BPOV
PAST YEARS
September 19, 1993: Emmett and Bella's 3rd birthday. In Forks, Washington
I asked daddy were our mommy was. I knew that I was supposed to have a mommy. I knew that because Lauren- from mine, Rosie and Edward's pre-k class- asked were my mommy was. I told her "I don't have a mommy" She rolled her eyes at me and said, "Everyone has a mommy. I guess yours just didn't want you anymore." When I started to cry, Rosie heard me and attacked Lauren.
Rosie broke Lauren's arm. She got in trouble with the teacher. But Lauren also got in trouble for what she said to me. Edward pulled me into a hug and said my mommy would come soon.
I hoped so. When I got home from school that day I asked daddy were mommy was. He looked nervous, but told me that she left when I turned one years old. I cried a bit when I asked if she had to leave and sighed and said she didn't have to leave. She just did. Daddy said it was his fault though. And not mine or Emmett's. I felt a little better. But I cried anyway. Daddy combed through my curls and sang too me. The song that he always nag to me every night, "Caterpillar in the tree how you wonder who you'll be, can't go far but you can always dream, Wish you may and wish you might, don't you worry hold on tight, I promise you that there will come a day, Butterfly fly away." I calmed down after that. That song always made me feel better.
I have a twin brother named Emmett. He is younger than me. Daddy said only by a few seconds. But I told him I was still older.
Rosalie also has a twin. His name is Jasper he is in Emmett and Ali's class. He is younger than Rosie. Alice is Edwards twin. He too is younger. When we were all one years old. We all lost'd someone. Rosie's daddy was gone. We don't know why. And Ali lost her other brother. Esme was to sad to talk about it.
We are the three big sisters. We are the "Eldest September's" was what Helen (Rosie's mommy) said.
Rosie and Japer's birthday is on September 13th. Ali's and Edwards is on September 16th.
It is Emmett's birthday and I today. I am excited. Daddy said he got me a gift that was so big it could only fit in the basement. He told me what he got Emmett. He got him a x-box thingies for video games. The thing Emmett has been talking about forever.
The phone rang. I ran to get it.
"Hello? Who is this?" Daddy said always to say that before you give them your name.
"Bella? It's Alice!"
"Ali! Hi! " I shouted into the phone.
"Bells you got to come over here now! It is a emergency!" she said in a over excited voice.
"Okay Ali I will be over. Is my daddy there?" I asked.
"Yes. And bring Emmett! He has to come too!" I heard Rosie giggle in the back round. Alice shushed her.
"Okay I will be there in a minute. Bye!" I smiled. I wonder what she needed.
"Okay bye Bells!"
I hung up the phone.
"EMMET!" I yelled. "WE HAVE TO GO TO ALI'S!"
"OKAY! i AM COMING!" he ran down the stairs. "Ready." I shook my head. His shirt wasn't tucked in and his hair was a mess. I went over to him. I tucked his shirt in, undid one button at the top. I went into the bathroom to go get the brush. I wet it with water, just like grandma did. Then I told Emmett to sit. He was a little bit taller than me and I couldn't reach. He did as I said. And I lightly combed his hair, and pushed it back so his curls were in place.
I told him to stand so that I could see if my work worked. I smiled. He looked like the way grandma did his hair. Perfect.
I learnt from the best. I was wearing a blue dress and blue shoes with a blue bow in my hair. It was likes a headband. My hair was like Emmett's. Curly except mine was wavy like the picture of my mommy's hair. Daddy showed me a picture of her, and I kept it in my room under my pillow.
"Let's go." I smiled and grabbed my little brothers hand.
We ran across the front lawn and to the front door of our next-door neighbor. The Cullen's. That's Alice's last name.
Rosie lives across the street from us.
I knocked on the door. No one answered. I looked at Emmett with a confused face.
I shrugged, so we just opened the door.
It was really dark, so I turned on the light. Then I heard a ton of people yell "SUPRISE!" Then the entire living room was filled with a million people. Em and me were frozen.
Alice, Rosie, Jasper, and Edward came forward. Edward said, "It is a surprise party! That is what mommy called it. We were supposed to surprise you guys." He laughed. "And we did!"
I smiled. Edward made me smile all the time. Rosie and Ali hugged me close. This was a good birthday.
"Happy birthday kids!" said Esme (Ali's mommy). She hugged us both.
Then my grandma came forward. I was so excited to see her. "Happy Birthday Bella." She smiled. She looked at Emmett up and down then looked at me and gave me thumbs up. "Good job honey." I smiled proudly.
She gave Em a hug.
After the surprise party we went home. Grandma and Grandpa came with us.
"Kids why don't we go in the basement now and go get your other presents." My dad was smiling. "Your grandparents and I bought you guys these presents, and we hope you like them."
We ran to the door of the stairs. Daddy had to get the key, because he locks it.
When he gave us the key. My brother was first down. He had gasped when he saw football stuff for him. He loves football. He also found the x-box thingies.
But I was stuck were I was. In our basement was a piano.
Just like the one Grammy has with grandpa. The one grandpa always plays for me.
My grandpa picked me up and whispered in my ear and said, "Now you can learn to play too."
I smiled widely. I was going to play the piano.
September 13th, 1995: Rosalie and Jasper's 5th Birthday
I walked across my lawn that leads to Alice's house. We were going to go over what we had planned for Rose's birthday.
First Esme was going to take us to toys' r' get and us Rose her the Barbie doll that she really badly wants. And than we are going to go back to Alice's house and get our bathing suits on so that we can go to Rose's pool party.
We were celebrating all our birthdays together since this weekend I was going to my Grandparents house for Emmett's birthday and mine.
After Rose's pool party with all the kids from our kindergarten class, we were going to go to Alice's and open our presents from our family's. Then we would have a sleepover at my house.
I knocked on the door.
Edward opened the door, "Hey Bells." He smiled so wide.
I smiled back and hugged him, "Hey Edward." I liked Edward. He was really nice. Jasper is nice too, but he is too quiet sometimes. But I love him like a brother all the same.
"Where is Ali?" I asked Edward after I pulled away from him.
He paused for a minute, "I think she is upstairs." He said. I ran upstairs. As I was walking down the hall I passed Carlisle's (Alice's daddy) door. He saw me.
"Well, hello Bella. How are you sweetheart?" He asked me.
I smiled big, "I'm good Carlisle. How are you?"
He laughed. He, Esme, and Helen asked us to call them by there first names. They told us it made them feel young. I giggled when they told us that.
"I'm fine Bella. Oh, Alice is in her room right now." I beamed and told him bye and ran to Ali's room.
I opened the door. Ali was at her desk writing things down. It must be important if she is writing it down.
"Hey Ali!" I said.
She was wearing a pink shirt; blue jean shorts pink sneakers and had a pink bow in her hair.
I think her theme today was pink. Yesterday it was yellow.
Today I was wearing white. A white sundress to be exact. I had my hair down to the middle of my back. Daddy said I should get it cut. When he suggested it I yelled and said no. He asked why not. I said to him, embarrassed for my reason, was because this is how my mom had it in her picture daddy gave me.
He didn't mention a haircut again.
"Hi Bells!" she was now bouncing in her seat. She jumped up and gave me a hug.
"My mom is taking us to the store now. Let's go down stairs." She said taking my hand. "Oh and Edward is coming. We are getting Jasper something too." They had gone shopping with Rose to go get my present. And Rosalie and me went to go get Ali's present. We got her fashion Barbie.
"Okay." I said.
In Esme's room, there was wrapping paper and she wrapped both Jasper's and Rosalie's gift. We knew Rose was going to love the Barbie dream house.
She has been asking for it since Easter time.
I went back home to get my bathing suit on. It was blue.
I got all my stuff; we had Alice's present already at her house for her to open later. That was from me. Rose, Jasper, and Emmett.
Emmett and me ran to Alice and Edwards. Our daddy had work till later today. He would be back until we had to go to Ali's.
When we got to Rosie's there was already a lot of people there.
We went in the pool for a little while. Then we went to go open presents
We all got some many gifts from our friends. It must have been hard for the parents to have to buy six gifts. That costs a lot of money.
When everyone started to leave the party, we began to go over to Alice's.
I was excited. We were exchanging gifts from one another. I was overjoyed.
The thing I really wanted was a guitar. Grandpa had already taught me the piano. I had asked him what othe instruments he played. He said the guitar.
So I want to play the guitar.
When we were all at Alice's we began to start to relax. My daddy was there too. He had just made it.
We started opening our gifts.
I screamed.
Everyone had chipped in to get me a guitar. I hugged everyone.
I was so happy. I couldn't control it. Emmett got a baseball bat that he started swinging in the back with Jasper and Edward who got similar bats, but in different colors. They were going to be on a baseball team together.
Alice loved her Barbie fashion set and Rose screamed when she saw the Barbie dream house.
Emmett and Edward were spending the night at Jasper's house.
Me, Rose and Ali ran back to my house. WE were so excited.
We went into my room.
"SO Bells what are you going to name you guitar?" Rose asked. She heard the story of my grandfather naming his guitar after my grandmother. Her name is Mary.
"Hmmmmmmmmm... I don't know." I said.
"I think you should name it Gilda." Alice said. Rose burst into laughter.
I laughed too. "Why Gilda?"
She shrugged, "Because it starts with a 'G' like guitar." I smiled it seemed to make sense.
"I like it. It fits." I said, Rose rolled her eyes, but nodded her head in a agreement.
I looked at them, "I got a surprise for u guys."
They looked me eagerly.
"I found these necklaces at the store that had the letters RBA on it. It's like Rose Bella Alice. So I bought three of them. They can be our friendship necklaces." I said smiling.
They looked so excited.
I gave them to them. We all put them on and swear to never take them off. We promised that we wouldn't ever forget that we are best friends.
September 16th, 2003: Alice and Edward's 13th Birthday.
For everyone's birthday this year I wrote them songs.
I have mastered the acoustics guitar and electric. I am a professional at the piano now.
I had everyone come into the basement were my piano was. Rose and Alice were singing some of the songs with me.
I basically wrote a song for almost everyone. I had been working on it all summer. Alice wanted to sing a song for Esme. I wrote it with her. It's called 'The Best Day'. That was the song that we were starting off with. Then I was going to sing my song for all five of them. Called 'True Friends'. Then I am singing to Emmett. I always yell at him regularly to not walk away when I am talking to him. So I wrote a song called, 'Don't Walk Away'. He will get the message. For my grandparents I wrote them their story. It's called 'Mary's Song'.
For my dad I wrote him a song, 'Butterfly Fly Away'. Then for just Alice and Rose there was 'Always There In You' I wrote only a week ago so I am not sure it is perfect. Me Ali and Rose were singing to Em Edward and Jaz 'Stay Beautiful'. I wrote it about Edward. So I thought it would be good if they sang with me.
We started.\
I walked into the room with Laila (my new guitar, Gilda was to small for me now but I still have her in the basement) in hand. I have on a deep blue dress that rapes around my neck and is sleeveless, the dress comes to my mid thigh and I have black leggings on.
Everyone claps when I stand in front of everyone.
I smile and curtsy, "Thank you, thank you. For all of you coming to my first concert in our basement." I giggled. "For my first song I would like to sing to my daddy. This song is called 'Butterfly Fly Away'" I looked at him.
I started up the guitar and began the song.
You tucked me in, turned out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that
Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back
You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be
And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me
Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream
Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
Flap your wings now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true
Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
We've been waiting for this day
All along and knowing just what to do
Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly, butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away
I finished the last note and my dad looked on the verge on tears. I smiled at him. Then I looked at my grandparents. "The next song is your guys story. This song is called 'Mary's Song'." My grandma touched her heart.
She said, I was seven and you were nine
I looked at you like the stars that shined
In the sky, the pretty lights
And our daddies used to joke about the two of us
Growing up and falling in love and our mamas smiled
And rolled their eyes and said oh my my my
Take me back to the house in the backyard tree
Said you'd beat me up, you were bigger than me
You never did, you never did
Take me back when our world was one block wide
I dared you to kiss me and ran when you tried
Just two kids, you and I...
Oh my my my my
Well, I was sixteen when suddenly
I wasn't that little girl you used to see
But your eyes still shined like pretty lights
And our daddies used to joke about the two of us
They never believed we'd really fall in love
And our mamas smiled and rolled their eyes
And said oh my my my...
Take me back to the creek beds we turned up
Two A.M. riding in your truck and all I need is you next to me
Take me back to the time we had our very first fight
The slamming of doors instead of kissing goodnight
You stayed outside till the morning light
Oh my my my my
A few years had gone and come around
We were sitting at our favorite spot in town
And you looked at me, got down on one knee
Take me back to the time when we walked down the aisle
Our whole town came and our mamas cried
You said I do and I did too
Take me home where we met so many years before
We'll rock our babies on that very front porch
After all this time, you and I
When I turn eighty-seven and you'll turn eighty-nine
I'll still look at you like the stars that shine
In the sky, oh my my my...
My grandma came up to me and hugged me. It was the story they told me about how they grew up next to each other. And they feel in love when they were 16.
I wanted her story.
"Esme this song I wrote with Alice for you. Alice will be singing the song." I smiled at her.
Everyone was there. Edward, Rose, Emmett, Jasper my grandparents, Helen, Carlisle, Esme, my dad, and Alice.
"This song is called 'The Best Day'. I hope you like it."
I started the guitar and then Alice began to sing.
I'm five years old, it's getting cold, I've got my big coat on
I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you, I run and run
Past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides, look now, the sky is gold
I hug your legs and fall asleep on the way home
I don't know why all the trees change in the fall
But I know you're not scared of anything at all
Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day with you today
I'm thirteen now and don't know how my friends could be so mean (I remember then. Rose and me were on a Science trip and everyone had made fun of her when she spilt a soda on her jeans. We didn't know about it until we got a text from someone sending us a picture. When we got back Rose did...well lets just say it was a rerun when were in preschool)
I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys
And we drive and drive until we found a town far enough away
And we talk and window shop 'til I've forgotten all their names
I don't know who I'm gonna talk to now at school
But I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you
Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay
But I know I had the best day with you today
I have an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger
God smiles on my little brother, inside and out, he's better than I am
I grew up in a pretty house and I had space to run
And I had the best days with you
There is a video I found from back when I was three
You set up a paint set in the kitchen and you're talking to me
It's the age of princesses and pirate ships and the seven dwarfs
And Daddy's smart and you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world
And now I know why the all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
For staying back and watching me shine
And I didn't know if you knew, so I'm takin' this chance to say
That I had the best day with you today
Esme was in tears. I smiled knowing they were happy tears.
Then I began to sit on my stool were Alice had sat. "Guys, it is our birthday week. So I put together a song for all five of you to show you how much I appreciate you guys. This is called 'True Friends' I hope you like it."
We sign our cards and letters BFF
You've got a million ways to make me laugh
You're lookin' out for me, you've got my back
So good to have you around
You know the secrets I could never tell
And when I'm quiet you break through my shell
Don't feel the need to do a rebel yell
'Cause you keep my feet on the ground
You're true friends
You're here till the end
You pull me aside when something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend
You don't get angry when I change the plans
Somehow you're never out of second chances
Won't say "I told you" when I'm wrong again
I'm so lucky that I've found
True friends
You're here till the end
You pull me aside when something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
True friends will go to the ends of the earth
Till they find the things you need
Friends hang on through the ups and the downs
Cause they've got someone to believe in
True friends
You're here till the end
You pull me aside when something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
No need to pretend
You're true friends
You're true friends
You're here till the end
You pull me aside when something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're true friends
You're true friends
You're true friends
I looked at them. "I know Em, Edward, Jaz that we don't sign cards bff's" I nervously laughed. "But I know you are always there for me and-" Is was cut off because all five of them ran up to give me a hug. I smiled against Edwards shoulder. He was the first to wrap his arms around me. From behind was Rose and Ali and then Jasper and Emmet were on either side of them.
After our group hug I spoke. "Em this for you. I think you will get the message."
I've been runnin in crcles all day long
I'm out of breath but I'm still going strong
I'm gonna get'cha yeah no matter what they say
You think I'm looseing but I Always get my way
Don't walk away when I'm talkin to you
This ain't no time for your bad attitude
Don't gimme,that face,
When you know I'm really down for the chase cuz my hearts already in it and i'm never gonna quit it when you finally gonna get it
Don't walk away
You act, Act like
That i don't have a clue
You think You know it all
But I'm so onto you
You think you figured out just how to win this game
I'm on you tracks yeah
I Know every move you make
Don't walk away when I'm talkin to you
This ain't no time for your bad attitude
Don't gimme,that face,
When you know I'm really down for the chase cuz my hearts already in it and i'm never gonna quit it when you finally gonna get it
Don't walk away
I won't give up just like that
I'm gonna make you listen if it takes everything i have
Don't walk away when I'm talkin to you
This ain't no time for your bad attitude
Don't gimme,that face,
When you know I'm really down for the chase cuz my hearts already in it and i'm never gonna quit it when you finally gonna get it
Don't walk away
When I'm talking to you
Yeah
Don't gimme,that face,
When you know I'm really down for the chase cuz my hearts already in it and i'm never gonna quit it when you finally gonna get it
Don't walk away
Emmett was laughing along with everyone else. They know how I always yell at him to not walk away from me when I am trying to tell him something. He just doesn't listen!
I giggled. "The next song will be preformed from Rose Ali and myself to all three of you boys. We just want to say just because you are boys and turning 13, don't mean you get a right to be jerks. So we want you, in the sense of the song, to 'Stay beautiful'." I smiled
Rose and Ali joined me up front pulling up there own stools.
(ME)Corey's eyes are like a jungle
He smiles, it's like the radio
He whispers songs into my window
In words that nobody knows
(Rose)There's pretty girls on every corner
That watch him as he's walking home
Saying, does he know
Will you ever know?
(ALL)You're beautiful, every little piece, love
Don't you know, you're really gonna be someone
Ask anyone
And when you find everything you looked for
I hope your life leads you back to my door
Oh, but if it don't, stay beautiful
(ALI)Corey finds another way to be
The highlight of my day
I'm taking pictures with my mind
So I can save 'em for a rainy day
(ME)It's hard to make a conversation
When he's taking my breath away
I should say
'Hey, by the way'
(ALL)You're beautiful, every little piece, love
Don't you know, you're really gonna be someone
Ask anyone
And when you find everything you looked for
I hope your life leads you back to my door
Oh, but if it don't, stay beautiful
(ROSE)If you and I are a story
That never gets told
If what you are is a daydream
I'll never get to hold, at least you'll know
(ME)You're beautiful, every little piece, love
Don't you know, you're really gonna be someone
Ask anyone
(ALL)And when you find everything you looked for
I hope your life leads you back to my front door
Oh, but if it don't
Will you stay beautiful
A beautiful, beautiful
Beautiful
A beautiful, beautiful?
(ME)Oh, but if it don't
Stay beautiful
Stay beautiful
We all laughed when the boys remained silent after the song. It was expected you know? They aren't used to be called beautiful.
"For my next song, and last. it is my two besties. Ali and Rosie." I giggled. 'I hope you like it."
Baby girl, close your eyes.
You don't know the strength you have inside
If i could i'd shelter you from all the pain that we
All must go through
But it's up to you.
The road is long – it twists and turns
But everything in life you live and learn
No one ever said that life was easy or that all in
Love is fair
But look inside your heart you'll find the answer
Waiting there
If you ever lose your way
You don't have to be afraid
Look inside to find a friend
Who'll be with you 'til the end
Many different roads to choose
Searching for the strength to make it through
But it was always there in you
Hopes can fail and dreams can fade
Rain can fall down on your big parade
Maybe love will take your heart or break your heart
There are no guarantees
But love will always find you when you just believe
If you ever lose your way
You don't have to be afraid
Look inside to find a friend
Who'll be with you 'til the end
Many different roads to choose
Searching for the strength to make it through
But it was always there in you
The strength you're longing to find
You know it's true
It was there all the time
If you stand stronger, work harder, reach for the sky
I know you will eventually fly
If you ever lose your way
You don't have to be afraid
Look inside to find a friend
Who'll be with you 'til the end
Many different roads to choose
Searching for the strength to make it through
But it was always there
It was always there
It was always there...in you
I saw tears in there eyes when they came up to hug me. We all held onto our necklaces and they came up to hug me.
Maybe this would be a good year...
June 21st 2004: Bella and Emmett's grandfather died.
I was in the basement. I had been in here ever since the end of the first wake. That was 16 hours ago. I won't eat and I wouldn't let anyone into the basement with me. Not even Rose or Ali. The whole time that I was in there I was playing my piano or just staring at it. I re looked at all the music my grandfather made for me. I looked t the song he had written for me.
I can't help but fell so sad. Not just for me. But my grandmother too. She never got to live with him until she was 87 like she dreamed. The depressing thing is that she is only 57 and he was just about to turn 59.
I had been writing a song for my grandfather. Not only a week ago was I beginning the song for his birthday that was coming up. Now he was gone forever and I never finished that song.
While i was down here I remember all the times that I would get annoyed with him when he would show me a new why with the piano and with the guitar. I remember his hurt look on his face. That is all that keeps replaying my head over and over again.
So I wrote him a new song to apologize. It is called 'Hurt' I am going to play it for him at the next wake tonight. They have a piano in the room. I will go now while no one is there. The wake is only in a half hour so I have to hurry down to the church.
I ran
I walked into the church and asked the priest if I could have a few moments with my grandfather before the wake. He agreed and left the building.
I walked over to the piano that was near him.
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away
Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you
I was in full tears now.
All of a sudden I felt strong arms go around me. I turned to see who it was.'
It was Edward. I looked at him. He smiled and opened his arms to me. I went willingly and cried. He held me until I had no tears to cry anymore. He whispered to me that it was going to be okay. And that my grandfather loved me and he would forgive me no matter what.
I felt a electric current pass through us but at the moment I wasn't paying attention.
PRESENT DAY: September 19, 2008. California
If I had known all those times with Edward and Emmett and Jasper were going to be gone then, I don't know what I would have done.
When our 15th birthday came and we all went to high school, a lot of things changed. Ali Rose and I had boyfriends at the time. And when they broke up with us because they found out we didn't like them, but that we like Edward, Jasper and Emmett. They decided to share it with the entire school...
To Be Continued...
A/N: What do think? Obviously in this story all the major stars don't exist. In this story I have them seeming like they wrote the songs. Renee left when Bella and Emmett were one year old. Helen's (Rosalie and Jasper's mom) husband died in war when they were one. And Alice and Edward's baby brother died from blood lose when they were also one. That is what happened. Please Review!
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