My Wish

by sctwilightvampwolfgal

She regretted leaving now though she still held on to a remnant of a wish for him and for her too. *Drabble.*

Why won't Ryuugi ever leave my mind?

Damn, I shouldn't have left.

I still love him despite how utterly wrong for him, I am.

I know that Minorin is better for him and that he spent all of that time making all of those things for her.

I love him more though than I ever loved Kitamura, and I barely know when that began.

I've spent much too much time agonizing over over how much I love Ryuugi.

I have to move on at least for his sake.

He deserves someone like Minorin; she's kind and smart and fun loving.

She's just not me either.

She never attacked him with a wooden sword and is not a child in appearance with absentee parents.

It's not that I'm whining or sniveling.

I don't hate myself either.

I just know that certain people go better with other people and who is attracted to who.

I wish though that in some way, I'd be perfect for Ryuugi and that Minorin would like someone else and spare us, both, heartbreak.

It isn't an entirely impossible wish, I think.

I love him so much perhaps too much.

I guess that that would be expected coming from me, who when gifted something she doesn't have, strives to hold on to it despite her own ability to live on, independently.