When my mother was pregnant, Many people would ask me:
"Are you gonna get jelous of your bother?"
"No I won't!"
"Will you keep your job as an elder sister?"
"Of course, I will!"
Honestly…. When I heard my mom was pregnant, I was scared. I was scared that my mom and dad will replace me and abandon him. I went to a site and asked a question
"What does it feel to have a brother?"
I waited, when I checked. The people, who answered, told their story. Their own experience, From that time and on. I feel encouraged and ready to have a brother.
As my mother neared her due date, I planned on what I will do on the future with my brother. Even if I had the right to spank him, I knew I wouldn't. Because, I had no courage to hit any child. If kid cries, Man! I feel pressured; I don't know what to do! So it'll leave me no choice but to accomplish what he/she wishes.
It always troubles me when I think; "Will he love me back?"
That was what I thought in the past. But, now it's different. When my mom delivered my brother and when he was 5 months, I would ran away if he drools. But, when he was 8-9 months (present age) I don't mind anymore! Sometimes when my mom asks me too look my brother for her. When he sees me. He would smile or laugh (he's laugh is so cute!)
One time, when I will sit on the bed, He will crawl to me, then he will grab my shirt then he will pull himself up just to see my face or sometimes he would touch my face. He will laugh if I would smile. Also, one time when he cried, when he saw me walk in the room. He would smiled and stop crying.
Now, he will crawl to me, grab my shirt and look directly on my eyes, pleading for me to carry him. And if I did, He would laugh.
Whenever I see him smile or laugh because of me, my stress and fatigue would go away.
There was also one time when he was staring at me, looking for my I.D. When I walk in, he would smile but if I walk out. I would hear him cry. With this, stopped and peeped from the door, when he saw me; He stopped and smiled at me.
His smile & laughs were like refreshing water! Whenever, I would come home from school tired and stressed up. When I see him smile or hear him laugh. I forget that I am tired and stressed out!
Now… I think I'm getting to know my responsibility. I vow that I would do anything to be a good sister to him. I would make him happy no matter what's the cost.
(Oh! Lastly… did you know he was born on June (or maybe July) 27, 2010. While I was born in April, 27? We were born on the same date… (not exactly… only the day… 27.)