-1I was going to save you, I was going to find a way and save you. I couldn't though, after all the things that you had done for me I couldn't save my own brother.
Bobby's sitting beside me, I want him to leave. I want everyone to leave me be, so I can cry. Cry of how you never had a life, you had the chances to be someone, something great. But in the end I think I was the one who kept you back.
You tried so hard to keep this family together, tried, and failed. I wept the day I lost Jess, wept when I lost my father, wept when I knew that I had to kill Madison, tried so hard not to weep when I lost you, my brother.
You sacrificed, everything, for me. Even the little things. And you didn't complain, a part of me thought that you were never able to.
I sorry. For all you were and it may not have been a lot, but that was always enough for me. You were my brother, I can't, do anything. I feel so useless. Dean, blame me all you want, you died for me. Did you not think that I would do the same, I would die for you as you have for me.
You expect me to go on, knowing in my heart that where you are. Is somewhere that will torment you, break you. I had always thought of you to be invisible, just like you thought dad.
Now, here I am, back at University. I couldn't tell you how many deaths there has been…since I stopped hunting. Bobby comes around now and then. He tries to tell me not to give up.
I'm not giving up, I'm moving on. For you.
