Set six months after chapter three in 'New Moon'
BPOV
I could hear people calling my name. Who would have thought that my emptiness… my misery would bring me what everyone else would want… to be noticed. To be… I don't know what I am really… famous?
Only a mere three month ago I started writing music. Even though it killed me to compose- It reminded me of him. It was my release. Besides Jacob being the one that held me together; music was my release. My way to let out everything I ever felt for him.
"Bells? You ready?"
I turned around and saw Jacob poking his head around the thin curtain. I picked up my guitar and slung it around my back. Jake came up to me and wrapped me up in a tight hug. I laughed. "Can't breathe Jake" I managed to choke out.
He chuckled and set me down, took my small hand in his giant russet colored one and walked me towards the stage entrance.
"Nervous?" He asked noticing my hands were shaking of their own accord.
"Well… yeah. I've never sung in front of people. Let alone the people of Forks. You know I don't like attention." (A/n: I never sang in front of people before… I was in a talent show last year for school that was the first time I ever sang in front of my family… I made them all cry!)
"You'll do great! Trust me on that. I'll be right over here when you're done." I nodded and walked onto the little makeshift stage in the gym of Forks High School. I was really ht e only place that could hold this many people.
I walked up to the mic with my head down. I took a deep breath and looked out to the audience, then back around to my little backup band. I took one more deep breath to calm myself, sighed and turned back to the audience.
"Hey you guys! You all ready?"
There was a loud thunder of clapping and cheering.
"Alright!" I said with fake enthusiasm. The crowd couldn't tell… at least I hope they couldn't. "This is called Breathe."
I see your face in my mind as I drive away Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie And we know it's never simple, never easy And I can't breathe Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt And we know it's never simple, never easy And I can't breathe It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend And we know it's never simple, never easy I can't breathe I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Once the last notes were strung I looked over at Jake while everyone clapped. He was smiling with the craziest wolfish grin I have ever seen on him. I laughed and looked back out to the crowd. The gym doors flung open and I saw two people I thought I would never see again.
The dark hair and pale skin. But nothing could compare to the eyes. The pure butterscotch color.
Alice and Emmet.
I took a deep breath and looked back to the band.
"Ready?" I whispered.
Then I remembered what song I was going to sing now. Nobody knows… They just had to come in on this song. What timing.
I looked over to them and they took the last two seats left in the gym. Front row. Smack dab in the middle.
I looked back to the band nodded and they started playing.
Nobody knows Nobody likes Baby It's win or lose not how you play the game Baby Tomorrow I'll be there my friend Nobody knows
Nobody knows but me
That I sometimes cry
If I could pretend that I'm asleep
When my tears start to fall
I peek out from behind these walls
I think nobody knows
Nobody knows no
Nobody likes to lose their inner voice
The one I used to hear before my life
Made a choice
But I think nobody knows
No no
Nobody knows
No
Oh the secret's safe with me
There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be
And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone
Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown
And I've lost my way back home
I think nobody knows no
I said nobody knows
Nobody cares
And the road to darkness has a way
Of always knowing my name
But I think nobody knows
No no
Nobody knows no no no no
Oh the secret's safe with me
There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be
And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone
Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown
And I've lost my way back home
And oh no no no no
Nobody knows
No no no no no no
I'll wake up and start all over again
When everybody else is gone
No no no
Nobody knows the rhythem of my heart
The way I do when I'm lying in the dark
And the world is asleep
I think nobody knows
Nobody knows
Nobody knows but me
Me
When I looked up I say Alice sobbing into Emmet's shoulder. Emmet had her arms around her and looks like he was shaking with tearless crys too. It broke my heart.
"Okay… you guys want something more upbeat?" There was another roar of cheers.
So, you see I was sure you would keep Well, For every 99 times Its a shame For every 99 times These things are oh, all so typical For every 99 times For every 99 times
You've got me back again for more
And it seems
Your song is in my head
This is war
Mystery; how I could feel you breathe me
Every promise; you would keep
Every word
I try to put your stories in line
But nothing adds up right
You looked me in the eye,
You looked me in the eye
And swore you weren't lying
Well, I was so blind
I never saw the signs
I'm getting out tonight
And you're not invited
That you left me hanging like you did
It was brave
But it was much more foolish
Don't you think?
Cause you know I wont be satisfied
Until you realize
You looked me in the eye,
You looked me in the eye
And swore you weren't lying
Well, I was so blind
I never saw the signs
I'm getting out tonight
And you're not invited
These things are unforgivable
I'm gone and you're invisible now
Don't let me catch you followin'
Don't ask, cause I'm not offering
You've caused enough of my suffering, oh
You looked me in the eye,
You looked me in the eye
And swore you weren't lying
Well, I was so blind
I never saw the signs
I'm getting out tonight
You looked me in the eye,
You looked me in the eye
And swore you weren't lying
Well, I was so blind
I never saw the signs
I'm getting out tonight
And you're not invited
"Alright guys… last one for the night." I looked at Alice and plead with my eyes for her to understand.
Won't be so easy So try your best now baby Hurt me before now So try your best now baby So don't waste your time So try your best now baby So try your best now baby Break a broken heart
This time to hurt me
You can try
This time, know baby, there are no tears left here to dry
If you think you can wound me like before
If you think you can do that anymore
Won't get to far, nooo
You can't break a broken heart
Try your best to break me
You can't break a broken heart
No damage you can do now
I'm immune to you now
You can't break what broke apart
There's nothing you can do to me no more
You can't break a broken heart
Won't hurt no more now
Not this time
You might do better messing with someone else's mind
Cuz you're not gonna break me down again
Your done with doin' me the way you did
It's gone to far, eh
You can't break a broken heart
Try your best to break me
You can't break a broken heart
No damage you can do now
I'm immune to you now
You can't break what broke apart
There's nothing you can do to me no more
You can't break a broken heart
Your time has come and gone
What are you here for?
You can't hurt me any more
Try your best to break me
You can't break a broken heart
No damage you can do now
I'm immune to you now
You can't break what broke apart
There's nothing you can do to me no more
You can't break a broken heart
Try your best to break me
You can't break a broken heart
No damage you can do now
I'm immune to you now
You can't break what broke apart
There's nothing you can do to me no more
You can't break a broken heart
"Thanks for coming everyone… I hope you enjoyed the show." I said and walked off towards Jake. His back was ramrod straight.
"Jake?" I asked but he wasn't looking at me. He was looking at Alice and Emmet; who were quickly approaching me.
"Jake… go get some fresh air. They won't hurt me I promise."
He looked down at me furious but must have seen something that made him back off.
"Meet me at the truck."
I nodded and he walked off after giving Alice and Emmet one last glare.
"Bella?"
I turned around warily and was met by two sets of cold arms wrapping around me holding me tightly. One on each side of my arms. I wrapped my arms around their necks and pulled them to me, not wanting to let go… Not even wanting to think of letting go.