Hey everyone, thanks for clicking at my story. I know that there are lots of this kind of stories, but I am thankful you want to try this one. I really hope you enjoy it: this is my first attempt to write a fanfic and English isn't my first language, so sorry if there are a few grammar mistakes.

In this story, the Edward we know will be said as Edward, his son Edward Jacob is Edward J.

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight. If I would, I probably wouldn't be writing fanfiction. The only character I own is Edward Jacob, but the idea of this person came from Breaking Dawn. Anyway, enjoy!

Prologue

"Mom? Where are we going?" From the backseat of the car I hear my daughter asking me a question, annoyed of the long drive.

"To Forks. It's the wettest place in the US, so I figured that it might be a good place to stay a few years." I tell her. From the seat behind me my son starts grinning.

"Forks?," he asks trying to control his laughter, "Why aren't we going to Knives? Or Spoons?" I hear Nessie joining his laughing.

"Oh, how funny! You are hilarious!" I say with an obvious sarcastic voice. "We're going to live in the house where my dad lived. I used to stay there every year a few weeks. It's a nice house; I think you will like it." They don't react. An half hour later we arrive on our destination. I show the kids their room. Renesmee gets Charlies old room, Edward J. sleeps on the attic. I get my own room. While the kids unpack their stuff, I just stare at my bed, letting all the memories flow back over me. The first night Edward stayed with me, when he was there when I woke up. Or the night of my eighteenth birthday. That special night… That changed my whole life. All memories include Edward. I miss him so much, I still love him. This room brings back so much memories of him. But I don't regret the decision of moving here. It was time to move back.

It takes a few minutes for me to realise that I sense a familiar scent around here. It is a smell I have never noticed as human, but it is so clearly Edward. It comes from… from the floor. Slowly I walk to the spot where I sense it. One of the pieces of wood is loose. Careful I pick it up. Beneath it I see a book and it seems like some pictures. I pick them up slowly. Immediately I recognise them. It's the yearbook I got from Charlie at my birthday, with the pictures I had in it. And the CD Edward made for me back then… he never took this things from me! All this time they were hid underneath my floor! If I could cry, I would've now of happiness. My hands start shaking. I just can't wait. I need to hear that music again. Trembling I make my way to the CD player. As soon as I hear my lullaby again, my whole body relaxes.

"Mom? What is that music?" Edward J. walks into my room.

"It's nothing.. Just an old CD I found. Are you done unpacking?"

"No, not yet." He walks out of the room again. That is when I see a paper inside of the yearbook. It has a different color then the pages of the book. Curious pick it up. Shock hits me as I recognise the perfect handwriting. Edward. He… He wrote me a letter? As soon as I realise that, I start reading as fast as I can.

Dear Bella,

My love, I wrote you this letter even through you'll probably never find it. But if you are reading this right now, you need to know I love you.

Yes, I love you. I know I said different, but it was a lie. I'll explain it.

On you eighteenth birthday, when Jasper attacked you, I realised once more how dangerous my world is for you. How dangerous I am for you.

I just couldn't live with the idea that maybe, one day, I might be responsible for your death. So I decided to leave. It was a few years earlier than expected, but we had to.

And I knew that the only thing that would make you let me go, was making you believe I didn't love you anymore. That I would move on. So I lied.

I thought I had to lie for hours, just to make you doubt it a little bit. But you believed me right away. You thought I moved on without you, that I would forget about you. You believed me so easily. That is such an ridiculous idea… As if I could ever exist without you!

Why did you believe it? How could you?

Bella, I love you. I have always loved you, and I will always love you for forever. I promise.

And in case you don't believe me… Alright, I'll just tell it. I was about to ask you to marry me. I know it would be early, that we would be young, but it just felt right. I had a ring, the one my father gave to my mother. If that accident on your birthday wouldn't have happened, I would have asked you it that evening. But the accident made me doubting. A few days later I decided. We had to leave.

I am so sorry, Bella, more than I can ever tell you. So I wrote this letter.

I hope you can have a happy life now, a human life, without any danger from me. I hope you find someone you like and get married and have kids. Your wounds will heal. The only medicine is time.

My love, never forget. I won't.

Forever yours,

Edward

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