"Please forgive me" Soubi asked, pleading in his voice. Ritsuka changed into the clothes Natsuo had given him, without saying a word.
"I'm sorry" Soubi said in a bare whisper.
"It's not like you had a choice" Ritsuka replied, "Now get into bed" Soubi looked at him, guilt and sadness in his blue eyes.
"But Ritsuka, can you stand to be with a traitor?" he asked. Ritsuka looked at him, unsure of how to answer. His eyes twitched and he climbed into bed.
"I'm tried, so I'm going to bed" he finally told the older man, "Are you joining me or not?" Soubi looked at him, before slowly nodding. Five minutes later, Soubi climbed into the bed, next to Ritsuka. Ritsuka had expected Soubi to hug him or crawl up right against him, but Soubi was as far away from Ritsuka as possible. Ritsuka silently sighed, turning over to face away from the man, and he was soon swallowed into his confused thoughts.
Seimei! Seimei is alive! But that means Seimei lied to me. Why? Why did the person I love the most lie, trick and betray me? I want Seimei by my side. I need him by my side. Without him I am nothing. Yet Seimei has left me again, and I don't understand it.
Tears began to prick at Ritsuka's eyes as he crawled himself up into a ball, hugging the end of his tail.
Soubi let Seimei leave me again. But Soubi had no choice, he was ordered to. But I thought Soubi was my fighter, he isn't Seimei's any more. I accepted Soubi as my fighter. He is now Loveless. But I am wrong. Soubi can never belong to me. He will always be Seimei's fighter. The Beloved fighter. Soubi will never be Loveless. He will never be mine. I will lose him, like I lost Seimei. Soubi never did love me, he was just ordered to by Seimei.
Ritsuka rolled over, now facing Soubi. His eyes were closed.
"Soubi…?" Ritsuka whispered, edging closer to him. The older man didn't respond. Ritsuka wrapped an arm around his waist and hugged him, digging his face into Soubi's stomach.
"Soubi…this isn't an order, but a request" Ritsuka whispered, loud enough for Soubi to hear it if he was awake, "Hold me…please…say you are mine…say that you are Loveless" Ritsuka waited for a respond, but didn't receive one. Silently, he rolled back over, lying on the edge of the bed. He shook as tears rolled down his cold cheeks. He wiped them away, shakily and then jumped as warm arms enveloped him.
"Soubi?" Ritsuka asked, looking behind him. Soubi was looking at him, his eyes now open.
"I am yours, I am the Loveless fighter, therefore I am Loveless, you are my sacrifice" Soubi told him, nuzzling his face into Ritsuka's neck. Ritsuka smiled faintly, turning around into his fighter's grip. Soubi looked at him again, studying the small boy, before kissing him gently on the lips. He then lent his forehead against Ritsuka's.
"Thank you" Ritsuka whispered, cuddling into Soubi's hold and wrapping his arms about Soubi's stomach. They both slowly fall asleep, not quite Loveless.
Mah, what to say? Well, this is just a short story about what I think happened after Seimei came back that night. It wouldn't get out my head, so I just quickly jotted it down.
Review please, but nothing too harsh.