Vengeance of Fate
By: theunknownvoice
Disclaimer: I don't own Star Wars.
Prologue: The Datapad and the Beginning
A/N: This is only the prologue. The story really starts to take place after this chapter. This is in fact the setup
When he first found the datapad he had just assumed that it had belonged to his uncle or his mother. They always had datapads. Mom said she couldn't live without them. She needed to be able to put her thoughts down constantly.
"You never know when something you think will be used in a political debate."
He tended to agree but then again he was more like his mother than either his brother or sister. Both had their father's mind for mechanics. They understood the world in the shape of tools and puzzles. He was different.
Uncle Luke had told him that he was strong in the living force. The sixteen year old still struggled with the meaning as he continuously thought of his destiny. The force said that everyone had a destiny but his was one that he perhaps would never accept his.
But he didn't think about what had been bothering him. Mediation hadn't been helping and neither had tending his pets. His siblings were off repairing the Falcon with his father. That only left him and his mother in the Coruscant apartment.
Leia was currently sitting on the window seat working on her latest speech. He watched her sensing her frustration. Typical Mom, she didn't ever take time for a break. She needs one now though.
"Mom, did you misplace a datapad?"
Leia looked up her brown eyes meeting her son who was holding at the aged electronic to her. The screen was too bulky to be one of her datapads. The keys were too large and the machine looked like it had been tampered with.
"I doubt this type of datapad has been manufactured since before the Clone Wars. I wonder where—now I remember. Your Uncle Luke found it when he was cleaning up the old Jedi temple. It was locked in a compartment in one of the old padawan quarters. You can have it if you like."
Jacen glanced at the old electronic. He had never had a datapad before. It wasn't something he often thought about wanting considering his interest did lie more in his animals but still he could use it as a diary of sorts. A place he could think that Jaina would not have access to.
"Thanks Mom."
It was hours later before he had a chance to examine it at all. At first there seemed to be a strange encryption code on the datapad itself. Jacen would be the first person to admit that he was slightly (Anakin would say hopelessly) technologically challenged but he did know someone who could crack the password for him.
Anakin grinned at his latest puzzle as Jacen watched in bewilderment.
"It could be any number of characters and galactic alphabets but most likely the word is spelled in basic but that doesn't mean that it's a basic word."
"You mean it could be in wookie?"
"Most likely not but it's in something else. I could have it cracked by the end of the week."
Jacen frowned. He really wanted to use the datapad tonight. Anakin didn't notice his brother's disappointment as he began to run encryption programs on it. It clinked on the language selection and for fun decided to try out huttese. The machine quickly spit back a password and opened.
Anakin's mouth dropped as he glanced at the now working datapad.
"I didn't think that it would be that easy."
Jacen smiled. "You always were better at things like this than you ever acknowledged."
The younger boy smiled at the unexpected praise as his brother walked out of the room.
Jacen laid down on his bed in hopes of writing. Carefully he opened the program for writng and found that a file immediately popped up. It looked a journal but the title, My Confession, made him stop from deleting it.
His eyes practically bugged out of his sockets as read the name at bottom of the screen and he began to read.
To whoever reads this, know I am not a good man. I never pretended to be. I was supposed to be some savior with a great destiny. The Chosen One, the savior of the Jedi, the war hero of the Clone Wars—useless titles.
Destiny weighs heavy on a person. Destiny is useless and no prophecy dictates who you become.
I am not one to apologize—
But this time I have too. I ruined the life of two women. I twisted and distorted the love they felt for me and took from them their innocence.
Padme, my sweet angel, her life was destroyed because of what I became. I don't know if she loved me in the end or if she ever acknowledged me as the one she had once called husband. She saw Vader as a monster and Anakin as a scared boy. She loved me in her own way but it was mixed with pity. She felt responsible for separating a young boy from his mother and sending him into cold space.
Sometimes I wonder if Padme was a dream. She didn't seem real. Even as I touched or laid next to her, I was aware that any moment my happiness would end. The force torments me. It does not allow me to be happy or have safety. It does not grant me peace. Instead it takes from me or lures in front of me the opportunity for some moment when I won't have to worry.
Sith do not have a conscious but I do. Perhaps I am not yet enough of a Sith to not feel regret. It does not matter.
Padme's life I left my mark on. Sabe's life I ruined. I can still see her posing as the queen trying to carry herself strongly.
She was strong. Sabe was the strongest person I ever met and the first true friend I ever had and she remained my friend even when I was Vader. She did not abandon me.
The child that I was had loved Padme. The man that I became loved Sabe. She never rejected me, never hurt me, never left me. I forced her to make choices that were against her beliefs. I took from her. I never gave her anything but she loved me and only as I held her cold dead body did I know I loved her.
So this is my confession. The confession of Anakin Skywalker and Darth Vader. The last words I write under the name Anakin and the last time I think of Sabe.
To be continued….
A/N: This story has been in my head for over a year now. I noticed whenever I read Star Wars fanfiction that there wasn't really Anakin/Sabe. Anakin/Padme is the cannon pairing so I wanted to explore Anakin/Sabe. If you don't like the pairing please don't read and review.
