Why won't you let me near?
Why do you hide your
Crimson eyes
When I come to embrace you
To kiss your tears away?
Why do you conceal yourself?
When the others come to play?
Do you dislike
To have fun
To play games?
Or is there something
I can't see?
You were too young to be out there
Four years old
Is too little
To live on your own
Oh, Miku is happy
But please, little Zatsune
Don't push away my efforts
To give you a home!
Are you scared, Zatsune?
Are you frightened of me?
Or are you just fearful
To accept my affections?
Now, don't you shake your head
I can see it in your
Tear-stained face
You are terrified
To become attached
To me
What could have made you
So scared of my love?
What could have made you
So nervous at night?
Don't think that I'm blind
I couldn't have missed
Those starts
Those jumps
When something clatters
To the ground
Why do you flinch away
When I try to hold your hand?
Why do you cringe
When I try to embrace you?
You shy away
When I hold up my hand
Do you think that I'll hit you?
Do you think that I'll yell?
Oh, my baby Zatsune
I can hear you at night
And it breaks my heart, little one
Your tiny little sobs
You try to hide in your pillow
Your shrieks and your whimpers
You attempt to choke back
But when I come to soothe your nerves
To take away the bad dreams
You yelp and you hide
And you won't come out
And the morning's not much better
You barely come out of your room
You're silent at the table
And when the children try
To play with you
You tremble
And run away
I don't know what to do
I don't know how to help you
I've been doing the best I can do!
Maybe I should just
Find your mother and father
And let them come take you away!
…
But maybe that's why
You were out there alone
Maybe that's why
You can't trust me
At all
Did your mother and father
Not love you?
Did they dump you out there
To survive on your own?
Did they call you freaks?
Did they punch you and kick?
Did they try to touch you
Where it's not okay?
Oh, please tell me, Zatsune
I can't help you
If you won't even tell me
Yes or no!
You nod. You nod?
So, then, yes, it's true-
You won't let me near
Because nobody's ever loved you…
So my loving caress
Is a foreign emotion
A kiss on the forehead
Is all Greek to you
I can see it in your eyes
Pooling over with tears
You want me to care
But at the same time
You can't afford to be
Hated again
Oh, Zatsune…
Shh-sh-sh-shhh
Don't cry, baby girl
I'm not going to hurt you
I'm not going to throw you away
I'm not going to scream at you
Or call you bad names
I just want to hold you
See- just like this
That doesn't hurt, now
Doesn't it feel nice?
Look, Luka doesn't want
To laugh at you as you cry
Or hurl you to the dirt
Luka- me- I'm your mommy now
And I will protect you
To the ends of this Earth
You don't need to hide anymore
Little one
And when they won't play with you
Or you fall down
Or get a scraped knee
Just run back to me
I can help you, you'll see
You don't have to shun them, now
Go and have fun
Your nightmares will no longer control you
I can scare them away
With a kiss
And a nuzzle
And sing you a lullaby
To send you a sweet dream
Of sugar and love
Haha! Yes, that's right
No more cowering in fright
No more shivers
And flinching
When I draw you near
For I love you, my dear
Luka will always be right here
To hold you
To cuddle
To quell all your fears
Now, Zatsune, my darling
Wipe those tears away
I think I hear Neru calling
She wants you to come and play
So run off, now
To have some fun
And make a friend or two
But just remember, sweetheart
If you need someone to lean on
Luka will always be right here-
Mommy will always be right here-
I will always
Be
Right here…
A/N: This was a fic? Poem? Drabble? Showing the story through Luka's eyes as she tries to figure out what is wrong with her little Zatsune. Uh. Hope you enjoyed? Review? Don't lynch me?
