Hello!

This is my another rated M story.

Well, I was inspired from a song. I think this song is really fit with SasuxSaku love life, LOL! XP

Oh, and I'm so sorry if the characters (especially Sasuke) maybe sometimes will be OOC. I hope you don't mind it. =)

Thank soooo much for my beta reader, AnimaniacXOX. Love ya always, LMAO! XD

Anyway...I hope you can enjoy it. Here we go!


Love Rollercoaster

~ Chapter 1 : My Dirty Secret ~

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'I'm so tired of playin' love rollercoaster with you
Cause my heart can't take this drama you be puttin' me through
It goes up and down
Round and round
Round and round
Over and Over again...'

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Disclaimer : I do not own Naruto and all of the characters, Kishimoto does. If I was owned it, I would made Sasuke end up with Sakura-chan, LOL XP.


Character's Ages :

Sasuke Uchiha : 25

Sakura Haruno : 24

Kousuke Uchiha : 5

Kaori Haruna/Uchiha : 26

Note :

- italic : other languages than English, or flashback voice, or songs lyrics

- ' ' : inner voice or talk to themself or voices in the past or elses


[Prologue; Sakura POV]

I know, this 'thing' that I'm doing...is SO wrong, in every level. But...I can't help it. This feeling...this powerful feeling that I harbor just for him, is just like a roller coaster. You know why? Because I could feel thrilled, scared, happy, nervous, hurt, sad, crazy, surprised, and comforted at the same time. Sometimes when I was in my sane state, I just wanted to end all of it because I know it's not good for both of us. Just like when he was in his sane state too, suddenly he will ignore me and go back to his family to spend the rest of his time with. But sometimes, when I was in my lovey-dovey state, and he will plead that he doesn't want to end this, I will open my arms widely for him and to make it even worse, he will come to my embrace without any hesitation. What am I suppose to do then when he was like that? Shove him away as far as I can? I already tried, really. I tried to avoid him many times, but he will always find me and stubbornly take me back. I felt VERY dirty when I met his wife, especially his son. His son always welcomed me with open arms, he truly likes me according to his action and Sasuke's statement. Why...? Why would the two of them smile so happily at me?

I can't keep lying to myself. Yes, I love him SO much and I know what we're doing is EXTREMELY wrong. He knows it very well too, but he never stopped his affections towards me, which makes me wonder a lot. Why? Why can't you stop yourself? Why can't I stop myself too?

I always hope...pray...that someday Kami-sama will give me a way to solve this, to figure it out...so both of us will be happy without any lies and secrets anymore...


[General POV]

"Mmphn...Sasuke-kun...we...can't..."

He kissed and licked her neck hungrily, leaving red marks everywhere and trails of saliva. His hand on her back and the other one on the back of her head. She put her hands on his shoulders, clutched it tightly, seeking a power to prevent her from melting into a puddle because of his ministrations. She closed her eyes to enjoy their moment. He was locking her petite figure between his built body and the white wall of her office tightly, as if afraid that she will vanish or disappear from him. He kept kissing her neck, then sucked and bit her sensitive spot. She gasped in surprise because of his actions. Unfortunately, he wasn't satisfied with just a gasp. He wanted her to moan for him. So he bit her spot a little bit hard as he slid his arm from her back to her waist and snaking it around. He gave her waist a tiny squeeze with his hand, some kind of a massage.

"Nnn...aah...S-Sasuke-kun..." He smirked, knowing that he got what he want. He wanted her to moan louder. He took back his hand from her head and placed it on her breast. He grabbed it hard, demanding her to moan louder, and a louder moan he gets. He smirked victoriously at her neck, cause once again he got what he wanted. She loved it so much and placed her hand on top of his, adding more pressure to his grip. They moaned together because of the sensation, and he backed away from her to to put his lips on the corner of her mouth. He kissed it lightly.

"Sakura..." He whispered sexily on the corner of her mouth.

Sakura was soaring high because of their 'activities'. She just wanted the time to stop right now, hoping that this moment will never end. Suddenly, a thought about what they were doing was wrong crossed in her mind, and she snapped from her heavenly state. She opened her eyes slowly, trying to focus on her vision. No wonder it was a little bit blurry. Their 'activity' was too tempting and she had to stop it. Otherwise, they will again get carried away and things would get more heated and unstoppable. She was trying to push him away slowly, so he wouldn't get shocked or something. Fortunately, she could do that and able to see his obsidian orbs, looking at it softly. He withdrew slowly, wanting to know why was she pushing him away. He looked back at her beautiful emerald eyes.

"What's wrong, tenshi?" He whispered, trying to calm his erratic breathing. Then he kissed her jaw lightly, trailing it with his kisses.

She shivered just from hearing his voice, especially the 'tenshi' part. She shook her head slowly. "Sasuke-kun...you know we have to stop this right now. We can't continue it, we're in~"

"I don't care." He replied coldly, then smashed his lips on hers in a fast motion, and catching her legs to put it besides his waist. She moaned on his lips and immediately snaking one of her hand on his neck and put the other one on his head, clutching his raven hair tightly. He sucked her bottom lips, asking for her permission. Without hesitation, she opened her mouth for him. He slid his tongue quickly, impatient to taste her again. Their tongues battling each other, exploring each others mouths, and Sasuke won dominance as always. He grunted and moaned into her mouth suddenly, feeling her core heating through the fabric against his crotch. Sakura could feel the bulge in his pants too, as a result from their heated make out session. As his hand slid inside her black tight skirt and tried to slip inside her panties suddenly...

KNOCK-KNOCK!

They stopped abruptly.

"Haruno-san? This is Hikari. Tsunade-sama called for your presence in her office." A small voice could be heard from the other side of the wooden door.

"H-hai, Hikari-san! Just a moment, please."

"Hai, Haruno-san."

Sakura heard Sasuke mutter some curses. She giggled quietly as she saw his attitude. He released her from his embrace, then they straightened their clothes. She tidied up her light pink short hair, and walked to the door. Before she opened it, Sasuke had sat down on her maroon couch.

"Hikari-san! I already told you to call me Sakura instead of Haruno-san."

"A-ah, yes, Haru~ I mean, Sakura-san! Oh, hello, Uchiha-san. I'm so sorry, I just noticed you." The girl with light-sky blue short hair and her nurse outfit bowed to Sasuke. Sasuke just gave a polite nod of his head.

"I will go to Tsunade-sama's office in a minute. Thank you for informing me, Hikari-san." Sakura smiled gratefully at her.

"Hai! You're welcome, Sakura-san! Then please excuse me." Hikari bowed once again and went away to wherever she wants to go. Sakura closed the door and leaned on it. She puffed out her breath as she put her hand on her chest. "That was close. Kami-sama..." She felt the need to rub her temple, so she put her fingers on it and massaged it lightly, trying to ease the headache that came without her realization.

He sighed. "Yeah, I know. If that was Tsunade, then..."

"Then we would have DIED! I already told you it's to risky to do 'it' in my office! I tried to stop you, you know." She raised her voice a little, still afraid if someone will hear them.

"Tch. I didn't hear someone complaining here..."

Sakura blushed as she heard what he had said and lowered her head to hide it. "I-I...at least I-I tried to s-stop you..." She said it half whispered. He smirked, proud that he could make her blush like that. Yes, only him, nobody else can. He stood up from the couch and approached her. He lifted her chin and look into her eyes. She looked at back, showing a questioned look. He just smiled warmly and gaved her a chaste kiss. As he kissed her, she closed her eyes slowly, enjoying the soft treatment from him. This is why she hates him. She hates it when he showed her his affection towards her. But on the other hand, she couldn't help it at all, she admitted that she likes it. No matter how many thoughts about the wrong thing from what they were doing, she will always likes it.

He retracted his head, and looked into her emerald eyes again. "You should go..." She whispered to him. Slowly he just put his forehead on hers. He snaked his hands around her waist, and they stood still like that for a couple of minutes.

"Aa...I know. I just...don't want to..." He whispered back to reply her, closing his eyelids. She smiled bitterly, feeling a bit sad just from hearing what he said.

"Come on, you have to. Don't make Kousuke wait too long. You should pick him up at the playgroup, right? It's already afternoon, Sasuke-kun." She cupped his cheeks, rubbed it lightly with her thumbs.

"Hn." He replied. After opened his eyelids, he then kissed her forehead softly, signing that he will go. She smiled, understand it easily. Then he went out from her office. As he was out of there, finally a tear escaped from the verge of her eyes successfully. She smiled bitterly once again...

'What am I supposed to do to stop this...? I'm so dirty...'


[Sakura POV]

Finally, my work today was finished. Tsunade-sama gave me another project to do. As her apprentice, she has been treating me so well. That's why I have my own office in the hospital. I was walking to the gate of the hospital when I heard someone call my name. "Sakura Ba-chan!" I stopped my steps and smiled. There, in the middle of the gate, stood two people that I knew so well. Sasuke and a little boy, the one who was calling my name with his cute little voice, Kousuke Uchiha. Kousuke waved his hand to me, and Sasuke smirked beside him. My smile still lingered in my lips while I was walking towards them.

"Kousuke-kun! How was your school today?" I crouched down to him and ruffled his dark brown hair a bit. He chuckled and blushed. I know, it was weird. Why was he blushing? I don't know, maybe he was just embarrassed when I was ruffling his hair like that.

"Great! As always! I couldn't wait to visit you here, just at your home time..." He whispered the last sentences.

"Ooh...I see. So...you missed me, ne?" I smiled warmly and titled my head slightly, trying to look at his face and into his onyx orbs, just like Sasuke's. Cause he lowered his head, getting interested with the ground than me. He put his hands on the back and nodded lightly. I smiled widely, showing my teeth a little.

"Kawaiiii! You really missed me, yay!" I hugged him in a sudden motion and he flinched a little bit, maybe my action really was surprising him. Moreover, he stood still, his arms on his sides and he did not hugged me back. Was he too shy with me? I retarded from him a bit to see his face, and it was SO red. He was blushing very hard! Aaw, he was SO cute, honestly! I smiled again and this time I stroked his hair.

"Kousuke...it's time to go home. You already saw your lovely Ba-chan, ne?" Sasuke talked, and I blushed, because he was emphasizing the 'lovely' word. Ah, I just realized it, that I ignored Sasuke all the time when I was talking with Kousuke. Well, to be honest, Kousuke is my heart throb, he will always take away all of my attention to him, even though he is not my own son. But I love him as much as I think he loves me. No, scratch that. I love him MORE than he loves me.

Kousuke turned to look at his father. "Ne...Tou-san...home already?"

"Why? You still miss Sakura Ba-chan?"

"W-Well...I-I..." He stuttered from the questions of his father. His father smirked as he looked his son. Since when did his son start stuttering?

"Your father was right, Kousuke-kun. It's too late already. You should go home. I bet your mother is waiting for you at home." I said that with a thin smile on my lips. Yes, I was sad when I was mentioned his mother. It remembered me the fact that I'm not her true mother.

"Ne...Sakura Ba-chan...would you go to my house together with us? Pleaseee...onegai, Sakura Ba-chan..." He pouted and begged. Honestly, I could not stand to see his begging face and his pout, and it makes me want to accept his offer. But I should reject it softly. I have to, there's no excuse. I just don't want to meet his mother right now. I'm not on my stable state. I sighed heavily, cause it's so hard to reject this cute angel. Especially, when he was pouting like that.

"Gomen, Kousuke-kun...but..." I smiled sadly at him.

"Nani? Doushite?" He asked me in his sad face, knowing that something not good was going to come out of my mouth.

"I have something important to do at home. If not, Tsunade Baa-chan will get mad at me." I smiled apologetically.

He looked down again, a sure mannerism that he wanted to cry. I felt guilty for rejecting him. I took my right hand and placed it on his right cheek. I rubbed it softly, trying to comfort him. "Ne...Kousuke-kun? Are you mad at me? You're mad, aren't you?" He just shook his head slowly. Then I heard Sasuke sigh heavily.

"Kousuke, it's okay. We can meet Sakura Ba-chan tomorrow, or anytime you want, okay? Please don't be mad at her. You will make her sad if you do." Sasuke said it while raked his front hair with his hand and closed his eyes.

Suddenly Kousuke turned away from me abruptly and faced his father. "I'm not mad at Sakura Ba-chan! I love her! And one day, I want to marry a woman just like her!" Kousuke shouted at his father, making Sasuke look taken aback. I was very surprised when I heard what he just said. After he said that, he immediately hugged me. I hugged him back. He hid his face in the crook of my neck and I rubbed his back gently. I looked up at Sasuke, giving him a questioning look. He closed his eyes and nodded at me. I picked Kousuke up and talked to him.

"Okay...I'll walk you home, but you stay in my embrace like this until we reach your house, okay? I bet you're tired, you just came home from the playgroup, am I right?" I got a nod as an answer from him. He encircled his arms on my neck. I placed my hand on his bottom and the other one on the back of his head.

"You okay with this?" Sasuke asked me, just to make sure. I smiled at him and nodded. He smiled back with a tiny smile. Then we walked side by side, with Kousuke in my arms. In no time, I could feel his steady breathing on my neck, as a sign that he already fell asleep. I smiled at the thought of that and kissed his dark brown hair softly. I don't know why, but I could feel that Sasuke was looking at me several times in our trip with...affection? Passion? Or maybe...love? I don't know, I don't want to guess about it right now, and I don't want to hope. Cause the thoughts made a tingling feeling in my stomach. I just hope it's not the butterflies. Cause I'm not a thirteen or seventeen years old girl anymore.

Twenty minutes later, we arrived at the front of Sasuke's house. The distance between the hospital and Sasuke's house is not really far. We can walk in twenty or fifteen minutes if you want. I gave Kousuke to Sasuke's arms slowly and softly, so I wasn't waking him up. Sasuke did the same position with his hands just like me back then on Kousuke. "You're not coming in?" Sasuke asked.

"No, thank you, Sasuke-kun. Like I said, I have a project from Tsunade-sama that I must do." I smiled a little bit bitterly at him, remembering his wife's face.

"Aa. Then I will go inside."

"Yes, you should. Your wife is waiting, of course..." I was half whispering when I said that.

"Sakura..." He tried to look at me but I looked away from him before he could did that.

"Well, then, ja. See you, Sasuke-kun! Sayonara!" I ran away as quick as I could.

"Sakura! Wait~!" I could hear him trying to stop me, but I will not stop, no matter what he said.

I ran, ran, and kept running, until I could feel that I was far enough. I stopped running when I reached a house five blocks away from his. Then I clutched my red shirt under the white coat. I could feel my heart hurt...again. How...how can I stop this feeling of hurt? What am I suppose to do? Should I end this? Or should I just continue it? Our affair...this was not right. It will hurt Kousuke...a lot, if he knows.

I walked, searching for a taxi. When I saw one, I quickly called to it. I told the driver where my address was, and with a nod, he silently started the engine. I cried in the taxi silently...letting the tears fall without making an effort to rub it away...

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TBC


*Translation:

- gomen : sorry

- Kami-sama : God

- tenshi : angel

- hai : yes

- nani : what

- doushite : why

- ba-chan/ba-san : aunt

- baa-chan/baa-san : grandma/grandmother

- ja : bye

- sayonara : goodbye


Haaah...finally, the first chapter was done.

So, what do you think? Good? Bad? So-so?

Then, review pleaseeeee! So I can fix it in the future. Oh, and if you have some ideas or questions, you can tell me or ask me in your review or PM me, kay? I will welcome it happily, LOL. XD

But I warn you, NO FLAMES PLEASE. I need constructive criticism, really. And I know you all are smart readers, LMAO! XD

Please look forward to my next chapter!

Arigatou ne! JA! =^o^=