Wanna Belong
I am a question to the world
Not an answer to be heard
All a moment that's held in your arms
And what do you think you'd ever say
I won't listen anyway…
You don't know me
And I'll never be what you want me to be
And what do you think you'd understand?
I'm a boy, no, I'm a man...
You can take me and throw me away
And how can you learn what's never shown?
Yeah, you stand here on your own
They don't know me 'cause I'm not here
"Now you're just being ridiculous; only good guys win medals, and you, sir, are no good guy!"
For as long as he could remember, he was the villain of the game.
It wasn't his fault the creators made him who he was today. The game was only a story, and nothing more. A play for the humans. Though every time everyone else saw him once the curtains closed, the Nicelanders gave him weird glances. They'd scatter. Run away.
Why couldn't they see he was exactly like them? Sure he was big, intimidating and his hands were bigger than his face, but he would never actually hurt anyone.
If Felix could only see how lucky he was. To have the approval, the respect, the glory. They were all caught up in Felix's world, even more than Felix, they neglected to notice Ralph.
From the warm glow of the penthouse where they had their parties, he couldn't help but feel tiny, despite being so huge for size.
And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on and feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change
They're the ones that stay the same
They don't know me
'Cause I'm not here
And you see the things they never see
All you wanted, I could be
Now you know me, and I'm not afraid
And I wanna tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man?
They can't break me
As long as I know who I am
And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on and feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change
They're the ones that stay the same
They can't see me
But I'm still here
He was not at home in his own game. Heck, he didn't even have a home, just a bunch of dissembled bricks.
The Nicelanders didn't even get the chance to know him, not even say hello. They judged him before they even got to talk to him. Why couldn't they just see he wasn't all brawn? He had some brain.
Just because he was a rough guy, didn't mean he couldn't also feel pain.
"Bad guys don't win medals," Gene began, irritated. "If you won a medal, we'll let you live up here in the penthouse. But it will never happen, because you're just the bad guy who wrecks the building."
Oh, come on! He had to be kidding. What was going through his head?
"No, I'm not."
"Yes, you are!"
That was it. That was the last straw. They get to be in the penthouse, all warm and cozy, and what did he have to go home to? A dingy junkyard full of bricks, lying night after night while they get to sleep in a bed?
His arms flanged around.
"No, I'm not!"
A pink explosion splattered through out the room, sugar data-bites decorating the walls. Ralph looked down. Oops. He really done it this time. He tried to make the Nicelanders like him, and he only gave them a reason to hate him more.
The cake was ruined.
Destroyed.
And the anniversary party was ruined because of him.
"Yes. You. Are."
They can't tell me who to be
'Cause I'm not what they see
And the world is still sleepin'
While I keep on dreamin' for me
And their words are just whispers
And lies that I'll never believe
And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on and feel I belong
And how can they say I never change
They're the ones that stay the same
I'm the one now
'Cause I'm still here
He wouldn't give up.
Ralph would keep looking. Ralph would keep searching for a place. A place where bad guys could win medals. Until that vow he made to the Nicelanders was fulfilled, he wouldn't return to the game without one.
He would find a place where someone wouldn't be afraid of him. Where someone would smile because of him. Along the way, he would find what he needed all along.
A friend.
A place where he belonged.
I'm the one
'Cause I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here...
Song: I'm Still Here - Johnny Rzeznik (from the movie Treasure Planet)