"Sorry kid but she's gone" the nurse told me and went straight down the hall. I started to quiver. "Nate" Dee Dee looked at me. "Nate I'm so sorry, I know she doesn't deserve this" Francis said. Teddy felt silent and patted my back. Chad gave me a hug but I started crying. "She's not dead, she's not freakin dead, I'm calling her I know she must be on the run" I grabbed Chad's phone and ran outside to the exit! I called her numerous times but it kept on saying " Hey this is Janine, my phone is officially switched off have a great day". I finally gave up and started to cry, Dee Dee found me balling my eyes out on the ground.
She sat beside me and touched my shoulder "Nate, I know how to feels to loose someone you love. I was experienced with the same thing but the love I felt for was my mom before she passed away due to cancer. I cried and cried but I'm still that person that loves to help and loves drama. What I'm trying to say Nate is don't change yourself because of death but…" but before she continued I hugged her. "Dee Dee I don't know what to do with you and the guys" I said sobbing through every word I said. I never cried like that before but, I really loved her more than Jenny.
I finally fell asleep when my sister picked me up. She got married to Bobby and they already have a 3 year old baby girl named Diana. It felt like the whole thing was a huge nightmare and that I would get to meet Janine again at the same spot. I woke up this morning and got onto my computer and started to text her:
BigNate: Hey Janine, everybody at school thinks your dead, how stupid is that! But, I don't believe them, Janine if you agree with me give me a happy emoji!
I went downstairs and I stopped right in my tracks, my dad and someone else was talking with each other. After a few seconds my dad looked at me and said "Nate this is Detective Arson", he waved and continued sipping at his tea. "I'm just here to talk to you about Janine" he said and gestured me to come sit down. "She isn't dead" I said firmly. "She's going to answer with a happy emoji watch" I replied and went back upstairs and saw the text:
Janine398: I'm sorry BigNate but, she passed away, it's her big brother Carlton whose answering this, I know your in traumatic sense and all but, deep down she loves you…
I kept on reading the text and went back downstairs, grabbed my jacket and a dollar and ran out of the house before anyone stopped me. I went to the convenience store and saw a pack of cigarettes. I remembered Janine telling me that she smokes sometimes if she woke up in the wrong side of the bed. I also bought a lighter with the other dollar that ended in my pocket and started to smoke. When I was in middle school I remembered that there would be posters telling us kids not to smoke and I followed them since I was scared of getting cancer. But, that's was middle school, this is high school. As soon as I inhaled the contents I started to crave for it and continued smoking until I stopped and butted the fire out. It was bitter at first. I didn't want to tell anyone that I started to smoke so I hid everything in my pocket and went straight home.
Dad was furious that I left without telling him but I didn't care. I was angry that everyone kept on telling me she's dead. Arson coughed and said "Nate, I want you to tell me about Janine"
"She's not dead"
"Did I say she was"
"That's what everyone saying! What did she do to you"
"NATE WRIGHT WOULD YOU LISTEN TO ME"
I stopped and curled my hands into a fist. "Tell me about Janine" he said in a stern voice. I took a couple of breaths and dissembled my hands. After a moment of silence I decided to speak "Ok I will…"