You make me nervous every time I'm near you.
I constantly want to impress you, its like an instinct.
Sometimes I stutter through words when I'm near you. Its because my heart is beating so fast I cant breathe.
I've cried for you. Many times.
Every time I go somewhere, I look for you without even noticing.
The reason I keep breaking up with you is because I have so many doubts. And its killing me.
I'm sorry. So. Incredibly. Sorry.
I wish I didn't have to hurt you but…its unavoidable.
My heart is hurting right now even when I'm writing this.
I've said 'I love you'. It doesn't mean I'm in love with you. I'm sorry about that.
You have no idea of what you do to me.
You think I can control my emotions? When you turn your back is when I cry baby.
Yeah…were young. Your young. I'm young. But we know what we feel.
You might not know it, but I constantly think of you.
Your always going to have a piece of my heart, whether I like it or not.
God…have I cried for you.
Yeah, your crazy, you're an asshole, you're a liar, you're a heartbreaker. But when your with me, I see the real you.
You're the only person I've been serious with.
You're the only one I look in the eyes and become vulnerable to.
I don't know why I'm doing this. Maybe its just to let it all out. I don't know. I don't know a lot of things.
When I call you an idiot, its an affection kind of thing. You're my idiot.
You're the only serious boy that I told my parents about. And that's saying something baby.
You know that night you called me while I was asleep and I stupidly said "you know what? In my own sick and twisted way, I love you". Your remember that? Well I meant it.
I remember when you held me close and whispered that you love me. When I said it back, you pulled away, looked me in the eyes and asked "Really?" To this day, I still don't know.
You know what is really confusing? You know what absolutely drives me insane? You know what keeps me up at night? Its that I know what I feel. But no matter what I know that this is just…. Something. It'll go away. It was nice while it lasted, and I don't believe it when you say 'I love you' anymore because with time I know it will pass. I just want you to know, No matter how hard I tried, I never loved you.
I never loved you.