Disclaimer: though I say I have them tied to my bed, I don't really own it.


A/N: I was going through a period of loving total hentai between sano and aoishi so I wrote a lemon for them but since I cant post lemons I write it with love.


The Man I Love...


It's quite amazing how much you can love someone no matter who they are if they are who you love. This man was my best friend. This man was everything. This man was in love with someone else.


I toured the path of the river bank gnawing on my fishbone. It was a beautiful day the sky was blue (the blue sky must be high and clear no matter how far away it is...), the birds were singing and Kenshin was walking next to me.


That little samurai had no idea I had dreams of ravishing his small frame exploring his body with my mouth. I loved Kenshin so much. Because he was my best friend.


It was devastating to imagine my Kenshin, with another man, but evidently my Kenshin had a one track mind. It was set on Saito. "Damn him! I hate Saito..." He had Kenshins heart and soul and his body as well. I wish with all my heart that I had that.


"Sanosuke?" Kenshin asked me in that innocent voice of his... I turned to him. "Why have you been melancholy these days?" I smiled at him through a mouth that lied. "Just thinking I guess..." He nodded.


We walked back to the dojo together and when we arrived Saito was there waiting. "Himura, I have some business to discuss with you." he said very formally. I once again faked a smile and walked off. They hid their relationship like it were a dirty little secret. Well in these times it could only workout as a dirty little secret.


They walked off as they always did to that special spot of theirs. I can recall the day so well when I discovered their relationship. I was concerned over the fact of Saito wanting to have a private meeting with Kenshin so I followed to make sure. I watched as they sat on the rock together talking...then I saw Kenshin get taken aback. Then Saito did it... he kissed Kenshin.


Disgusting didn't hit me at all at the sight of two men kissing, which is unusual. Instead I felt an almost arousing aspect of the kiss, and then I realized I was jealous. He was Kissing my Kenshin. That was when I found out I had homosexual feelings. It made sense since all the times I had seen Jou-chan naked and didn't feel anything.


I couldn't believe I had felt this way and have two other men I know to feel the same way about men...and after awhile I found another man I knew who was homosexual as well.


As Kenshin and Saito made love I could do nothing but sit and listen. I hated Saito so much he had my man and I wanted him. Love is a strange emotion it can make you do such weird things. And this love for Kenshin made me want to do the weirdest thing. Even if it meant going to someone considered your enemy.


I was drunk on sake and not in my right mind but... my body was aroused I wanted to feel the touch of another man even if it wasn't the man I loved. This man I went to was the only other man I knew that was homosexual. This man was beautiful to the sight and so, so poisonous.


Shinomori Aoishi.

One of the many men Kenshin has befriended after being enemies. Personally I always thought he was gorgeous but...an ass as far as my eyes saw.


It wasn't rare to be homosexual in these times, but...it was rare for the homosexual to come out, for fear of ignorance. Aoishi was not he already had been cast aside from society since his days with the Oniwaban. Plus he wasn't one to get pushed around.


I went to his dojo and almost banged down the door. He answered it and stared at me with a misunderstood look. "Sagara Sanosuke...what are you doing here?" I was drunk and horny and didn't understand what I was doing so...I grabbed the collar of his shirt and kissed him.


It didn't seem to bother him though since he grasped my back and pulled me closer. He pulled me in and pushed me against the wall, he was overpowering me and I liked it. I wondered which one of us would be the aggressor and now I knew.


"Aoishi..." I growled through our heated kiss. He groaned pushing me down to the floor and tearing off my jacket. He leaned up untying my pants as he lifted me to him. I was now on his lap and could feel how much he wanted me as I tore open his shirt kissing his scarred chest.

He pushed me down to the floor and I blacked out with ecstasy.


When I awoke I was on the floor naked, and wrapped in Aoishi's shirt. I turned over and saw him smiling at me. "That was incredible..." I sighed as I lay my head into his shirt. He smiled again at me, his blue gems sparkling "your in love with Kenshin..."


Those five words swarmed through my head like a bad dream. And I frowned. "It's hard to love someone and not have them love you back." He looked away and smirked. "How did you know?" I asked him. He smiled again... "you called out his name". I scowled "if your offended I am truly sorry" but I wasn't. He smiled again "no, I haven't had sex in a long time even if it is meaningless, it was good. And it serves good for health reasons." I smiled "thank you".

I pulled my pants back on and stood up, when I had looked at Aoishi I had gotten aroused again so I turned away. He stood up as well and wrapped his arms around my stomach, he was turned on... I could feel it but I pulled away "ye'know I imagined you would be the one on top." he smirked "well Sanosuke I have always been stronger than you". "You think so?" I remarked and he just smiled at me... "lets find out?" He said.

So we were going to have a fist fight after sex, was that unusual? I punched my bandaged hands together, and he just stood there as I came at him. I got a punch into his stomach but he punched me back and came at me with another punch that I dodged and quickly matched with one to his face, he backed up rubbing his cheek "not bad Sagara Sanosuke...". He came at me again and grabbed me around my arms and threw me down pinning me to the floor, "not bad". He pulled down my pants and I was seduced by him once again.


A/N: well thats the first chap. Its only a short story so I didn't feel a prologue would be appropriate. So If you liked it rr.... so I know to write more or not. Flames are welcome too. ^_^x