There will never be light without darkness. It is the world in which we live in. Darkness forever spreads the more clouded your heart goes, but what is important is for everyone to find their light. Even if it is small and hardly visible. Light reaches everyone and everything. But even though the darkness was defeated, I can still feel its presence inside my heart. Reaching. Calling me to open the window and let my black wings fly."Riku…" But where will my light be when I become engulfed. "Hello?" Someone save me from the dark." Riku!"
I awoke to find my head in my arms on the table of the kitchen. My vision was blurry, however I could just make out the faint outline of a boy with brown spiked hair. His eyes stared at me, with the serine colour drawing my attention in. I rubbed my eyes gently. I looked to the left of me and saw a blonde reading a book for English smiling at it with content. I faced the brown haired boy and started "What?"
"You fell asleep. You're supposed to be helping me pass Maths. Or am I that boring?" the boy sulked.
"If you weren't so tiring maybe I would stand a chance." I sighed.
"But I have to pass. If I don't pass Kairi wont come with me to the festival." He moaned.
"Well, think of it this way; you waited two years for her to ask you out. Your one step closer to being with her." The blonde smirked.
"Hey that isn't fair!" The brown haired boy looked at me in desperation to help him.
"You still like Kairi that much?" I sighed.
"Well yeah. It's Kairi." He shrugged.
Sora has a terrible habbit of becoming completely infactuated with one person at a time. That can be proven from everyones journey over the past two years. Sora had an obbsession with finding Kairi, then when I dissapeared to help the king, he insisted on finding me then.
"If she really liked you she wouldn't be forcing you to learn something that your clearly too stupid to ever learn." The blonde interjected.
"Maybe someone told her to say it so you don't bring down the class average again." I mocked.
"Hey! Wait just a minute-"
"Sora! Kairi is on the phone!" A female voice echoed through the house.
"Coming! Give me a sec kay?" he said, smiling happily at the thought of Kairi calling him.
I watched as Sora skipped through the living room and sat on the sofa. He was clutching the phone to his chest preparing him self to talk to her. I couldn't help but laugh to myself at his nervousness. I liked going to Sora and Roxas' house. There is never a dull moment. Plus it is good to no longer feel the loneliness, even just for a little while I told myself silently. "Hey Kairi sorry I took so long I was just doing my homework…. Yeah I know it's hard to believe, but Riku is helping me…. He's a great friend huh?"
"Unbelievable. He thinks that just because Kairi called him that she likes him that much. He really is naïve." The blonde began "Listen Riku I need to go, I have a date with someone. Not like I want to leave or anything but anything to get away from that idiot would be nice." The blonde explained. "If your staying I will probably see you when I get back."
"Hmm. We'll have to see wont we. See ya later then Roxas." I force a smile at him and watch as he headed to the living room.
As he passed he hit Sora on the head with the pillow and tried to steal the phone. "Hey c'mon Roxas play fair. You're a right bastard sometimes ya' know that."
"Yea I know that. That's why it's fun having you as a brother. I need a little bit of fun." He laughed and moved out of my vision.
"sorry about that Kairi, Roxas was being a dick."
Whilst I watched Sora I felt a pain in my chest. It flowed through out my body and slowly I began to feel sicker and sicker. I saw the shadows in the kitchen move around the longer I watched, until eventually a small creature appeared before me. The room had turned cold and empty. Other then that creature and me, loneliness had seeped through the cracks and crevices in the kitchen, and began to create a drowning feeling within my body.
It was black with grey eyes that gleamed solemnly. It tilted its head upwards and smiled showing sharp teeth. Its body was fat, and it had a curled antennae. It held it's wait on all fours and began to move towards me. I watched it steadily as it jumped onto the table and stood close to my face. It's crooked smile spread across its round face. It let out an icy cold breath, which wrapped it's icy grip onto the nerves within my face. "Go away. I have nothing more to do with you, and I don't want to be in the darkness anymore."
As I finished the sentence and picked up the maths text book and dropped it onto it's head squashing the small creature, as if it was no bigger then a fly. "Your all boring." I sighed.
I look over to check that Sora didn't see anything and found that he had disappeared probably to talk to Kairi in his room.
I rose from my seat to get a drink and lost my balance. I felt dizziness sweep over me like a great tsunami, sucking anything with life, and purity. I began to heave as I struggled to control the sickness. I felt the pain grow worse and worse. I forced my legs to move outside hoping that the fresh air would do me good.
As I opened the back door a beautiful bright light set onto my face, and made the pain evaporate from around me. The cool ocean breeze wrapped my body, moving the shadows away from my sight. I sat on the step and watched the breeze move the palm tree in Sora's backyard.
There was a peaceful nature around me. The sound of the ocean and seagulls echoed in my mind, and I felt the warmth of the sun melt the ice surrounding my heart. The flowers were placed on the far side of the garden. They were so many different colours, that it made the warmth spread further. The memories of my pretend adventures with Sora and Kairi on destiney island, began to wade their way back into my mind. I felt my self smile slightly, as i remembered all the times I would beat Sora at our mini matches, and Sora's desperation to actually beat me. God he looked pathetic sometimes I mused
I shielded my eyes with the back of my hand and let the light slip through. I moved slowly towards the palm tree and sat underneath it. I felt the bark through the blouse of my school shirt and peacefulness crept into my mind. I felt my eyes slowly close and my mind drift away, and the darkness began to slip back….
{NPOV}
Cloud.
Leon drove recklessly down the narrow street roads. We were heading towards Sora's house after he called us about Riku. His message was disjointed, and made very little sense considering the screams of both panic and concern. Riku didn't live with his parents. Instead he lived in the apartment with both of us. It was so that we could keep an eye on him, and also make sure that he carries on doing as well as what he was doing. Riku had to be held back a year in order to catch up with the work he missed, and luckily it involved work that both Leon and I had the greatest knowledge on.
"Leon if you don't slow down your gonna kill someone!" I moaned, tugging on the seat belt, to make sure that I wouldn't get whiplash from Leon's driving.
"We don't have time. We need to get Riku home before he gets worse. Besides do you want Sora to keep panicking?" he reasoned.
"It is funny though." I murmur, smiling to myself at the thought of Sora running in circles, panicking thinking that Riku would die or something ridiculous like that. "Take the next right it's quicker."
"I know the way." Leon scowled.
When we finally reached the house, Sora's mum stood at the door chewing her nails worryingly. She had short brown hair and the twin's blue eyes, which seemed to overpower any other feature of her face. She was small like Sora, but had a more gentle and less reckless nature about her like Roxas. I stared at her as she guided us through to the back door, and found Sora standing over Riku.
Riku looked pale. He was continually flinching in a constant pattern. Leon walked over and touched his head with the back of his arm. "Damn it. He has a fever now." He muttered.
He picked Riku up carefully. "Will he be okay?" Sora's mum questioned. "You can keep him here if you need to."
"It's okay. He will get a lot worse then this. He shouldn't have fallen asleep outside really." I smiled, trying to comfort her.
"Thank you for having him." Leon smiled as he stepped up into the kitchen carefully carrying Riku.
"What happened Sora?" I began.
"I left him for about half an hour and then I found him outside like that." He defended.
"Then he is going to be a lot worse. Sorry Sora but I don't think he will be in school for a while." I explained, and i heard the car horn beep impatiently. The noise echoed through the air, making everyone wince. "Anyway I had better get going."
"Here is his things, if he has left anything i will send Sora and Roxas down to give it to you." Sora's mum smiled, making me feel guilty for the trouble Riku was causing.
"Thank you again m'am" I turned quickly and ran to the car. Leon was placing Riku into the back and got in with him. "Your driving. Your more careful."
"Is that another way of calling me a pansy then." I started, annoyed.
"No. You're just the better driver, and you wont 'kill anyone'. Now please drive."
The drive back was long. Riku wouldn't stop coughing and gagging. What was worse was that he wouldn't wake up. Leon tried to keep him comfortable but was beginning to struggle as his flinching became more constant, and his fever was getting worse.
When we eventually managed to walk through the door, Riku was calmer. Leon placed him carefully onto his bed and left me standing in the doorway as he walked passed. I slowly walked into Riku's room and placed his bag gently down, and turned the light which was placed on the edge of the desk on. When I looked to the left I saw Riku's flinching had become less violent, and began to gain the colour back on his face.
I crept back out of his room, and found Leon slumped on the sofa, with his arm over his head. I let out a long sigh as I entered the open planned kitchen. I kept watching Riku's door. Part of me was half expecting him to rush through to the door and start apologising. I could feel myself smiling at the lecture that Leon would give after preparing it for ages, just to make sure Riku got the picture, I wouldn't bother coming out Riku, it will only be the same lecture I smirked.
"Thinking of something happy?" Leon asked.
I turned suddenly and saw him sat at the breakfast bar, with his head on his hands.
"How did you—never mind."
" I knew we shouldn't have let him go. Especially seeing as Kairi wont talk to him anymore." Leon rubbed his face sleepily. "Darkness has slowly crept back in, without anyone noticing."
"There is always light. Even if you were a nobody at some point." i grumbled, i hated listening to Leon talk about things like this.
Leon glared at me and pulled a face. "We have a choice as to whether or not we embrace the darkness, or clutch onto the one shred of light you have left. You feel the emptiness even more doing that." I tried to explain.
I knew better then anyone that the light can be easily removed by the darkness. But it was a life choice. If I didn't have Sora and Aireth help me I probably wouldn't have come back how I am.
As I looked up I saw Lean was staring at me hard. "Your different though. Your darkness was out of spite and revenge. His is defensive. I know you had your reasons to, but it just seems like Riku doesn't have that choice."
"He does. You can tell. We found him outside, not indoors. He probably tried to escape the darkness, but with the pain as bad as it is, it's easier to accept." I felt anger begining to boil inside of me . Like you would ever understand what it's like.
The silence became uncomfortable. Both of us were just waiting for the other to speak. It got to the point where I decided the conversation was over, and began to move to get my jacket off the counter. I was about to move out of the kitchen when Leon suddenly broke the silence, and practically made me jump.
"How does it feel?" Leon looked up concerned.
I didn't understand the question. It must have showed on my face because Leon spoke again. "I meant the darkness. Was it lonely, literally dark?"
"Lonely yes, dark no." Leon looked up and stared expecting more. "Once darkness is there, it's hard to get rid of. You are constantly battling with yourself. Sometimes you feel like shit, other times you feel good. The darkness no longer becomes an environment it becomes a presence, you're no longer alone. Then it offers you salvation. You take it. Then it comes back and bites you on the arse."
"C'mon when did the darkness ever bite your arse? You were practically safe no matter what!" Leon smirked.
"When I lost everything I had. Even after that I still found it hard to destroy what was left of Zack's legacy, and what was left of the darkness in my heart. We can't all be like you."
"What's that supposed to mean?" Leon yelled.
"Nothing. I am going for a ride."
"Hey wait cloud —." Leon started, rising from his seat.
I walked towards the door and swung my jacket over my shoulder. I felt so annoyed. Not just by what Leon said but by the fact he didn't understand. No one really understood.
As I reached the door I picked up the keys to my motorbike, and slammed the door, leaving Leon gawking at the closing door.