Loosing the Battle
In the night, I hear them talk, the loneliest voices. Somewhere outside of this world, I lost my meaning, lost my soul. Now, in my head it's just me and the lonely. When the moon shines overhead, like a trance, like a dream, I dance the loneliest dance ever danced. Missing him is like missing part of myself, lost somewhere in the sands of time. He was my spirit, my light in a cruel, dark world. I am a ghost of myself, the shell of a girl without him. Memories, like a plague, choke me, fingers gripping me, the devil itself taking me away. The face of him, flashing through my mind, taunting me with what could have been. My anchor gone; my fire, left. I am abandoned. And tonight, I let myself go.
Missing Him
Happiness, such a foreign word, such a foreign meaning. Something of long ago, something left and gone. I know I shouldn't, I know I can't, but I do. I miss him. Miss the way he would breath Goodnight down my back when sneaking up behind me and pressing me against him using those strong arms. Miss the sweet names he called me. And now, he's missing. Sometimes its the little things that are gone that creep on you, tearing you apart, killing your being. But what is done, is done. And. He. Is.
Gone.
Gale
I knew, I have always known somewhere deep inside that he can't. He can't fill the gap that tore at my existence. He can't mend the crack in my heart. So when he kissed me, I played pretend like when I was a little girl. I imagined his dark eyes, passion filled, being the deep blue orbs I loved the most. His hands on my hips, the soft hands of the boy with the bread instead. But when i run my fingers through his hair, I am jolted back to reality. The coarse, straight black wires on his head are not the downy, soft curls I want. So I push him away, ignoring the look of utter hurt and betrayal in his eyes and I push him out of the room, slamming the door. As I slid down against it, sobs racking me, I recall it all. I recall the night with him that was so passionate, when we almost took the last leap.
So Close
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