body. It was strange…but not as strange as the large door behind it.
When did that get there?
"This is what happens when you commit the ultimate sin."
Ultimate sin? What was it talking about?
"Isn't this want you are looking for?"
"The truth?"
Suddenly, the doors burst open and arms flew out, grabbing onto my naked body. I had no time to see if the figure was still there…but I heard its voice.
"Have a nice time, Alchemist."
What was this?
Alchemy? Science?
Biology? History?
Languages I never heard?
Though I was afraid…it was…amazing!
My brain processed everything, while I was left to feel it shoved into my brain. So many things…secrets to the universe…this was everything those scientists wanted to know.
But, soon it became too much for me to handle.
My head was throbbing.
"Stop…" I mumbled.
The dark black arms then began to encase me, almost completely. But my arm managed to reach out towards the light.
"Help me!" I screamed, scared.
It began to suck me in, where only my hand was left.
I couldn't scream. I couldn't see.
But then warmth filled my body.
A firm hand had grabbed mine, and instantly the dark hands released me.
I noticed the black boots in front of me. In a blue uniform was a man with dark black shaggy hair and dark blue eyes. My hand was in his.
He smiled.
Confused but yet, I smiled back.
"Thank you…for saving me." I said.
"No, thank you." He said, kneeling down.
I blinked and examined his features. His eyes were like an endless, crystal clear sea. His face was toned just to fit his hair and eyes; Beautiful.
"Now. Wake up." He said.
I didn't want to go! I mean…I just met him…
"Wait, what's your name?" I asked.
He stood to his feet.
"You already know my name."
Emptiness.
From then on, I felt no pain. No sorrow. No remorse.
I didn't feel happiness, or anger…
I felt nothing.
The people who created me…made me into this…
Told me I was incomplete.
I was a waste.
They threw me out into the world, looking like a monster.
My eyes, they were gone, but replaced with eyes that resembled the color of glass. The symbols on my body were simply there, with no intention of healing.
I was stuck like this.
But they promised me, I would see my brother again…
I wanted to be angry. I wanted to avenge…
But I had no emotions for that.
I locked myself away into an abandoned building in some town where I stayed and stayed. I felt no urge to eat. The thought of eating felt empty. What difference would it make?
I sat in the corner of that dark room in the abandoned building, covering myself with a long white dirtied shirt I had found. Everything was quiet.
I looked around and I thought to myself,
"My heart is as empty as this very room."
-End Number One
Song Used:
'Your Heart Is an Empty Room'
By: Death Cab for Cutie
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