A Life Without You
A/N:
It has been 4 months since Elena and the rest of the gang has lost Damon and Bonnie. Elena does not compell away her memories and there is no Kai in this fic due some changes in the Gemini Prison World Spell.
Dear Diary,
Bonnie and Damon have been gone for 4 months and I am falling apart without the both of them here. Luke has been giving me some herbs which enable me to see Damon but they have increased my bloodlust and I am lurking around the borders trying to find people to feed on. Caroline found me today and I broke down in front of her and told her that without Damon I feel like I am going to die and that is impossible as I am vampire and am already dead. Later I talked with Ric and told him that if someone promises you that they will love you forever being a does not suck then. I had that with Damon and he died and my dream shattered. I promise myself today that I will not the herbs any more nd get my life on track as that is what Damon would want me to do. Well it is easier said then done but I will try my best. I could mot imagine a life without Damon being in it but that how I will have to live from now on. Come to think of it I did not even want to look at Damon when he first came to town or when I first thought that I met him as a human and now my life is falling apart without him being my support system or Bonnie being here telling me what to do.
Next day's entry
Dear Diary,
I made it through the day without the herbs. It hurt at first but Jeremy, Matt, Caroline, Enzo and Stefan were there for me. Ric also hepled me a lot throgh the day and well my hospital shift lessons with Laughlin are going well but there is this boy in my class Liam that I can't bear. He is beyond irritating and well he likes me and has started flirting with me which is very bad. I hate him like anything and no one can compare to Damon ever. We had a pool party and when I told Stefan to come he just ignored me but when Care told him to come he actually listened to her and came. He really likes Care now. Later at night I went to talk to Stefan and we both admitted that we were missing both Damon and Bonnie equally at that moment.