[A/N: This kind of just popped into my head last night. I couldn't shake it off my mind so I finally just decided to write it and upload it on here. Tell me what you guys think of it.]
Beautiful, smart, greatest friend in the world; her eyes make the starts in the sky look dim. Her hair falls perfectly with the wind. Her scent is intoxicating. She is just amazing, but she isn't mine.
I'll never have the courage to tell her. All I can do is be her friend. But that's enough for me, as long as she's happy. It hurts though, knowing she'll never feel the same way. At least I can watch her from afar…she probably doesn't need me doing so, but if anything ever happened to her I would never forgive myself if I wasn't there to help.
Her smile is the most attractive one I have ever seen. When she's angry she brings out the best in me. Her anger helps me talk to her; when she's mad I can help her feel better.
I'm just a friend to her, but she is so much more than she'll ever know to me. Maybe someday I'll have the confidence to tell her how I feel. But until then, I'll be there when she needs someone to talk to.
"Twinkle Toes! Come on!"
Toph pulled me by the hand as she led us out of my room. We walked through my living room and into the kitchen.
"Uh, why are we in my kitchen?" She was still holding my hand. I could feel my cheeks heat up intensely.
She walked to the counter top and grabbed a bad of chips. When she turned around and noticed me blushing, her hand released mine.
"I held your hand for a second and suddenly you're blushing like crazy. Don't worry Twinkles, I was just joking. We are just friends and you know that." She laughed at her own comment. Her laugh, normally it was something I tried hard to get her to do, but right now I just felt bad.
I couldn't say anything back to her. She had crushed me without even knowing it. A pain shot through my body. I didn't know her words could hurt me as bad as it did.
"You know what Toph? I'm not really feeling well right now." I can't believe that's how she sees me. I try and try but I never get anywhere with her.
She pulled up a chair and sat down. Signaling she wasn't about to go anywhere soon. "Okay, we need to talk." There was seriousness in her voice now. But why do we need to talk? About what? Oh no…don't tell me –
"So I know this guy, he's cute, childish, innocent, and he's a good friend of mine. I don't know for sure if the rumors are true, but people say that he likes me." I knew it! There is someone else. Toph, why can't you see that I'm the one for you? We could be so much more.
"W-who?"
"Well, he's not THAT good of a friend, but he's cute. His name is Teo." She giggled in a way I haven't heard her giggle or laugh before and it broke my heart. That was the last of it. I couldn't listen anymore. I walked back into the living room and towards my room.
As I left I spoke quietly.
"Please show yourself out Toph. I feel like shit today." How did she get in my house anyway? I walked halfway through my living room before a yank of my shirt sent me two steps back. I turned around and met her beautiful eyes. For a second I wanted nothing more than for things to just stop and keep this moment forever.
"I just don't get you Aang. Most guys would have told me by now. What's holding you back?" What was she talking about? I had not clue what she meant by that. I can't speak to her anymore right now, I'm so embarrassed. How is it she doesn't know that I like her?
"I don't know what you are talking about."
"That's exactly it Aang! You never get it. You never just do what you want, quit thinking so much and act. You never understand."
I never understand? Who's always there for her when she needs help? Who's always there when she needs a friend? Whose freakin' always there when she just needed to talk to someone about her problems and parents? How could she say that!
I give up. I won't try anymore. "Fine, if you only came here to tell me how I never understand you or anything then please leave." What's this feeling? Why does my chest hurt so much?
"Fine! See you around STUPID!" She rushed out the front door and slammed it shut.
Hearing all the noise, Gyatso walked out into the living room. Still in his morning pajamas he yawned and stretched slightly.
"What's all that noise Aang?"
"I'm sorry Gyatso. It won't bother you anymore today." I turned and walked into my bedroom. Gyatso followed.
"It's Toph again isn't it?" Gyatso, he always took the time to figure me out. He's my dad after all…well not really, but he did adopt me, and I wouldn't have all the things I have now without him. But as much as I loved him, I wasn't about to let out my current thoughts.
"I don't want to talk about it."
"Aang, you cannot get passed an obstacle without first confronting it. I know you'll feel better if you just let your feelings out."
I let out a small sigh. "I'm sorry Gyatso; I really don't feel like talking about it."
He stood at my bedroom door in silence for a while before finally speaking again. "Okay. If you need anything, I'm here for you."
I got back in bed, under the covers, and turned away from him. As he left, he gently closed the door behind him.
I whispered to myself. "Let out my feelings huh…"
Taking his advice I thought back about what went on earlier. I feel so stupid. Why do I feel this way for someone that doesn't even notice? Tears began escaping my eyes as I thought back to her saying that I never understood. Why did she say that? I've never left her in the cold. Never had I done things to upset her. I guess I really didn't understand. I let myself go and soon fell asleep in my little world full of thoughts.
I cursed at the world, at myself, at everything because I was too weak to do anything about how things were going. I suddenly woke up because someone was coming into my room. I was never a deep sleeper so I was quite startled by the noise.
"Hey buddy. How are you feeling?" It was Sokka. He probably came to find out why I didn't go to school…WAIT WHAT? I looked at my alarm clock. It read, 4:26 pm. I didn't think I would sleep that long. Why didn't Gyatso wake me? I pushed all the worries in my mind out as I figured I was too tired to deal with it all.
"Hey Sokka" My voice was weak and scratchy. Where there once was pain in my chest now only resided a numb feeling. It must have subsided I guess.
"Did you know, the day you happened to miss school, we didn't get any homework? Boy, you sure have some luck."
A small smile let itself show as I thought of the irony. It really was odd. But to say that I had luck…well that was hard to accept. Things weren't exactly going well for me lately.
"So why DID you miss school today? I mean yeah you look terrible, but usually that never stops you from going."
"I had a bad morning…I guess I just wanted to be alone for a while." There was an awkward silence for a long period. I saw Sokka glance a few times at my computer. He was very interested in my new StarCraft game; I could see it in his face. I chuckled, thinking about how much he probably wanted to play it.
"Sokka you can play it if you want to."
His face lit up with happiness. He looked like a little kid on Christmas morning.
"YEAH! WOOO! Aang you're the best man!"
"But! You have to let me drive-, AHH!" A bunch of keys came flying at me from the other end of the room before I could finish. I picked up the keys and saw Sokka jump to my computer and start up StarCraft II.
I walked out of my room, leaving Sokka to play the game. I made my way into the living room and the conversations from this morning filled my head. I needed some fresh air, so I headed outside. I had a ride right now, I was about to find someplace quiet to get away from the world and think.
It's not like this is my first time driving. I may be only fourteen but I'm not an idiot. Hell, I'm the smartest freshman in my school. I walked out the front door and got into Sokka's sliver Mustang. The engine roared as I started it up and drove away from my house.
Author's Note(s):
It's not much of a story. I guess it could pass if no one really cared though haha. Please read and review. Let me know if this story should keep on going or be left as is. Gosh I'm making so many stories and not finishing them. My bad, I'll get back to them I promise.
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