Niko niko
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I swear, he has a smile for every occasion. I don't think his friends notice, they're not paying enough attention, but I do.
He's got a small, weak one for when he's hurting inside or hiding something important. That particular one is the one I hate the most. It's a mockery of his true ones. He doesn't cry or look sad in public, he's too afraid it would upset someone else. He doesn't realize what it does to me. His weak smiles are his tears and both break my heart equally. That small upturning of lips are almost more heart-wrenching than the prefect liquid diamonds that fall softly from his amethystine eyes when he thinks he's alone. I like to think I helped stop that, but occasionally, I hear a sound from his soul room that makes my wonder. I want to shout at his 'friends' and tell them what's going on, what they're overlooking. The only one who seems to know anything is Jou, and I'm not even sure about that.
He has a smile for every occasion. Every single one.
He has another one that he only ever uses in public. The smiling façade that his friends have gotten used to. The beautiful clown mask that hides his true self from the world. I don't like that smile either. It's better than his small ones, but they're still not truly his. They're artificial, forced, as if it's compulsory for him to smile out at the world. But the world doesn't see Yuugi Motou. It doesn't see my aibou. They see the mask he wears, frozen in an eternal smile.
So many different smiles, each saying a different thing. An infinite variety, but it's his true ones which capture me the most. The ones that will fascinate me for the rest of time.
While his artificial smiles hide his inner light, it's his true ones that draw me to his side. Those pure, real smiles hold me spellbound, enraptured. When his eyes light up and his face brightens, even Ra can't compare to the boy's brilliance.
But he has a secret one that he uses only for me.
Though there's so many, I do have a favourite one. My smile. The one Yuugi reserves especially for me. The one he uses to greet me with. The one that makes me feel like I'm wanted, like I belong here in his home, like I'm loved. When Yuugi's happy, you can see the soul-searing warmth that makes him my hikari, my light. His jewel-like eyes become stars as his smile captures the very essence of summer, even in the heart of winter. Walking through the door, I get enveloped in a heat that has nothing to do with the climate. We see each other all the time except during the tedious 'school' we both must attend, yet he's always home before me, ready to greet me with that secret smile of his and a hug.
I swear, he has a smile for every occasion, but it's the one he saves for me that sends shivers up and down my spine. My fascination with them binds me tighter to him than chains ever could. The Puzzle's power pales in comparison.
His real smiles, they're so sweetly natural. Completely innocent and open. Yet they can drive me to the very edge of obsession, right to the line between insanity and...
Aibou, do you have any idea what you're doing to me? Could you ever understand, tenshi?
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(All edited, I think.)