Evanescence
Evanescence- tending to vanish like vapor
Vaughn POV. Season 2/22 'The Telling'. Vaughn learns and reflects on Sydney's apparent death.
I'm so tired of being here
Why did you leave me, Sydney?
Suppressed by all my childish fears
It was like my worst nightmare had finally bared its fangs. I had dreaded hearing words like that since the moment I met you.
I was at home, getting ready to pick you up. To go to Santa Barbara, when...
"Hello?"
"Agent Vaughn? This is officer Grayner of the LAPD."
"What is it?"
"We need you to report to the Bristow/Calfo residence immediately."
"Oh my God. Is Sydney alright?"
"I'm sorry, I need you to come here first."
Then I knew something was wrong. Why would the LAPD be calling me about you? So I went to your house.
I saw the flashing lights from a mile away. Too many, I thought. I pulled in the drive, terrified of what they might tell me. I got out of the car and looked up, and for the first time noticed the blackened skeleton that was your house. As if in a trance, I just walked in.
And if you have to leave
Dixon approached me, a few papers in his hand. His eyes looked unusually glassy. "Take these. Try to read them. You may want to sit down."
"Where?" I thought. I wandered until I found a semi-clear space by the wall. I sat down and read the papers. You were dead.
Now I sit here, alone, drowning in my sorrow.
I wish that you would just leave.
Your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
I love you so much, but you're gone. I'm not with the CIA anymore, that should please you. I don't know why I talk to you, can you even here me?
These wounds won't seem to heal,
This pain is just too real,
There's just too much that time cannot erase.
It's been two months, and it still feels like yesterday. I see a Land Rover and want to chase it down to see if it's you. Every time I see a woman with long brown hair I wait for her to turn around, just because I still hope it's you. God, Syd, I miss you so much.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I've held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have all of me.
Almost five months already, and you still own every waking moment of my life. I don't sleep much, but when I do, you're still there. I can't believe you're really gone.
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
I love you, Syd, even half a year later. I can hear your voice now. I guess you really were listening. Maybe I'm crazy, but it's nice to know that even if you're gone, I'm not alone.
These wounds won't seem to heal,
This pain is just too real,
There's just too much that time cannot erase.
Nine months now. I've met someone, her name is Lauren. I think I love her, but no one will ever fill the emptiness that is still in my heart. I'm in love with two women, and you are one of them. I guess I am crazy, being in love with a dead woman. Something just doesn't feel right, though. I don't know why, but I think you may come back, even though you're gone. Disappeared, like evanescence.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I've held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have all of me.
END
lyrics: 'My Immortal' by Evanescence
A/N: This one is different from my other fanfic, but I kinda wanted to do a song-fic type thing. I LOVE this song, so I thought I'd use it.
suggested soundtrack: 'My Immortal' by Evanescence-aww heck, just go for the entire 'Fallen' CD!!!