Mascara

Chapter 1: Hear it break.

Emily's POV

It was already late and I had just started reading Alison's journal. Of course, my stuff wasn't so hard to find because I could picture her writing about my sexuality and those two times we kissed.

"Girl Crush." I read. Obviously, that's me.

Flashback - The Kissing Rock

"You know... You should never dissapoint a ghost... Who do you wanna take there?" Alison looked at me with those piercing blue eyes and I wanted to say so badly that I wanted to take her there. I knew I couldn't. I shouldn't. Ali would never stop teasing me.

"I don't know... Maybe in the future, someone special..." I said shyly. I didn't want to sound too obvious but god, she was still looking at me with a grin on her face, and I'm sure by that time I also had one on mine.

We sat there for a moment and I swear she didn't take her eyes off me.

"Stand up." Ali ordered me. What... is she doing? "Em. Stand up." She repeated. I stood up but I was so confused.

"Come closer." Ali told me and I did as I was told.

"Nobody has to know about this... I want to take you, Em." she whispered into my ear slowly and then continued, "And I'm sure you want to take me there too." I stood there for a moment. Was this real? But before I could speak she smiled and said: "I want you."

I doubted for a moment if she was just joking or if this was the truth but she looked into my eyes like she had never before, I said okay.

With that we started walking towards the kissing rock, which is behind a lake in which we usually hang out. Before we went to the kissing rock we stopped by the lake and sat there for a couple of minutes.

When we were sitting we didn't speak. However, the silence was beautiful. It wasn't awkward at all, it was comfortable. It was just the sound of the birds, the water and our breaths all together. I looked at her feeling so grateful for what she was doing. I felt so joyful, and I hoped she felt the same way.

She caught my glance and we smiled at each other. Then Ali stood up and grabbed my hand. She walked me to the kissing rock hand in hand and sat down.

"Ali..."

"You know Em, I think we should make this moment last forever." She took her bag and got out red paint or grafitti and wrote in one side of the rock EF + AD.

"Forever?" She asked me with a cute smile on her face.

I took a deep breath and answered: "Forever."

Forever, I repeated to myself. Just thinking about it I started to blush.

Ali smiled at me and planted a small soft kiss in my lips. It made me feel so magical, like just at the touch of her lips... everything makes sense when we touch. When she grabs my hands. When she says my name.

I felt alive.

When I tried to look back into her eyes, she still had them closed, and the smile she had before was smaller now. Did I do something wrong?

Ali opened her eyes and gave me a small smile.

"We should go back."

End of Flashback

I closed the journal, and a single tear went down my face. All these memories... and knowing that Ali probably was just messing with me made me feel like a part of me had died... I felt like if she was missing but I'd like to tell her what she made me go through.

My heart was breaking. And why is that happening? Emily, please, you know the answer.

You still love her.