Ami Mercury
"Epiphany" 1x2 Song fic
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam wing or "Epiphany"
*Your words to me just a whisper*
As I lie in bed next to you, you speak to me but I barely understand your words as I think of us.
*Your face's so unclear*
In my mind your happy face blurs and I realize that maybe you never really were happy Duo.
*I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear*
You keep speaking to me about something but it seems so unimportant to the thought that has just struck me. What if you're not happy my koi? Is it my fault that your smile has never been sincere?
*Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the thing's I should have said*
But maybe that's just my perspective, lately you've seemed truly happy with me. Should I tell you that I love you even though I'm not sure if my heart really feels that way? I've never loved anyone or been loved by anyone so how do I know this feeling deep in the pit of my stomach is really love and not just lust?
*So I speak to you in riddles because
My words get in my way.*
I've tried to tell you that I love you Duo, but my words get confused and my mind fails to work.
*I smoke the
whole thing to my head and feel it
wash away 'cause I don't take anymore
of this*
I don't know why I couldn't tell him yet again that I love him, I'm sure it's love but I just can't. I wasn't brought up to love anyone but I feel Duo understands that so he doesn't push me to tell him the feelings he knows are there.
*I want to come apart
or dig myself a little hole inside
your precious heart*
You're so beautiful Duo, lying there asleep with your long chestnut hair hanging all over our bed. If I could just implant my feelings towards you into your heart forever life would be so much easier for me.
*'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said*
*I am nothing more than a little boy inside
That cries out for attention*
Everyone claims I'm the "Perfect Solider" a man who harbors no feelings what so ever, none of hate, love, joy, sadness, nothing. I'm a human boy who was forced to become a man years before he had time for feelings. But I want more in life, I want to feel those feelings, especially love. I want the full attention of that man I love so deeply who understands everything about me, who was also forced to grow up way before his time.
*though I always try to hide*
Around everyone I still hold up my "Perfect Soldier" façade but around Duo it totally melts away and I'm not that man, I'm Heero Yuy, a seventeen year old boy who yearns for his love and his touch.
*'Cause I talk to you like children,
Though I don't know how I feel*
I still don't know if you're my true love Duo Maxwell but I'm sure that I could find no better lover then you.
*But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed*
I'll keep your love close to me always, but if I come to find that you aren't the one and only for me I'll be gentle as I can even though I'll break your heart. Just thinking that hurts me so much Duo, I must be in love with you if even thinking of hurting you makes my heart ache.
*Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said*
Forgive me for not confessing my love to you yet my love, but it will come in time, for I know that I now have the rest of my life to spend with you. Duo Maxwell, you'll be my true love and the only person in my life for all eternity.
AN: Ack! I know this isn't the intended message but cut me some slack! I'm a fic writer after all! 1x2 are fun! I should do this more often!