A/N: Hello everyone! Happy late Gray Day, and Graylu Week!
Yes,I know I'm late,but the site was down yesterday so meh,whatever. Just glad it is back up and running again!
Anyways,wow I struggled with these prompts, but they were fun to write! I tried my best lol since I have been on hiatus, looking and visiting colleges, issues with the family, but it is all good now! School's started and it is almost Fall! Woooo!
Haha anywho, without a furthera-damn- do, here is Day 1 of Graylu Week!
Disclaimer: I don't own FairyTail. All credits go to the godly Hiro Mashima! c:
Day 1: Myth/Legend
The sun had finally settled itself behind the horizon, and was replaced by the ever-so beautiful full moon, it shined its soft light upon the frozen landscape down below, giving it a glimmering glow. Snow flurries fluttered down from the dark grey heavens, flooding the grounds of Crocus in white.
There were festive, heart-shaped lights streamed throughout the area,and balloons slowly wavered to and fro in the wind from where they were stationed at. Rose petals littered the sidewalks,and beautiful arrangements of several types of roses were placed throughout the town. Shimmering ribbons were looped around and tied up into adorably big bows on lamp-posts,adding a little flare to the rest of the lovely decorations the had townspeople put up days before.
It was Valentine's Day.
The capital was bustling with couples of all ages,genders and races.
The stores were selling out of fresh-cut flowers and the helium tanks were running low from all the heart-shaped balloons sold throughout the week. Men and women were hurrying into stores,buying last-minute gifts for their loved ones at home. Some had made reservations at fancy restaurants and surprised them with meaningful milestone gestures such as proposals, first kisses, or wonderful announcements about a new member coming into the family.
Yet everyone had their own way on how to express their love.
"Ah, Lucy my dear! So good to see you again kiddo." a caretaker greeted,gazing at the beautiful young woman.
She smiled at the kind, old man as she made her way through the large iron gates of the cemetery,
"Mr, Paladin, it's wonderful to see you once more too!"
Chuckling, the elder patted the young maiden's head with a leather-gloved hand,and gazed down at her with warm eyes, "How's the Mister and Missus?"
"They're doing well,thanks for asking!" she replied while adjusting her scarf,"My mother was actually wondering on if you liked the homemade raisin bread she gave to Mrs. Paladin last week?"
"Ohohoho! We loved it! That loaf was gone in two days!" Mr. Paladin said cheerfully as he fixed his black cap,"It was simply divine,and my wife would love to know the recipe if that would be alright with your mother. She wouldn't mind exchanging it for her homemade pecan pie!"
Lucy giggled,"That sounds wonderful,and of course she wouldn't mind! I'll tell her to write it up right when I go visit her and papa today."
Mr. Paladin chortled,"Goodie! Well, I better get back to my shift." he sighed out while looking at his watch. He squatted down to grab one of the handles of his wheelbarrow and lifted it up,then threw a pair of shovels in,"The snows' been piling up high this year."
The blonde nodded and laughed,shaking her head,"Tell me about it, has it been causing trouble for you?"
"Nah,there's nothing this old man can't handle." he reassured with a wink,"It was nice seeing such a young,pretty face every once in awhile around here harr harr harr! O...ooh...uh, don't tell my wife I said that."
"Haha no worries! Your secret is safe with me." she reassured with a dismissive wave of a hand.
"Hoho,blew you Lucy! Send my best regards to your folks and-oh! Happy Valentine's Day!"
Lucy waved goodbye to the bearded man and flashed a radiant smile,"Thanks, and same to you! Say hello to Mrs. Paladin for me!"
"Will do!"
As she watched him disaster from the grave site, the twenty-two year old looked down at the bouquet of pink,green and white roses in hand.
Silently,she walked through another,smaller, pair of iron gates and sauntered down the trail,mentally giving her sincere condolences to the graves she was passing by. The heels of her boots clicked against the cobble-stone,but slowly began to fade as she gradually came to a stop before a tombstone that bore precious gifts.
Lucy bent down and reached over to wipe some of the snow off of the carved stone then lowered her eyelids,her lips twitching up into a knowing smile at the sight,
"Hey Master, how are you?" she spoke softly,settling the gift down upon the tomb, then drifted her fingers across the engraved writing on the piece of cement, "I hope you're doing well,and have finally found peace... I know how worked up you could get sometimes,despite your calm demeanor.."
Giggling,the student stood back up,"I hope you've found eternal happiness as well at wherever you are,and to reassure you that your spirit still lives within your loved ones,and the hundreds of your students... or,children." Lucy regarded with a giggle as she clutched at her chest with a trembling hand,"Always.."
Closing her eyes,the twenty-two year old had a moment of silence,reminiscing the good memories she had experienced with Makarov,and how much the old man had influenced her the last couple of years.
He was like a nutty yet wise grandpa she never had.
Lucy kept quiet for a few more minutes until her ears picked up on the crunching of snow.
She lifted her head up and kept her eyes trained upon the engravings,tugging her red petticoat tighter around her body.
"Happy Valentine's Day Master... heh, I mean Grandpa. I am grateful that I got a chance to meet you during one of the toughest years of my life, you really pulled through for me and my mom..a-and I appreciate it." Lucy stated softly,giggling a bit,"We're forever in your debt."
"I don't think he sees it like that."
Hearing the unfamiliar voice from her left, Lucy looked over and saw a tall man around her age,maybe a year older or two. He wore a long,white coat, a pair of black slacks and black suede shoes,topping it off with a royal blue scarf wound around his neck.
His hair was unruly,spiky and pointing in all directions,but it surely suited and complimented his handsome facial features.
Lucy rose an eyebrow at his words then lowered her arms,"Hm?"
The man came closer and stood beside her,his hands burrowed deeply into the pockets of his slacks. He stood there for a second before flexing his jaw,
"He did... everything out of the goodness in his heart, liked giving more than receiving." the raven-haired stranger began," He wanted his students to learn everything possible about magic and the other worlds, no matter what it took."
Lucy stared at him silently before her lips curled up slowly into a small smile as she turned to look at the grave once more.
She huffed a little through her nostrils and smiled even more,"Yeah... that sounds just like him."
The man nodded,chuckling a bit,"As much as I hate to say it,it does."
Lucy made a light laugh and crossed her arms,"Even though he could be an old perverted geezer from time to time."
"Exactly." he agreed with a knowing smirk,"But that's how he kept up his young,free spirit."
The blonde giggled once more then turned to face the male, studying him for a moment before locking her hands behind her back,"You were one of his students too?"
"Nope." he answered flatly,rubbing the back of his neck,"We are ...er-I mean,were acquaintances."
Lucy smiled softly in understanding,"Mh...yeah.."
'That was close.' the man thought to himself before clearing his throat,"Ahem-uh, were you?"
She blinked then slowly nodded her head,"Uh..yeah. He was my mother's master way back,and I picked up a few things from him through time since I didn't get to see him as frequently. I was taught by another kind master in my childhood. But despite his presence not being there, he was always just.. there for us within our hearts and minds when my mother and I needed him the most,and it was the same way around... He always knew what was going on, what to say, and when to say it... and,I just wish I spent more time with him."
The blue-hued male lowered his eyelids then nodded slowly in understanding,"You just never know when your time is up until then,do you?"
Lucy smiled sadly and rubbed her arms,curling her fingers around her biceps,"I just hope he is in a good place now,he deserves it the most."
He gazed at her in awe for a split second before turning head to face the other direction,pulling his lips inwards,forming a tight line with his mouth.
The tawny haired woman twirled her body around to face the stranger full then felt her eyes widen in realization,"O-Oh, my apologies! My name is Lucy,Lucy Heartfillia!"
The stranger stiffened as he stared down at her small hand then tightened his jaw,slowly relaxing himself as he lowered his eyelids before letting out a deep sigh,
"I... know."
Lucy furrowed her eyebrows at his weird answer then slowly retracted her hand, and was met with his dark,midnight-blue hues.
She shook her head as she felt herself flush ever so slightly form his intimate gaze.
"I-Um... what?" the maiden sputtered out dumbly,immediately regretting how those words came out,
The man opened his mouth,contemplating on what to say,but stopped as he heard a voice coming from behind him.
"Oi,Lucy! You look sort of lost there. You alright sweetheart?"
Blinking,Lucy leaned to her right and offered him a smile,"Uh..yeah Mr. Paladin, I'm fine. Why do you ask?"
He chuckled and scratched the back of head,"Uh..well,it's just that I swore...I.."
"Swore what?" she politely asked as she took a few steps forward,"You look so uncomfortable right now,haha! Did you see something?"
"H-Heh,uh..w-well..it's just that I swore that I saw you talking..."
The brown-hued woman chuckled a bit,"Of course I was. I was talking with this gentleman right here." she stated while gesturing to the stranger standing besides her.
Mr. Paladin stared at her for a moment,then drifted his gaze over to where she was motioning to then twisted his face in concern,wrinkles slowly forming across his forehead.
"D-Darling... are you feeling well?"
Lucy titled her head,lowering her arms at his very off-putting tone,"Of course I am. Why do you ask?"
The old man began looking at her with slight pity visible in his eyes and made a deep sigh, reaching over to rub her shoulder in a sympathetic way,
"Oh Lucy... I didn't know Makarov's death hit you that hard.."
The woman shook her head and brushed his hand away,"N-No,I'm ok about..all that. I am alright-but why... why are you looking and talking to me...so..."
'Lies...' the stranger thought before drifting his gaze down to his feet,exhaling through' his nose,'her heart is shattered.'
"Lucy,there are people who you can talk to." he emphasized as he held her hand,"Real people."
The blonde female shook her head and pulled away from his hold,"Mr. Paladin... why are you saying that?"
"Did you not just say that you were talking with a... a g-gentleman just now?"
"Y-Yes,he's right here." Lucy stated a bit more firmer,pointing to the dark-haired adult to her left,"He knew Makarov! Don't you see him?"
Mr. Paladin looked down at her softly then shook his head solemnly,"No,sweetheart... I ..I-I don't see him."
The twenty-two year old stared at him then scoffed,"Why do you look so serious? He's standing right besides me at this very moment!" she told him,raising her voice,"That's..rude of you to act as if he isn't!"
"Lucy."
Hearing the stranger speak up, Lucy gave him a weak smile and waved her hands up,"S-Sorry, he isn't usually...like this. Maybe he's had a long day-"
"He can't see me,Lucy." the pale-skinned man cut her off with a light pained look across his face,"at least... not yet."
The woman lowered her hands once more and stared at him with disbelief,"W-What? What do you mean..."
She turned to face the elderly man in puzzlement and slowly relaxed her shoulders,lowering her hands as she knitted her brows together,"Wait.. you really can't ...see...?"
Mr. Paladin shook his head softly in reply and reached out for her,"Come on honey. Let's go see your mother."
"I don't need to see her right now. Mr. Paladin stop joking,honestly. Do you not see this tall man next me?!" she exclaimed,taking a few steps to her right to flail her arms at him,"He's right here!"
"It's no use, Lucy." the stranger said as he gazed at her,"He can't see me."
Lucy huffed and shook her head,"Yes he can! He's just joking,right, Mr. Paladin?!" she indicated towards the elder who continued staring at her...
With much more pity than before...
She felt her heart skip a beat,and anger slowly boil in her veins. Pity was the most hated emotion in her book,and despised it when others directed it towards her.
The woman clenched her hands into fist and approached the groundskeeper,"Mr. Paladin-"
Yet right when she reached for his shoulder, her small hand passed right through,making her muffle a gasp of surprise,which lead to a cry of fear. Her hues began brewing a mixture of unsettling emotions,and grew frozen stiff,shocked at what had happened.
'Wh-...what...' she mustered out before slowly turning her hand,completely unaffected by the laws of matter.
She backed away from the cap-wearing man and brought the trembling hand up to her chest, her breathe quickening before the stranger spoke up,
"You're...dying, Lucy," he spoke softly, gritting his teeth,"right now,you're dreaming. You're actually in a hospital bed in severe condition... induced into a coma that is rapidly going south..."
The woman felt her throat constrict at his words and soon,their surroundings began to blur out before her. She whipped her head up to see the sky morphing into splotches of white and blue,and the ground merge into a muck of green,brown, red and gold..
"W-What's going.."
Lucy looked to her right and saw Mr. Paladin eroding away in pigments making her gasp and reach out for the elder, not wanting him to disappear, but feel nothing but air whoosh through her fingers.
True fear and confusion struck her right through the heart.
The busty woman snapped her head over and was met with a soft gaze, and out right maturity captivating his facial features.
Like a father watching his son endure a difficult task alone..
"What's...are you messing with my mind? Is this an illusion?" she spoke with irritation etching her voice,"Are you a dark mage just passing his time by seeing others in distraught? Damn you!"
"Not at all." he replied calmly,before reaching out and placing a hand on her head."I'm just merely pulling you back from the safety and danger of your mind... away from a dear,painfully memory that has expired three months ago... it's time for you to go."
Before Lucy could say anything else,she was blinded with a bright light out of nowhere,making her hiss and cover her eyes away from its harmful rays. She turned away and squeezed them shut until she heard a cry and a constant beeping ring into her ears.
Perking her head up,the student blinked a few times before feeling a breeze from behind.
She looked down to see herself in a hospital gown,stark white with bandages wrapped all along her arms and legs,chaffing her torso and neck.
It was uncomfortable,and foreign to her skin..
"Lucy,oh Lucy please! Please don't le-leave me. ...please!" croaked out a weak voice.
Whipping her head around, the twenty-two year old searched for the source of sound and realized she was in a hospital room,and before her was her father,sobbing in defeat as the doctors and nurses crowded around the occupied hospital bed.
"...Dad?"
She stepped forward to reach out to him,but gasped as her hand went right ... through him.
'A... Again?' she thought,and just like before,she sensed no magic emitting around her at all.
It sparked her soul unpleasantly.
Was she actually... dying?
Lucy yanked her hand away and looked at the stranger with pain flickering through her pupils,"H-Him too?"
He simply nodded his head to the occupied bed behind her and exhaled through his nose,not wanting to be present for the life of him,but knew it was for the best.
Lucy narrowed her eyes as her stomach did somersaults,not liking this at all then slowly neared the bed,completely not being acknowledged by the frantic nurses and doctors in the room and peered over to see.
Her eyes laid upon a bloody and mangled ...corpse, bruised and lacerated through from all angles and degrees. Her flesh was visible, throbbing in an irritated shade of red and pink,barely hanging from her limbs as she could tell.
Her hands flew over her mouth as overwhelming thoughts washed over her with pure confusion engulfing her brain whole.
'What in the world was going on? Is this some 'out-of-body' experience people talk about all the time?! Or is it...'
Suddenly, she felt her body stiffened once more as a thought came across her mind, splitting it open like a knife.
"N-No... no no this is just some sick... thought. A bad,realistic dream. It can't be real...can it?" she seconded-thought to herself, turning to face the blank-faced stranger as fuzzy flashbacks came to mind,"wa-wait... was m-me..being r-rushed to the hospital..."
The azure-hued man merely lowered his head and chewed the inside of his cheek,closing his eyes as he continued leaning against the wall in silence.
Pure silence.
Lucy shook her head and was about to say something else until she heard a dreadful,heart-stopping noise emit from the monitor.
Slowly, the adult turned to meet with the crestfallen faces of her mother and father,and a defeated look upon the doctor's and nurses' eyes.
'No..way..' she thought as cold sweat coated her body,making itself present as her chest was soon exposed to an unbearable pain writhe from within.
Like something was grabbing at her heart,twisting and turning and tugging at it until it was ripped right out of her ruthlessly.
Her hand flew up to the spot as she began to groan,but glad she did not see or feel any blood oozing in the aftermath.
She had never felt something so... traumatizing in her life before.
Even if it were real or not, even if she believed that this was real or not...it felt...
"LUCYYY! Noooooo!" cried out her mother as she grabbed at her body's forearm,sobbing and heaving hysterically into her chest,"No...nonononooo...aaaaaahaaa!"
Lucy shook her head as tears of her own began to well-up and blur her vision.
She had never seen her mother,or father,in such a vulnerable state of ...sadness.
Loss.
Despair.
"Mom... mom I'm right here!" Lucy pathetically cracked out,reaching to grab her,but simply passed right through.
The Mage shook her head and attempted to hug her father from behind,but fell forwards onto her knees lamely. She hissed in growing frustration and slumped over, her golden locks falling forward, curtaining her face as a burning feel coursed through her from the soul..
She felt no familiarity...
No ...warmth...
...Nothing...
"This,right here,... is the natural cycle of life." the male behind her spoke in a considerate tone,"... what you have just witnessed was your death from an.. unfavorable encounter with a demon earlier that night."
He heard her breathe hitch up,as if his mouth was a gun and his words were blood-thirsty bullets piercing through her flesh,sucking the life and joy right out of her.
Clenching his fists,he continued on.
"You were protecting a little girl,a mere infant,by shielding her body with your own,and it resulted with you taking a direct impact from a deadly offensive spell.. cooked up in the deepest darkest pits of the world."
The woman clutched at her chest,the hospital gown crinkling beneath her fingers as she held back tears of overwhelming emotions exploding from within,coursing through her body that began to tremble.
He exhaled through his nose once more and rubbed the back of his neck before opening his eyes,"While you were in a coma, I ventured into your dreams and pulled you away from a memory triggered by your incident."
'N-No...' Lucy thought as her eyes widened,'how did he-?'
"Makarov was a wonderful man,still is,and you unfortunately took the same route he did to the other side...and,not to be abrupt,but if you haven't realized who I a-"
Yet before he could even make out his sentence,the man felt something soft hit his chest.
His eyebrows furrowed at the feeling and looked down to see a head full of gold,along with trembling fists curling at the front of his trench coat.
'When did she...?'
Then lethargically, Lucy began to hit him with weak blows,hiccuping as dry air wiped away the moisture from her mouth and throat sorely,making her feel as if she was swallowing sand-covered shards of glass,
"I...I thought that w-was a dream...a nightmare... I-I couldn't... that couldn't have ha-happened to me...it was surreal,that night... it couldn't have been real...no..n-no.." she mumbled out hoarsely,feeling every inch of hope ooze from the pores of her skin.
Looking up at him with desperation, Lucy's lips trembled as she began to pathetically plead,
"Pu...put me back...p...ut ba-ck..." she begged,her shoulders shaking as she held back the waterfall of tears threatening to fall,"give me back..m-my reality...this didn't happen! Get me out of here!"
"Put me b-ack...m-my soul...put me back in m-y body..." the woman continued,heaving before she clenched her teeth and squeezed her eyes tightly,causing a stream to burst from her sockets,"I ...I don't like this... I don't like this at all! I feel inferior! Meaningless!" she whimpered,shaking her head,"W-Why...why can I touch you a-and...feel you...when I can't do so with my own family?!"
"Y-You're,..you've passed over,Lucy." he lightly broke down for her, not wanting to throw it at her face full force,"you're time on Earthland.. it's up."
She leaned further into his body and shook her head,biting down on her lower lip,"N-No...I can't.. die now... I can't be dead! I can't leave them! I can't leave my mom! She n-needs me! She needs to know how much I love her! How grateful I am of her,and everything that she does for me! She just got out of the darkest hours of h-her life-please! She's alone! I can't leave her,she'll feel betrayed by me! I promised that I...that I'd never le-ave he-er-er!"
The man shook his head and rested his hand upon her head,rubbing it in comfort before giving her a full hug.
"This is reality, Lucy," he told her,sensing the tension course through her body and her forehead pulsating in pain from holding back the tears pressuring to come out," And do not worry, you won't be leaving her any time soon...you have not broken that promise at all. Nor any promises."
The woman hiccuped and shook her head,clinging onto him before crying out in disagreement,
"No I can't! I can't keep it if I'm dead-what in the world are you-!" she began, but stopped as she felt something warm press against her forehead,making her jump and freeze in place.
He was gazing down at her in the most calm way she had ever seen someone do so...
He appeared ...serene, content and as if he had...had everything under control.
'Like mother...' Lucy reminisced before casting her gaze down to the ground.
"Your mother is a strong woman,and the Angels are always looking after her. Her loved ones are looking after her,standing with her,right besides her." he reassured before tucking a strand of blonde behind her ear,"Your father possesses an undying love for her,and will never leave her,not now, and not ever."
Lucy stared at him as he wiped her tears away,and shook her head,hiccuping a bit more before she asked,
"Who ... uhn-who...are you?"
He chuckled and stepped back,then slowly started to stretch out his arm,soon being consumed within a bright,golden light that swirled its way from the soles of his feet to the dark mop on his head.
She stared in awe and squinted her eyes,not wanting to be blinded by the rays and gasped as she sensed it die down,and blinked several times before opening her eyes completely to look over at him.
Her eyes widened at the glorious sight.
His casual outfit was gone,and was replaced with white silk and golden armor. More of his skin was exposed,and decorated with what appeared as white runes,glowing luminously while engraved into his smooth,pale flesh.
Before Lucy could say anything,she was completely muted speechless as she noticed two,large-feathered wings white as winter snow spread gracefully behind him. They shimmered with golden dust,along with his body as it swirled around his whole being like mist.
He was so... blindingly beautiful.
"No way..." she breathed out before collapsing down onto her knees,feeling more tears drizzle down her cheeks.
He was beautiful,and emitted such a comforting,holy atmosphere around her... it fully washed away all her pain and negative emotions that infested her from within,all the thoughts fueled by anger and sadness from her mind clean,and healed it all with the complete opposites.
She couldn't describe the sensation.
It was something one had to experience... for no words could possibly fit the description...
Yet altogether... it was vaguely familiar to her.
Like her mother's hugs that could not ever be forgotten,or her father's pats on the backs that could never be forged.
'As if... he has always been with me...'
Why didn't she feel this before?
And as if he read her mind, he gave her a small,pleasant smile and took a few steps, got down on one knee,and grabbed her hands,giving them a tight squeeze,
"Hi,Lucy," he breathed out as he crinkled his eyes and nose with joy," You may not know me,but I'm sure you recognize my energy now... I did not want to risk on scaring you with it since it's always been subtle and normal to you...so I closed it off for awhile."
"Y-Yeah... " Lucy spoke then faltered further into the ground,narrowing her eyes as she opened her mouth,"...but...who are you? And why...why do you..."
"Feel so familiar?" he finished with a small laugh.
She nodded once more,sniffling as he chuckled lowly in response.
He gazed at her with a loving look twinkling in his eyes then sighed out before starting,"Well.. it's because I am...to your soul at the least," he added before raising his hand and resting it upon her shaking shoulder,"To put it simply, I am your ... well, that little voice you hear every now and then when odds are with or against your favor..."
'Little voice?' Lucy repeated to herself until the man spoke once more,introducing himself ever-so politely,
"My name is Gray Fullbuster,and I am your guardian angel, here to take you up to heaven," he breathed out as a small,sad smile graced upon his lips,"God believes that it's time for you to come upstairs now,and into his arms as he has accepted you as one of his beloved Angels."
The mage continued to softly gaze into his warm eyes before she lowered her head,feeling absolute guilt wash over her for yelling at him early,accusing him out fear and anger and tightened her grip on his hands.
She bit her lip as hot embarrassment prickled her neck and face.
'Yelling at someone... who has always been there for me since day one, without even paying mind to them...'
More tears began drizzling down her cheeks,understanding why he was so calm and composed during such a delicate moment in her life...
How could she be so naive? And oblivious?
She heaved and choked out an apology,squeezing her eyes tightly as if to keep in all of her tears behind her throbbing hues,
"I'm...I-I'm sorry...f-for-"
"Do not be hard on yourself, you deserve no criticism from yourself nor anyone else. You were only being human,Lucy." Gray spoke gently as she felt his calm touch on her shoulder,"I cannot be upset with you for being something you are,and what I was once upon a time.."
The golden-haired maiden felt her throat tighten and perked her head up at him,wheezing as strangled sobs escaped from her chest,and completely submitted herself into his embrace,wailing as she became surrounded and filled with a mixture of bliss,sorrow,pain, relief and hope.
She couldn't even form a sentence in her mind that would make sense at all to decipher her state right now.
He soothingly began shushing her in a singly tone as he rubbed her back,closing his eyes as he rested his chin on top of her head,listening to her sorrows and comforted her until she was ready to go.
"Shhhh... it's all ok. It's all going to be ok now, cry as much as you need to... just enough so you won't shed any more by yourself..."
'Like you have always done before,when you did feel alone...' Gray thought to himself,frowning as she continued doing so.
"I have and will forever always be here for you, Lucy," the guardian angel whispered soothingly into her ear as he combed his pianist-like fingers through her locks of gold.
The celestial being placed another chaste kiss upon her forehead and smiled softly as she soon relaxed within his arms,then rubbed her nerves away with soothing strokes upon her back,
"I will always be here for you... no matter what."
A/N: Being real with you guys, I was not intending for it to become all angst-y haha! I hope you guys enjoyed my entry to an extent ^^; I am not that confident with these prompts for this year,but I somehow pulled through ^^; for the sake of my babies =w=
Thanks for reading!