/Hi Guys- so here is a new Fanfic... I did have a plan for this but I don't actually know where to go with it so I've literally just wrote this and I'll go with the flow... Most of this chapter is a flashback for Zo so yeah :P This Fanfic will have future episodes throughout so please dont' read if you dont want to know! Enjoy – I own nothing:) X
She watched as the man she once shared her life with had just walked through the wooden door of the local pub, they shared that small loving smirk that they had always shared before she broke it off by speaking "This is unusual" she said as she watched him walk towards her.
He also returned that smile, he knew how this was going to turn out- that perfect smile would be the last time he sees it, it would also in a few minutes be wiped off her face to replaced with her tears...maybe "never be predicable, I was taught that" he smiled.
"Let me buy you a drink" She smiled towards him still in complete shock that he had actually walked through the door of the local pub as she faced the bar but was soon stopped.
"No, no I'm not stopping" He shook his head. He was about to break her heart in to a million little pieces and he hated himself for it. "I just came to give you these" he said holding out the bunch of keys and dangled them in front of her.
She looked up at him with a very confused expression but took the keys slowly from his hand, ignore the fact that her colleague Sam had approached and ruined their moment and as they spoke, Zoe just watched wondering where this was going, attempting to put two and two together yet refusing to believe this was really happening. "Are these the keys to the office?" she finally asked playing with the keys in her hand.
Sam had walked off by this point, she knew that there was some kind of tension between the two and didn't want to get involved "yeah" he replied simply with some kind of sadness in his voice "I just wanted to say thank you.. Thank you very much for all your support... over these..." he finally managed to get his words out watching as Zoe looked at him with her pretty brown eyes.
"Oh don't worry about" she smiled and shook her head.
"Last few months" he continued.
"It's fine; it's what we do... Isn't it Charlie?" Zoe asked looking at Charlie who had sneaked up to see what was going on.
"What's that?" Charlie asked.
"Look after one another" she smiled and faced Nick once again "were just glad to have you back" she nodded.
"Well I'm not staying... so I'll see you...Whatever" Nick quickly said as he looked toward Zoe who had a blank expression on her face, deciding that now was the best time to make a quick dart and he did so but the sadness/confusion in her pained voice stopped him.
"What you talking about?" Zoe asked.
"Don't make me do this...not here" he shook his head.
"Do what?" Zoe had a gut feeling where this was going, she was deeply praying this was a dream or he was just having an early night but Nick Jordan didn't do goodbyes. She remembers that well when he decided he was resigning before his illness.
"The whole goodbye thing...I can't" he shook his head.
Zoe face had dropped in which a lump had now formed in her throat "Goodbye?" she said her facial expressions showing her pain already.
Nick just stared at her, tears had already begun to form but she just blinked them away like she always did. At that moment in time it was only them that existed. No-one else really mattered. "Well you don't need me anymore, do you?" he asked "you're doing perfectly well without me" he nodded now deciding to look around at his other colleagues. "time for me to move on" he raised his voice.
"Move on? Where to?" Zoe asked, her voice getting quieter and quitter.
He couldn't look Zoe in the eye so decided to look down to the side "Michigan..." he nodded, finally looking up at her "Maybe" he added "there's someone out there of whom I used to work..."
Charlie butted in "You mean Anton Meyer?" he asked.
"Could just work" he nodded looking away as he caught a glimpse of Zoe's face... he was right, it had pain, confusion, heartache and other emotions written all over it. He couldn't look at her in particular "All I know is I can't stay here... Well not in Holby anyway" he nodded finally getting the courage to look at Zoe then looked away once again "to many memories" he nodded. Now he had to look at Zoe, no how much it killed him "So you look after it" he nodded, slowly backing away,taking one last look at the whole of the team "all of you! Look after it, keep doing what you are doing, keep doing what you do...make this department the very best it can be, okay?" He finally reached the door, it was over- He'd done it. He reached for the door handle but there was person he loved so much, he had to take one last glance at her- the women that saved his life, the first person he had ever properly loved in such a long time actually longer than he could remember, the one that left him speechless. He looked up at her, he'd caused her tears and heartache in the matter of 2 minutes and now he was leaving. He took in his last moments of her and nodded before heading out the door, allowing the door to slam shut.
Zoe had remembered that night ever since that day he had left her. It was always playing on her mind whenever his name got mentioned, whenever someone had mentioned something that reminded her of him. She missed him. It was also Zoe and Nick, they were a team always working on something with one another, when were they ever apart? She wished she could have him back working with her, Connie was slowly taking her piece by piece and she was giving up. She needed Nick.
Charlie looked towards Zoe who was close to bursting in to tears. She swatted his arm away and ran out after Nick "Nick... Nick" she called, slightly jogging in her heels towards Nick who was walking towards his car. He just tutted and carried on walking. When she finally reached him she just threw her arms around him, pulling him close taking in his scent of aftershave. She cherished the moment as they shared the hug as he attempted to comfort her which didn't make anything better.
"Hey come on" he whispered not letting her go.
Zoe felt them swaying, rocking side to side as they held each other in their embrace "Thank you" she whispered back.
"For what?" he asked softly. Himself also taking in her fruity gentle scent of that perfume she had always worn, the soft silky hair brushing against his cheek.
Zoe didn't want to let go, she could stay like this forever "For this" she simply said as she knew Nick would know exactly what she meant. He always did. As she felt his hand go further up her back, her lump in her throat grew bigger as the flutters in her stomach washed over her.
Nick said nothing. He just stared in to space for a few moments taking in what she had said before finally pulling away and looking at her beautiful face. He tucked a piece of her hair out of her face, taking a breath but nothing came out. He had frozen. He was leaving her for good yet he couldn't actually believe it. With nothing to say he just placed a hand on her shoulder, placing a small soft kiss on her lips to which she returned. Before this got worse he pulled away, taking one last look at the tall building in which he had spent years of his career in and quickly climbing in to his car, winding down his window "You'll be great without me" he smiled as he started the engine and drove off, waving one last goodbye to her.
Zoe just nodded, he was actually leaving and her heart was breaking in to a million tiny little pieces, she had nothing to do but return his wave watching his car drive out of Holby.
Zoe's POV;
That slam of the pub door was the part that got me the most. I knew once that door was closed he was going. There was no stopping Nick Jordan. He was actually leaving Holby; all the memories, the friends, his work- it would all be history, forgotten about maybe. Why did he leave me?! I thought we had something special! I understand he was hurting from Yvonne... I get that, of course I do. I loved him so much, he's the only one I ever considered spending my life with, I risked everything for him. I gave him my heart. I'm Zoe Hanna, I don't open or give my heart to anyone but he did. He had my heart.
Nick Jordan, how do I even begin to describe this man? There were two sides to him and I saw every side, angle and whatever else. No-one would believe you but he did have a soft side- still makes me smile how soft he was. Like when I injected the needle in to the patient who died and he took the consequences for me, the time when he helped me get the memory stick off Joel who blackmailed me. He had done so much for, if it wasn't for him- I don't think I'd be where I am today. Then there was his side that you could just scream at as he could be the most annoying, arrogant man someone could ever meet. It's been a year since I've last seen him, in that time I've spoken to him once. I haven't "Kept in touch" because it's too painful yet he might be living in Michigan all happy, good job and hey maybe even a new girlfriend/ wife, maybe a child? Something I couldn't give him. I'm Zoe, someone who was going to marry him and going to give him a child but now if he does have a new life, I'm just someone now. There's a verse in a song that describes Me and Nick. Heard of Adele?
"I've heard that you're settled down,
That you've found a girl and your married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
I guess she gave you things I didn't give to you"
"Life goes on" were the words he said to me that night but Life doesn't go on, if you can't move on. Especially from the one you love, your true love.
/So there's the first chapter of an unknown fanfic :P I will think of something- Please rate/review and let me know what you think XX