Monday
Blaine,
Look I know what I said the other night was horrible. I regret every syllable trust me. Please darling just come home. I need to see you and make you understand that no matter what had happened to spur our fight I should have never brought that up. God Damn It, I Love You. I know it didn't seem like that yesterday but I do. Please just come home.
Tuesday
Blaine,
I didn't sleep at all last night without you here. I am so used to your warm body curled around mine, your shins keeping my toes warm. I know I fucked up baby, just let me back into your heart please. I need to patch what I broke. I love you.
Wednesday
I guess you really do want to see me face to face. I can understand that. So I am going to get every last detail about why I did what I did on paper and I am going to email, mail, and call Wes' until you respond. I refuse to have you giving me the silent treatment anymore. I love you. We can fix us.
Thursday
I love you. That is why I screamed and through that fit. I know you don't believe me but it is so true it hurts like hell. I had walked into our favorite café to see you at a table with him. You know how much I have always hated him and honestly I can't believe you even agreed to meet him. I know you consider him an acquaintance, and everyone you have ever met in your life you have to be nice to because you are a gentleman. I love that about you; however, I still stand by the fact that you should have known how much it would hurt me. With all the history the three of us have had you chose to take him to our place, our getaway from the world haven and sit at our table. Do you not understand what that would do to me? Crap, sorry I should not have said that, but I promised myself that I wasn't going to erase anything I typed, and it came out. He was the one guy that has always come between us. Hell I almost lost you during your junior year to him and now he just prances back into our lives and you let him. I had to fight so hard for you back then, and at that point in time I was already in a ghastly mood and feeling insecure and I didn't feel like I go through another war. Not even for you. So I turned, I tried to protect my heart by making it seem like I was too good for you and that's when all the shit I drug up came out. I'm sorry I brought up the fact that you became a stripper to feed us when we first moved here against you and that thing with your Dad's friends. You trusted me with that information and I forsook you. Shit I am an asshole. No wonder you probably aren't even reading these emails. I promise I won't call around for you. In fact, if I don't hear from you I promise not to search. I still love you.
Goodbye, Sebastian
Its been a while since I uploaded anything, and honestly I didn't think I would be writing anything at all on this account again. I had a shitty day, this is what happens. I might continue might not. Let me know what you think.
~Love You For Reading~