Disclaimer: I do not own Cardcaptor Sakura.
The Devil
"They do not love that do not show their love. The course of true love never did run smooth. Love is a familiar. Love is a devil. There is no evil angel but Love."
I held her captive.
She struggled against my hold. She struggled against my magic.
She struggled against her temptation to simply embrace me and cry on my shoulder.
I struggled to not slam her against the wall in hatred.
I struggled not to grab her deck of cards that didn't belong to her.
I struggled to not struggle.
Why, I ask her.
Why did you do it?
She looks back at me with those eyes filled with dignity, and she mouths to me, because I love you.
In anger I lash out. In fear I close my eyes. In anguish I let out a cry of despair.
For guilt I wanted to kill. For pride I wanted to bury myself in a hole and never climb out.
For love, I want to die. I want her. I longed for her touch on my skin.
But what I want can never be mine.
I looked at her, and saw fear in her eyes.
I saw love. I saw terror. I saw desperation.
She wanted out.
She wanted to leave.
I wouldn't let her.
That's not a reason, I told her.
My eyes saw red.
Isn't love the reason for everything? She replied, looking at me sadly, her mouth set in a forced upward curve.
She reached to touch my shoulder, as if to comfort me. On instinct I pushed her away.
Her eyes bored into mine, and with a heartbreaking smile, she turned away.
Love for money makes the wealthy superior to the poor, she murmured.
Love for killing makes murderers take life.
Love for our lives makes us save ourselves before we save others.
Love for another, makes us so deeply jealous of others that love that person.
Love makes us dirty. Love makes us bleed. Love makes us change. Love hurts us.
I punched her in her face.
Don't you see? I wanted to scream at her. Don't you see what you've done?
Love makes us see the world with different eyes, I whispered.
Love makes us see in colour, not just in black and white.
Love is knowing that someone out there in the world will give up their life for you.
Love is knowing you have a place in the world.
True Love, does not make us do anything, I tell her.
True Love, is pure.
But she refuses to listen.
She turns away.
I wanted to hug her. I wanted to, in all honesty. But I simply couldn't. Not after…
What had happened to the girl I knew? Her fiery persona; her unwavering determination.
When…no…why is she so blind?
It's because of her that everything is wrong. It's because of her my life is ruined.
It's because of her that's she's not there anymore.
She looked back at me with those ruby red eyes, smiling smugly; she stole you away from me. She stole the only thing I had. It was only right that Kinomoto –
She never finished that sentence.
I felt her blood running down my hands…running down my body…running through my soul…
Meiling…I cried, I'm…
I caught myself apologising in time. My mouth closed, I felt her painful cries as if it was me that was hurting.
Slowly, I reached into her pocket and took out the deck of cards that didn't belong to her. The deck of cards that belonged to Sakura. I held them close to me as I watched Meiling squirm under my feet.
You took Sakura away from me.
Now, I take you away from nothing. You have won in that sense and I have lost.
To love.
But what love was this?
…
End.
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Eh? LOL I've felt like writing a dark fic for sometime.
Let me get the plotline for this:
Well, briefly, I've semi-twisted the whole storyline of CCS. Meiling equals emotionally unstable. Seeing Syaoran with Sakura equals to jealousy. Jealousy equals to darkness.
I guess this explains her interpretation of love, no?
Anyway, were you somewhat surprised it was Meiling and notSakura?