The darkness of my heart
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It's been a while since Inuyasha ran off into the woods; I wonder what he could be looking for. With Sango wounded from one of Naraku's tricks, we can't afford to have another one of our group injured.
"I'm going to go check on Inuyasha." I say.
Sango's eyes flutter open at the sound of my voice, and she goes to speak but only a tight, retched noise comes out. She coughs a couple times before she is able to speak.

"Sure Kagome, but be careful. Take Kirara with you?" She croaks.

I tuck a loose strand of raven black hair behind my ear while giving her a small, half smile.

"I am sure I will be fine, plus Kirara looks pretty happy and cozy all snuggled up to you like that."

With that, I quietly leave the hut, careful not to wake Miroku and Shippo; who are sleeping silently beside Sango. The full moon shines on the dew that sprinkles the grass and the breeze gently caress's my skin like a soft, soothing hand, relieving me of all the pain I have suffered the last few day.

We had a hard battle with Naraku a few days ago, Inuyasha instantly tracked a scent and threw me on his back before following Hakodoshi's scent to the bottom of a mountain, where Naraku awaited us silently. We were following Hakodoshi's scent, which smells exactly like Naraku, but it was all just a set up. When we finally reached the mountain, Naraku flew out of a hole in the cave, surrounded by his strong barrier. He planned to finish off Inuyasha once and for all but Koga came racing down the mountain on the first scent of me and I begged for him to help. He cursed a lot at Inuyasha but he was a great help and Sango couldn't help but show her gratitude by putting her life in danger by rushing in front of Koga when Naraku shot a tentacle towards him. Koga was totally caught off guard, to busy fighting with Inuyasha none the less, and didn't expect Naraku to interfere. Sango tried to throw Hiraikotsu at Naraku but she wasn't fast enough and the tentacle impaled her through her stomach, leaving a huge, gaping hole. Miroku was pissed that Naraku hurt his dear Sango, so he summoned every ounce of strength to fight of Naraku but of course, it wasn't enough. Koga and Inuyasha worked together to avenge Sango's injury and left Naraku fleeing. I shot one of my sacred arrows at him and it skimmed the side of his stomach, causing him to wince in pain but otherwise did no harm. Naraku was barely wounded but he decided to flee, I have no clue why but it really gets to me.
Sango was unconscious on the ground, surrounded by her own blood. Crimson liquid was splattered all over her body and her face was very pale, especially compared to her usual white complexion. Miroku, who was hugging Sango's body tightly, was also drenched in blood. I had only a few cuts, scratches and bruises but nothing compared to the pain Sango and Miroku must've felt.

I flinch, shaking off the memory. We are all fine now, except Inuyasha has been a little restless lately, maybe because he failed to realize that fighting with Koga was stupid and that it got Sango seriously injured. Maybe he thinks it's his fault, I should go reassure him that Sango did it on her own accord to save a friend, to save another soul that didn't deserve to go to the other world yet.

He might be by the Sacred Tree; it's the best lead I have so far, so I decide to check there first.
Bright lights illuminate the sky up above, like stars but so bright and close up. Oh… no… Kikyo's soul collectors! I'll be damned, how did I not think of this sooner?
Of course Inuyasha would probably think that it was his fault because of Sango but he wouldn't leave the hut! I am so stupid, but I have to know what's going on, I may not like it but I don't want Inuyasha to get hurt.
She is probably leading him on as we speak; it really annoys me that I truly love Inuyasha when Kikyo used to love him.
Now she is just a dead soul, made up of bones and graveyard soil. I think Inuyasha cares about us both deeply, but even with Kikyo around, it's hard to think straight for both of us. I know he still loves her, and I know there might not be a spot for me in his heart but that doesn't stop me from trying. I wouldn't be able to get over him, even if I tried!

I finally see Inuyasha and Kikyo in the clearing, facing each other. Kikyo's back is to the sacred tree, she has a mischievous glint in her eye, like she knows I am there. I hastily hide behind the safety of a tree, obscuring me from the view of Kikyo's wandering eyes. Inuyasha has a look of kindness in his eyes, something he barely shows me.

"Kikyo, I-I can't let you get hurt by Naraku again." He stutters, "Why do you always pursue him?"

Kikyo lets out a startling gasp, her eyes glazing over with anger.

"He tore us apart Inuyasha, he ended my life. Just because I am a female, doesn't mean I can't defend myself. I can handle myself just fine Inuyasha, your help is not needed." She retorts cautiously.
Inuyasha takes a step back and looks as if Kikyo grew claws and ripped out his heart.

"Kikyo, I didn't mean to offend you. I don't want you to endure anymore sorrow; I want to protect you forever."

I let out a gasp of remorse. It feels as if my heart just broke in two; I want Inuyasha to protect me forever. What am I saying? I am acting selfish, why can't I just accept that I will never get the guy? I feel tears start to well in my bright blue eyes but I know I have to suck it up, I will not act weak.

"I feel gratitude towards your words Inuyasha, but I am just a mere soul, made up of fake flesh and reborn even though I do not deserve it."

"Kikyo, don't say that. I don't care for your appearance or what you're made up of, the only thing that matters are you, the real you, your soul. Your soul still holds love for me, I can feel it."

Kikyo looks up at Inuyasha, a sad expression danced across her face. Inuyasha grabs Kikyo's hand and she instinctively wraps her fingers around his.

"Inuyasha, what about that foolish girl?"

Inuyasha stops for a second and ponders on the thought of Kagome.
Inuyasha does feel strongly for Kagome, just as he does for Kikyo. If it came down to it, he wouldn't know which one to choose. He could have Kagome, the happy, cheerful girl that made him trust again or Kikyo, the sad, lonely soul that lives on this planet for one reason, to destroy Naraku. The two girls are different in heart and soul but they share the same desire, to be with Inuyasha. The Hanyou rarely leaves both of the girl's minds, just as they never leave his.

I am still peeking around the corner when a thoughtful look crosses Inuyasha face.
Is he actually thinking about what Kikyo said? So he does care about me, but maybe not as much as he cares for Kikyo.

"I see you are giving a lot of thought into my question, aren't you?" Kikyo asks, while seething with rage.

"Kikyo, I do care for the girl, and I care for you. Can't I have you both?" He blurts out by mistake.

I cover my mouth as a long sigh escapes me and wistfully close my eyes. Inuyasha will never learn will he?
I hear a thick slapping noise fill the air.
I re-open my eyes and see a newly swelling hand mark on the side of Inuyasha's face. Stupid Hanyou, will you ever learn to respect girls?
We aren't your property, you know?
"HEY! What was that for?" Inuyasha squeals.
"Learn to respect girls, we aren't your toys. You can have me or Kagome, it's your choice Inuyasha, and I would like to know the answer."

Inuyasha stifles a moan and shakes his head.

"I-I cannot give you an answer now, Kikyo," he murmurs "Please forgive me."

"Does that girl mean more to you then I do?"
Inuyasha grabs Kikyo by the waste and pulls her tightly to him, there body's molding together as if they were the same person. She wraps her arms around his neck and breaths in his scent.
"We have been through hard times Kikyo, but we have had our good times. Kagome has been with me for almost a year now; she has helped me learn the way of trust. She has done me a great deal of help and pushes away her on selfishness and sacrificed her life for me before. You did the exact same, as you can see, it is hard to pick between you both."

My knees buckle and I fall to the ground, tears threaten to fall. Why can't Inuyasha hug me like that? I don't know why he even try's to work with me; I am nothing but a foolish mortal girl, always getting in his way and doing nothing to help him. My archery isn't that good either and all I do is stop Inuyasha from using his powers to their full potential because he always has to save me from danger. But what can Kikyo do? She is never here for Inuyasha like I am; I guess it was there past relationship that really has his heart wanting her….

AH, first chapter! Please, please, please REVIEW! I will honestly love you forever… I know it may not be good:$, I am pretty young so I am not a good writer but I did my best and I just LOVE Inuyasha! I thought this was a good story idea!