Been a long time since my last fic and finally lady inspiration decided to danced back into my life... Here's a little McKono!
Disclaimer: IT AINT MINE! NOR ARE THE LYRICS- "If you asked" By Longview. It's my sister favorite song and I understand why. So please give it a listening!
Bonne lecture! XD
When Kono said that she'd hate to be the only "adult" what she really meant was for him to just come back home. She was actually pleading him to forget about it all and to return. But that would truly be selfish of her, this mission was clearly important to him, and he was important to her. But if only she could be as important to him.
But that would never happen as he was in a great relationship with Catherine, whom she had no reason to hate. Kono knows that she would take care of him, nothing would happen to Steve as long as he has Catherine by his sides. But logic was no help in the matter, it didn't stop the deep feeling of jealousy and envy that was suffocating her. He could've asked her to help him, she wouldn't had think twice to do so. But the more frightening fact was that it didn't scare her that she would do anything for him without a single doubt.
Not being able to contact him was unbearable but she had to hide those feelings, she couldn't let the boys know how she really felt, how it was surely breaking her. She had somewhat successfully prospered at keeping her mind from wandering off back to him most of the time. But with the possibility of him getting stuck there or, worse, die. The mere thought of it just…
She would have giving anything to be by his side right now. He was hurting and she knew it. She didn't know what could be done from her part to relieve him of some of that pain, all she could do was to wish for him to be happy and safe once more.
As time passed, her attempts to not think about him became less successful by the minute. No matter what she did her thoughts would always drift back to him. The agonising feeling she had felt during his absence finally disappeared when she heard the news of his return.
He said that they didn't have to come to the funeral, that he was fine. Knowing Steve, he almost certainly didn't want to be seen by his team during one of his most vulnerable moments, though it had been done before. Kono tried repeatedly to convince herself to not go, probably Catherine would be by his side to support him. But she knew deep down that he would need it and appreciate it none the less. And she wanted to respect his wish. Kono made up her mind to assist with the help of Chin's words. He said that, though he was distant, he was truly grateful for everybody's presence at Malia's funeral.
So there they were, standing a few feet away out of respect. She could see how heartbroken Steve was. She would've given anything to be able to hold him in her arms and help him through, but that wasn't hers to do so. She watched him placing the military dog tag around the little girl's neck, observing as tears flooded his eyes. As he walked away from the scene his eyes dropped on them. They all could see gratitude and relief through them, a small smile appeared on his features. And at this moment Kono realized that as long as she was alive she would sacrifice anything to just see this look on his face. She will take what she can get, to love him from afar will be enough.
"But I'd stay for you, I'd help you through, Though you're not mine already knew, I'd cheer you up, if you felt down, I'd make you smile, I'd be around,
I'd stay for you, I'd go right through, I'd be here close when you need it most, I'd be your type whatever you like, I'd bring you flowers, sit and talk for hours
I'd cheer you up, if you felt down, I'd make you smile when you came around."
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