Guilty Pleasure
A/N: Another comment fic challenge from the He Moves Me Differently MxM forum (linked on my page).
MATT POV:
…I am all broken inside…
The moment I smelled the perfume on his jacket, something snapped inside me. Just the thought of him with one of those whores, one of those bitches who could never begin to mean anything to him…
Mello never apologizes for what he breaks; he just takes, uses, and destroys you when you're no longer useful. I guess my time was up. I'd seen him do it too many before to others. I suppose I'm just the one who lasted the longest. Was I delusional to hope that I could be the one person who he wouldn't objectify and toss away like an old worn glove?
I guess that kiss meant nothing after all.
No, it did mean something. It was a ploy to get my loyalty. The fucker! He knew I was in love with him and he took advantage of that. He played me for a sucker.
I gave up everything for Mello. Everything. And he made bank on it. But I'm not like the others. I won't be used and abused like this. I want Mello to be mine, and mine alone. I'll make sure that I get what I want, because if I'm getting thrown away, I'm not going down alone.
"Fuck you, Mello. Fuck you right to Hell, you bastard!" I scream at my monitors.
I could see him on the monitor, holding that detonator like he was some kind of God. Even as a cornered rat, he thinks he's so high and mighty. But I was going to show him just how human he really was. I want to see Mello crawling and begging for me the way I pine for him. When he pulls that trigger, I'm not going to let him die. No, I'm gonna hold him in my clutches, and show him exactly what it means to be needy.
And I'm going to enjoy every fucking moment of it.
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